03/16/2020, Monday

1. Within Range: yes
2. Blue SmartPoints: 24
3. General Wellbeing: 8
4. FSF: walked S & A in park
5. Yesterday's Insights: Still employing Ann's lean into it and breathe into it approach ; reducing media exposure; I need structure within this new normal.

Shirl, best wishes as you receive your bionic knee. Follow doctor's orders ! Ann, thinking of you as you complete final preparations. DC is still on for tomorrow. Peps, I'm sure the pups will fill your days !! Diane, sending positive energy as DH is contained at home. You will have your hands full.

We will all have ups and downs as we work our way through this. Please utilize our TT space to share anything you might need. We all have one another's addresses, and can share resources. I restarted my subscription to Green Chef and ordered a monthly box of fish from the Alaskan Fish company, in addition to the fresh fruits and veggies I get weekly from Misfits. I will get on my rescue inhaler refill as soon as the office opens this AM. Have a bi-weekly box coming from Chewy this week, but received an email that they are slightly backlogged.

My chosen family, you are all in my thoughts ! We'll get through this !!

Weight: 135.6
Veggies/Fruits: 8
Macronutrients: Cals - 1,714, Carbs - 201, Fats - 54, Proteins - 99, Fiber - 49
WW Green SmartPoints: 32
Water: 0
Fitbit Recorded Sleep: 5'35"
Exercise: 35 minutes yoga@home and 11,156 steps

Weight's back down to my old 100-pound set point and holding steady here. Sometimes I think there's really something to that "set point" thing.

It's a big surgical week for several of us, with caregiving for ourselves and others. Very best wishes to Shirl, Chuck, and me.

Last night, after a long weekend of pandemic news and chatter, I finally resorted to some comfort eating after dinner. I didn't go hog wild, but my emotional energy stores were low and I simply didn't have energy left over to adult. I'm also on edge about tomorrow's surgery, which is understandable, since it's one of those "can't go back" procedures like VSG was. In any event, last night in bed I ate hazel nuts, cheese and an English muffin--foods that, at least, have some nutritional value.

On the bigger front ... I'm coming to appreciate that the quality of my self-talk is going to be important if I'm to manage my anxiety in coming months. I'm thinking of all the folks around the world who live in constant uncertainty and threats of disaster. The majority of us have been sheltered from that kind of daily anxiety. Maybe when this crisis is over we will have acquired more empathy for humankind in all situations. I know I'll be able to care better for myself, as well as others, if I can hold an attitude of empathy and kindness and turn away from judgment and scorn.

Everyone is usually doing the best they can at that moment. Words of encouragement can only help.

Sending you all courage and love!

Weight 125, WW Bluepoints 6. So I am exactly at my WLS goal on my birthday. Somehow turning 65 seems seems very strange, especially as I listen to the news about enforced quarantines in some areas for those with chronic illness and those over 65. While I feel more healthy and active these days than for the previous 15+ years.

I don't know what today will bring. Our park has closed all facilities including the pool. A bunch of us were supposed to get together for a wine party this afternoon, but who knows?

I hope Shirl does well today and Ann and Chuck are still able to go forward with their planned procedures. I think Massachusetts not only shut down bars and restaurants but also cancelled elective surgeries. On the restaurant closure, I haven't spoken with DS yet this morning, but I hope he will stay on salary for at least a while. I guess it is a good thing he is living in my Cape Cod home.

Stay healthy and safe!

Happy Birthday, Liz!

161.4

My gosh who could've imagined this scenario a month ago? A week ago?

I am really thankful that I am not so personally affected by this. I'm not working, I don't have to worry about daycare or schooling. I don't even worry about what happens if the school year goes through the summertime and alters those plans as well. My parents' work may be slightly impacted but honestly after all this there may be more litigation. My husband is able to work from home and set up well for that when he was contracting. I'm not facing postponement or cancellation of graduation celebrations, weddings, births.

But I do so worry about everyone else. I don't know how long this is going to last but I do know so so many who are dependent on the hospitality industry for their income, for money for essentials like medicine, food, rent. I know several missions are going to be impacted because there aren't Easter offerings to collect. Missions like mobile meals which delivers meals to seniors who are house bound. I know that a staggering number of Americans cannot absorb a loss of $400 much less $4000!

"I won't think about that now, I'll think about that tomorrow."

What a luxury of my generation to have really never known this kind of uncertainty, restrictions on movement, or even just the notion of making due. I honestly don't know what my stepkids would do if fast food became unavailable! And I found myself panicking over what if I run out of k cups!! What a frivolous concern!

But we'll do this one day at a time!

For me, a planner and self-admitted control freak, I need to try and tell myself there is light at the end of the tunnel. I'm hoping maybe by Memorial Day life can return to normal. I sure hope.

I don't know about y'all but weight is going to be a HUGE battle for me. I'm supposed to sit indoors all day with all these emotions and NOT eat?!! I know my gym is offering a free trial for their app of workouts. I may have to try that. Or beachbody. I'm uncertain if we are supposed to be staying indoors? In our own backyards? I will also try to practice portion control and not emotionally eat but I also know this is going to be a difficult time.

In the meantime I think I'll try to hone my cooking skills, start that devotional I've been wanting to start, and watching classic movies.

As you may know, over the weekend the US Surgeon General urged all US hospitals to cancel all elective surgeries to "flatten the curve" by (1) avoiding spreading the coronavirus through hospitals and (2) saving hospital equipment and supplies that will be needed for the upcoming surge in hospital patient care of COVID-19 cases.

However, per a conversation with my surgeon's office this morning I learned that he STILL plans to go forward with my surgery tomorrow morning. I was told (and already knew) that the operation is out-patient surgery, so I won't be admitted to the hospital. That's never been a concern anyway. But I hate the idea of using up medical supplies (even masks and gloves) that could be needed later.

If I could cancel today without any financial penalty, I would. But since this surgery isn't covered by insurance and I've already paid for it in full, I'm certain that canceling less than 24 hours before a surgical appointment my doctor thinks is appropriate to conduct tomorrow would result in my losing the entire pre-paid fee.

So for now, I'll plan on going into surgery tomorrow. If things change, I'll report in. If not, I'll see you all on the flip side, which won't be until Wednesday afternoon at the earliest.

Good morning!

Still haven't done the scale thing yet. Weight???? This is old behavior-thinking..ST(stinking thinking)- it goes like this, 'when I get my **** together then I will behave and carry on like my **** is together'. Totally defines the concept of a Catch 22. Ho Hum...this is getting so old.

Oh, the places we'll go and the things we'll see! For our group it seems like medical procedures is the name of the game. Diane and Ann, you are on my list. All will be well-outcomes fantastic! Healing quick and aggravation and glitches almost non existent. Ann, I'm sure the PS has told you already, but be sure to sleep in your recliner (w/ head elevated) for a time. It helps with the healing and swelling, etc. You are so attractive already- this is going to elevate you to Mega-model stature!

Tomorrow is pre-op for DH then back Friday for a colonoscopy. At 67, this is is first, and about time (what a wussy). I have been after him for literal years to have a baseline done. His mom died of colon cancer, which should have prompted him, but I guess it did the opposite. At any rate, I'm so thankful it is at last going to happen. Sandwiched in between I have the last of my dental procedure on Wednesday. Wednesday will be a fuzzy blur as it requires sedation, a side effect which is loss of memory for the day.

Super rainy and cold here- I think (between the two of us) we're going to introduce Swann to the joys of a treadmill. Nothing else to do-nowhere to go. Maybe artsy/crafty time--have been thinking about doing some "poor man's" encaustic using a large electric griddle for heat and crayons for medium. It is fun to watch the colored wax melt and run on the paper while trying Not to set said paper on fire!

Thank you, Bonnie. I appreciate ALL the good thoughts. And may all our outcomes happen as you predicted them.

BTW, your husband really is a WUSSY! But I'm glad he's finally starting to have that test. My mom also had colon cancer (in her mid-40s, but caught it very early and lived until she was nearly 96). All of her seven kids have been RABID about colonoscopy testing, and so far, we're all fine. But quite oddly, three brothers-in-law have had colon cancer, but all those cancers were identified in very early stages and they're doing well, thanks to their wives (my sisters) who (nearly non-metaphorically) crawled up their respective asses to make sure they got tested as soon as possible. :)

Yes, that Stinking Thinking can sure creep in. That was me in 2019. I didn't weigh from 6/6/2019-12/18/2019.

My post got eaten again! User error, but still.

Weight 188.8 Better

I am honestly getting fed up with people not listening to authorities about #staythefuckhome. As if they feel it has to get worse before they start doing their part? The people only thinking about themselves are going to kill a lot of people with their selfishness. As a hard core rule follower, it really bothers me when others don't.

My day is just a repeat of the previous few, so nothing to report. I'm thinking about Shirl and Ann and DianeO's husband and all of you! Be smart, be safe.