Monday June 1 2020

Weight 121.4, WW Bluepoints 21. Those 21 included some cereal before bed and another earlier more healthy but not necessary snack. So why did I drop a pound? So random sometimes.

I have no wisdom. The world has gone insane. Things have to change. Is the level of violence related to pandemic tension? Maybe, but change is overdue regardless. I feel scared and powerless and I am avoiding news programs. I am doing some news reading but I have to cut it off after a while because it is too disturbing.

Today it is chilly. DS is visiting a friend but DD may come for a couple of days between apartments. I was looking forward to being alone but that's okay.

One bright note: Nephew and fiancé's pregnancy is healthy according to all tests so they are supposed to announce to the larger family today. If it hadn't been quarantine time it would already be evident as she is four months along and reports some substantial body changes.

I love you all! Stay safe and healthy!

Today, to cope with the craziness, I am focusing on "the helpers". In the midst of much pain, there are some beautiful stories of good people, doing good things. In downtown Minneapolis, I saw people, all kinds of people, cleaning up glass, debris.

It looks like we are in for a stretch of nice weather here. This afternoon I'm going to the high school for the gown and cap pick up. Teachers are invited to line the streets as students drive up for their curbside pick up. 6feet apart and wearing mask a of course. On teacher suggested we hold up signs with our names, because it might be hard to recognize us with masks :)

8 days left before break.Yes!!!

My niece is able to foil and cut my hair on June 23rd. Watch out grey hairs, we're coming for you.

So much for daily posting! The last week of school got the better of me and my energies were directed to those tasks. I had intentions most days to write here, but as the proverbial road to Hell, my intentions never came to fruition.

Where is Ann? Has anyone had contact with her outside of our VSGM board?

Liz, you are right. Our country is in turmoil. I am afraid the repercussions will be long lasting and wide spread. Kareem Abdul Jabbar wrote a very good op ed piece for the LA Times that sheds some light on the nationwide rioting. I was able to read it without subscribing. Hope that holds true to you all, as well. Anyhow, I am now subject to not only Shelter in Place rules, but also an imposed curfew. The curfew in the neighboring town is very early - 6:30 pm. I will have to find out if the curfew applies for the entire city or just the downtown shopping district. We do a lot of our shopping and take away from a neighborhood shopping area about 2 miles away that is within those city limits.

I got a HAIRCUT on Thursday. OH JOY!!!!! I generally get my hair cut every 4 weeks. A 13 week hiatus caused me to bring out the blowdryer and use a lot of hair spray to keep the Bozo wings from taking over! Now I'm back to my wash and wear! My hair guy brought his stuff to my house. We turned on the AC in my grooming room, donned masks and got my hair cut. My neighbor asked me for a haircut yesterday. I happily gave him one. He's a very nice man in his 70s and the best neighbor you could hope for.

Weight/Food - Well, the work on living with an eating disorder continues. I have been pretty aware of my eating and am becoming more and more aware of how my triggers function. Along with that awareness there seems to be an accompanying increase in empathy for myself, rather than the criticism and mental finger wagging with which I am so familiar. My nutritionist pointed out during our last session that my maintenance range is gradually lowering. Granted it's only by two pounds, but that lowering of range was managed with awareness, not dieting.

As for dieting, there is a part of me that so wants to go on a 'diet'. I know that that is not the right choice for me right now, but it is frustrating because I want to see some physical changes, too - especially the elimination of my double chin! lol! I still struggle with who I am as a healthy eater. This week I am supposed to also think of other ways of getting a dopamine hit than from sugar. Wish me luck with that!

Yesterday, I started working on the garage. Come to think of it, I think I got a little bit of dopamine off that task! It felt good to get a few things done in that overwhelming room of STUFF!

Wishing everyone a marvelous Monday and a wonderful week to come.

It sounds like your nutritionist IS doing a good job. For those of us with weight issues I think 90% of it is in our heads so you are taking a solid approach.

Is doing a good job, or isn't?

IS! I just corrected it. I am such a bad typist on the mini keyboards that I get terrible auto-corrects. I try to proofread but obviously didn't this time!

Good Morning All

Second day of winter here and boy shes making herself known. Its super cold (by my standards). I have the Chimney Sweep Man coming at lunchtime so cant start the fire this morning. Thankful to have the ducted heating.

Finally stopped putting it off and weighed - 173.8 - its up but not as much as I thought it would be. Time to work on it before my 3 year anniversary at the end of this month

Did chores last night after work. Then cooked a massive tray of lasagna plus 18 Zuchinni and Bacon Muffins - they went into the freezer. Looking forward to seeing DSS and his family tonight. Will give DIL her birthday gifts as I wont see her on her actual birthday on Friday. Im hoping she likes them. I had a merino headband crocheted in her favourite colour by a very talented friend. Also got her 3 planter pots. We are also giving her a voucher for a night out - we will watch the boys and they can go enjoy themselves - dinner etc is on us. Thats super important I think

DH is doing well up in Brisbane. Some of his workmates walk every evening after work so DH is joining them. Im pleased as it will do him good. Exercise always lifts the mood once done.

Well thats about all my news. DS will go back to his Dads tommorrow morning so I will have a few nights on my own which I am very much looking forward too. Then Friday I head to the farm for a long weekend with my bestie. Im super excited.

Love to you all and please stay safe x

S

The other benefit of walking with others is getting to know them better which will probably help DH feel less lonely.

Yes I agree Liz x He knows all but one of the team as they are all ex Army but I think its a nice way to end the day and clear the cobwebs. Hes still doing his other role at the same time so didnt go to dinner with the team last night as he had some things to get done

I was able to facetime last night with him so he saw the grandbubbies and had a good chat with his son too :)

Not much to report, other than I'm saddened by so much these days. It's overwhelming at times.

I switched up my food delivery to one called Thistle. It's plant based, delivered by hand 3 times a week and so far tasty. The only downside, is it's too much food for my sleeve (something I haven't found to be a problem with crappy food!). But I'm getting quite a colorful array of veggies, which I rarely do normally. So I'll give this a try for a few weeks.

Anyway, wishing you all (and the country and the world, really) well!