06/02/2020 Tuesday

Any challenges/worries I had pale in comparison to what our nation is experiencing. Perspective is everything. I'm just sad and looking for ways to make a difference. Good for you, DD !! David, Peps, Miss Bonnie..good to hear your voices. Starting to get really concerned about Ann.

Weight 121.2, WW Bluepoints 4. Why so low on points you may wonder? I ate zero point foods all day with my last being ahi tuna that DS left for me to cook. It was SO GOOD that I didn't weigh it and ate too much, thus finding the limit of my VSG. I haven't done that for at least 2 years and was so uncomfortable after dinner that I had to stay very still and keep belching to keep from throwing it up. So none of my usual snacks last night...

I too am worried about Ann. It was 2-3 weeks ago when she last checked in just before taking what was supposed to be a short weekend trip. With everything going on these days we can't help but worry when we don't hear from someone.

DD is staying with a friend for a couple of days while new flooring is being installed in her new apartment. There was looting nearby last night and she was frightened. What a world we are living in! I would have never expected that in the quiet city she is in.

Not much else going on here. I straightened DS' room while he is away for a couple of days and plan to do some sewing in there tomorrow. Today is my weekly food shopping and possibly lizarding on the deck. And of course a long Justice walk.

Stay safe and healthy!

Yesterday we reached 90. It was glorious. I was outside for 3 hours, sitting in the shade, hooting and hollering for students as they drove past to pick up their cap and gown. Their reactions were so funny. Some kids looked like, oh God, please no, clutching their steering wheel and looking straight ahead. Some kids were relaxed and waving, while someone in their car filmed. Some cars were decked out with streamers and banners. A couple of kids were sitting in the bed of a pick up in a lawn chair, big grins, fists pumping. And then there were the poor parents who were picking up the gown for their kids, looking chagrined as they made their way through the stations handing out signs, candy, cheering teachers before they finally reached the station with the cap and gowns.

Looks like another beautiful day on tap. At least for now. There may be severe storms this evening.

Today was my weigh in day. I am down 2.9 over two weeks of WW. I'll take it. It's been relatively painless. Last night we had pizza, and I was able to make it work with my points. If I can lose a pound a week, I would be quite satisfied.

The news continues to be grim. The helper stories I see and read provide hope. DH and I agree, that while we have been anti racist, that we now need to be more active in our beliefs. One baby step, our daughter wants to place a black lives matter sign in our front yard. It makes me nervous, which feels a bit ridiculous. It reminds me that I can opt out if I want. So, feel the discomfort, and do it anyway. The sign arrives this week. :)

Loved reading about the kids coming past to collect their cap and gowns :)

Great loss with your first fortnight on WW - well done

Protests are scheduled just a few blocks from here this afternoon. I am a bit peeved by this. I live in the suburbs bordering on the country. What possible point could be made here by protesting, destroying property, and looting? If it is a protest and it is peaceful and focuses on the homicide of Mr. Floyd, I'm all for it, but that is not what has been happening around here. Not sure if any of you saw that ANTIFA posted a tweet encouraging its followers to hit white neighborhoods and take "what's ours". So, I'm just going to say it: What is going on now is feeding the racist agendas on both sides of the issue. With the actions taking place across the country there is no chance in Hell to heal. What's going to happen is that the protests will either forcibly be stopped or they will peter out. Those frightened by the protests and rioting will judge the groups that rioted as substandard citizens, identify them as black, and judge them and continue to act as oppressors, whether intentionally or not. This is self perpetuating bull **** It's the definition of insanity, right? Doing the same thing over and over, but expecting different results.

Don't misread this: i have complete and full sympathy for the African American community and the real struggles they face in our country every day. Mr. Floyd's homicide is horrific and terrifying. It is also not an isolated incident. I understand that. However, I can not abide the arbitrary, illegal destruction of other's property, in the name of anger and oppression. In Walnut Creek the looters were fighting each other for the better loot. Can't tell me that was about Mr. Floyd's death.

Now that I got that off my chest... Food..... Weight..... Had a good shrink session yesterday. I'm in a pretty good place overall, even if I am exactly 100 pounds over my WLS goal weight today. I do not plan to ever hit that weight again, so I'm okay with that. It's not the best weight for me, anyhow. I am going to be working this week on what a good food plan for Devon looks like and includes. For years and years I have always given control of my food to others and then rebelled. So, I'm going to set my own rules, work with my own likes and dislikes and see what I can come up with.

I have more, but I need to get ready for the first floor guy to come for an estimate. Maybe I will post more later.

Love you all - Me

They managed to arrest one guy from Chicago that came to Minneapolis with a bunch of bomb materials etc. He was approaching protesters and live streaming himself, hey I got some bombs here, throws one, do you want to try it?

People in Minneapolis are searching their yards before going to bed, as some have found mason jars of gasoline, dried wood, etc throughout neighborhoods. The police confirm these findings.

Some neighborhoods are putting up barricades and manning them with neighborhood watch groups. One group interviewed last night said that this was something good from the tragedy, that they knew each other much better now.

For what it's worth, my friends who live pretty much in ground zero of all this, and who take their neighborhood watch shifts, strongly feel the damage is not from people who live in their neighborhood.

I'm watching the mayor of Oakland being interviewed on the news. I don't know anything about her, but she gives an impressive interview.

She's doing the best she can to be a good mayor. It's a very tough city to govern. There is a huge divide between the haves and the have nots. I left for good in the 90s and am happy that I never had to go back. It's not where I would want to live anymore.

Libby was in the class behind me in high school. She was in my greater circle of 'preppy' friends and was friends with some of my friends. You know how that goes.... I knew her mostly in passing. I was the high school kid that floated between the preppies, the drama geeks, and the stoners pretty seamlessly. I didn't really have a group per se until I hit university and hung out with the kids in my major.

Love to you too Peps and stay safe x

Cant wait to hear about the floors - best thing we ever did

Got up early and got the trapped bees down. Placed them in a permanent hive. Looks as if I need to build some more hives. I did get 1 sting on my chin. But it did not swell much. I did get a taste of honey. Very mild and light in color.

Hope to finish with the couch and get it where it is going this afternoon.

Civil unrest is bad. Cops unjustly killing their citizens of any color is criminal. It is also criminal to steal, loot, pillage and burn. I fear more civil unrest is coming. It is too easy to escalate.

david