Thursday April 2, 2020

Weight 124.2, WW Bluepoints 38. The points were because of wine.

The governor of Florida finally issued a Stay at Home order. I don't think it will change much in my very quiet area of the state, but it should make a difference in the more metropolitan and tourist areas. Unfortunately it apparently caused another run at the stores. From what I was told they were packed yesterday afternoon after the announcement. Dumb since we can still get groceries. Since the order doesn't go into effect until midnight tonight that means today will probably be just as busy. I'm glad we don't need anything.

Today may be ceiling fan cleaning day as it is cooler than it has been with low humidity. A good day for it. And maybe I will sit out in my driveway in my bathing suit under my mister for a while...

Stay at home and stay healthy!

I like your plan for making your own beach!

I am not feeling well. Seems a little crazy that I never had a cold all school year until this Corona Virus started and I began washing my hands like it was my job, and now I've had two episodes of waking up achy, with a sore throat and congestion. I could "call in sick" , but there were a lot of kids struggling yesterday, so I want to be available electronically. Benefit of working from home, instead of my office, I'm propped up in bed with my computer. And of course tea.

Oh No DD - not great news x

Rest up and drink lots of tea. Hope you feel better very soon

Thinking of you x

Weight: 133.4
Veggies/Fruits: ?
Macronutrients: Cals - estimated 4,000, Carbs - ?, Fats - ?, Proteins - ?, Fiber - ?
WW Green Points: ?
Fitbit Recorded Sleep: 10.5 hours (naps and sleep in bed)
Exercise: 2,500 steps

Was MIA yesterday ... here's why.

Tuesday night I got very little sleep--had considerable pain from spasming muscles in face/head/neck/throat as the post-op healing continues. Then when I weighed yesterday morning, the scales had dropped another whole pound in one day--to 132!

Honestly, this continuing rapid (for me) weight loss really freaked me out. So yesterday I consciously, intentionally overate (lots of bread, peanut butter, pasta, cheese, jellies, chocolate), and slept and napped tons, did not exercise, didn't even walk much, and did some serious Netflix. In other words, I had ON PURPOSE one of those kinds of days I try to never, ever have. This morning I woke up weighing 133.4. Whew! I have never been so glad to see the scales higher.

This morning I feel much better physically and emotionally. My Fitbit says that yesterday and last night I napped and slept a total of 10.5 hours, demonstrating once again that for me sleep is the foundation of self-care. Today I'm upright again.

Tuesday afternoon's visit with my buddies in a Zoom Room lasted two hours. After 25 years together it's still surprising how much positive energy we generate together, even via videoconference. Everyone in the group is very bright, but different in interesting ways. Our communication channels cross many borders and run deep in tech, finance, law, health care, governments, etc. For a quarter century we've pooled our info/intel to find patterns and glimpse early warnings that could benefit our companies and clients. Needless to say, yesterday's conversation was extremely interesting. We will convene weekly.

This morning I viewed online some of CNN anchor Chris Cuomo's last-night broadcast. I appreciate so much his very specific descriptions of his COVID-19 symptoms (I assume you all know he has been diagnosed and is now quarantined at home in his basement). If I get this disease, I'll be going through it alone here at home. It's oddly comforting to learn that if I get a "bad version" what that might be like for me. Cuomo's descriptions make me even more determined to do everything I can NOT to get sick. His reports also strengthen my determination NOT to feel sorry for myself about having to stay home alone. All I have to do is think about DianeO's daughter and all the front-line warriors among my family and friends, and STFU.

Yesterday our county reported its first case of COVID-19. That means the next two months will be a time of exponentially increasing pain. One way I keep thinking of this disease's arc is that as infections around me proliferate, the way I behaved one week ago could be 10X more dangerous to myself and to others next week and 100X more dangerous the week after that, etc. That means my behavior will need to keep changing as conditions change. At the same time, I am trying to remember that I cannot control everything that happens--to me, much less to anyone else. I'm breathing deeply, meditating daily, trying to accept life's uncertainty and unpredictability.

I also appreciate Chris Cuomos reporting about his experience. As time goes on, we're learning that when medical experts say, most people will have a mild to moderate case, they mean, won't need to be hospitalized. Doesn't mean you won't feel very sick. I admit, I'm afraid of the misery that might be coming, but on the other hand, a significant number of people will eventually get it, and kind of have to, right? To build herd immunity? Ann I sincerely, sincerely hope you are not one of those herd immunity builders.

Missed you yesterday x

Glad you had a blob day - they are needed and it sounds like it did the trick on many fronts x

What I found disconcerting about Chris Cuomo's broadcast/report is that, frankly, he looks too damn good. He says he is having horrible nights, has a fever, but then he appears all business, looks healthy and does an energetic report. I'm not sure what kind of message that is sending to the viewing public.... I mean honestly, looking at him I thought to myself, "Well, that doesn't look sooo bad at all."

I thought his eyes looked really sick.

Weight: 163

I was feeling pretty sad yesterday. Tired. Maybe depressed?

And I know things are pretty good for me. I'm not braving it like Diane O's daughter. I haven't lost my job. I'm not trying to homeschool my kids. But I think it's okay to feel the grief. I just read a NYtimes (I think?) article about naming it grief.

I'm definitely someone who thrives off routines, goals, plans and everything has a wrench thrown in it right now. I want to begin to make new plans but that's hard too.

I mentioned yesterday that I think I may need to adapt my strategy. But idk. I know everyone is hard on "hoarders" but I also think the last place I want to be is a grocery store right now and for the next month, honestly. But apparently everything from bread to milk to cleaning products are being limited. Even meat! I would like to plan healthier menus, but that's also so hard if I put in for delivery and things aren't available (like what if recipe depends on it). But arrggh first world problems.

I also would like to plan activities for the girls and maybe that would get them and me out of a funk, but that's also biting off so much! Maybe right now it's okay to "just be"? Or maybe I should use this time to attack my goals.

Well there is one goal I'm trying to accomplish right now: potty training Becca. It's going pretty well but it is pretty intense. I need to watch her like a hawk. And she's not enjoying it too much.

Walked yesterday. Really been enjoying that. But no more for a couple days while going through intense stages of potty training.

Oh, I've been listening to podcasts while i walk. I have a few Economics podcasts I enjoy. One of the Economists was outraged that some of these businesses don't have an operating budget to make it 3-6 months "like an average American family would be expected to do" ??? And yet a majority of Americans cannot withstand an unforeseen $1000 debt.

So that's my battle today. Not doing the weight thing. Instead, I'm making a lasagna and salad.

What are you guys doing for groceries? Similar to Ann's once a week trip? Delivery? Something else?

I am going about once a week at a time when the store isn't busy (which here means mid-morning on a weekday after the senior hours which are overly busy). It is easy to stay 6+ feet from everyone and I feel like putting someone else in the mix to pick out my groceries and deliver them is possibly just as risky as picking them out myself (while staying far away from everyone). IMHO, but everyone needs to do what they are comfortable with.

ETA: I go but SIL stays home due to her being higher risk