Thursday, April 16, 2020

This morning we had our zoom call with my aunt. There were a lot of belly laughs as she was having trouble hearing us and her misinterpretations of what was being said were pretty hilarious. It was great to see everyone and spend time together.

Later I have my therapy appointment and a long list of things I may or may not chose to do. We'll see where the day takes me!

It got up to 81 here yesterday and about as pretty and clear as it could be. It looks like more of the same today.

I'm going to attempt to be more moderate in my eating today. It's really gotten out of hand...

Just checking in.

I've reached the point in isolation where I'm beginning to feel at the end of my rope. I've lost my ability to look at the bright side. I'm not sure if my children are being extra monsters, perhaps due to being cooped up, or if I'm being an extra bad mommy, perhaps because of no breaks. But I'm over it. I'm starting to feel what I think real depression might feel like. I just don't like my life right now and I have no idea when or if it'll pass. I'm pretty sure it will but having no idea of when is actually making me feel almost physically sick to my stomach. I know I'm being complainy pants! And now they've moved out our peak to another TWO WEEKS away. And there's just this sense of sheesh how long will this last. I keep trying to remind myself of all my blessings. And I am blessed. But being at home ALL DAY with kids where one is in full 2 year old mode and the other is refusing to eat (teething?) and then wailing because she's so hungry...I did not expect to do that all day, every day, never any break, not even with a distraction for them at a playground or trip to Target. I know it's hardly the sacrifice considering what others are doing, but it's not all fun over here.

Our governor seems to think maybe we peaked earlier than projected. A lot of healthcare leaders think that's baseless. All I can say is I hope in a week or two we can look back and say "yes we did peak then". Dear God I can hope. I don't think I can do another 6 weeks of this. At least the weather will be nicer then...back to 50s tomorrow.

Bright spot: I'm not gaining tons of weight. 162 but holding on to water this tim

You are in a tough situation. If a moment to yourself, a 30 minute walk, or just sitting alone in your bedroom would help, don't be afraid to ask dh to help carve that out for you. It's not being selfish. Again, it's the hardest thing I ever did, and I could go to the park, and take them shopping, and have a picnic with friends, AND, it was my most ardent desire to be a stay at home Mom. Even with 100% wanting this model of parenthood, it.was.hard. You have my admiration for getting through this. It won't always be perfect, or even pretty, but, in the end, you'll do what you have to do.

Good Morning

TGIF here and our weather has turned cool after a lovely 4 days of sunshine. We have been eating lunch on the deck. Fireplace has been started so that will keep us cosy.

Not a lot to report here. I managed my Costco trip to stock up on supplies. It wasnt busy so I was able to social distance well. Got everything we needed. DH worked in the garden after he finished. 4 new roses have been planted and he finished off the garden bed and planted the last of the peas. We will now give away the excess. Hoping to get up there after work today and get some of the seeds in - we are planting onion, spring onion, leek, spinach and brussel sprouts. I have beetroot and turnip on order - they should arrive next week and Im thinking we will pop cauliflower in too. Im super excited to be able to have our first veggie garden. Nothing better than picking part of your dinner fresh

Weight is down again 170.72 - Yo yo with swelling

Dinner is a Wombok Salad with Roast chicken - nice and simple. I plan on making homemade pizzas tommorrow night - Having a movie night with mum. Slow cooked Lamb Shanks Sunday then we have agreed next week is choose from the freezer all week. I have been cooking way too much and we cant fit in another thing. Likely 40+ homecooked meals in there. Should make some space and free up time to get other tasks done after work.

Well I had best go make a second cup of tea and start my day

Love to you all

S

Shirley I read your post to say "wombat salad"!!!! I thought NOOOOO, don't eat a wombat! What is wombok salad? Ds

He he he - No wombats are consumed..... promise

Here is the recipe. The dressing is best added just before serving as it makes the Noodles go a little soggy. We eat it the next day as its a favourite but many dont like the sogginess. Its my mums favourite salad so I try to make it every couple of weeks for her whilst shes staying with us

https://www.changs.com/recipes/Crispy-Noodle-Salad/

Enjoy x

Greetings Socially Distanced People

Its been a month here in CA and its getting pretty old. Too much computer game time.

SIL contacted us today to ask us to work on a project for her. She is very active in political causes and right now is working on establishing on line voting. She wants us to research organizations and apps. I declined. Not my skill set plus the computer drives me nuts unless its something fun. DH is helping however and he is much better at it.

Ventured out yesterday and scored a refill jug of soft hand soap. Last one on the shelf. DH has decided its ok to fill those pump jars with Dawn. It is NOT ok.

Also scored some sugar snap pea and sweet pea starts plus seeds for snow peas. DH needs a hobby and thinks we should grow some food. Somehow I don't think we can survive long on a diet of snow peas but don't tell him that.

We have both used the masks provided by Ocean Diane and they are wonderful. I felt so smug out in public - like I had the latest fashion find and everyone else was in sweats.

So sorry to hear of your surgery complication Ann. Hope you get some answers on your trek to the doctor. Worth it if you are not too tired. Don't worry about us - check in only when you are ready. We send good thoughts.

Lots of aircraft around here recently. I have heard that military uses our airport for refueling though I can't see why. Fuel is expensive here because it is trucked in so far. yesterday I swear I saw a 747 - huge and practically hovering in the sky. Military bombers have also been spotted as well as the usual coast guard helicopters. This is a town of 15 K people so why would a 747 be here? Maybe I am hallucinating. Is that a covid symptom?

There is a place on the coast here known as the Fake Farm. It was a WW2 outlook pos****ching for possible invaders from the pacific with all kinds of equipment. But it was disguised as a farm, hence the "Fake Farm". Not much left to see but the airplanes made me think of the fake farm. This place was also used to train pilots in WW2 because we are very foggy and pilots had to fly in English fog.

Shrimp croquettes tonight. I have no normal bread crumbs or crackers - only super seedy bread or rice crackers.

I think our studio is getting the cold shoulder on our covid loan. Heard they ran out of money today. We applied the first day two weeks ago. Banker is not calling me back. We will manage but I feel sorry for the truly desperate.

BB you have my sympathy. Must be hard with two young kids and not able to go to park or get a sitter. Hang in there. I think my mom had similar feelings when I was about 3 and thats why she went back to school.

Take care all

Diane S