02/26/2020 Hump Day

1. Within Range: 8.4 over !
2. Blue SmartPoints: 20
3. General Wellbeing: 8.5
4. FSF: Elliptical over mountain pass
5. Yesterday's Insights: Channel Dottie and relax into it.

Still progressing down after my watergate ! I've thought a lot about Dottie and how we can become stuck trying to get comfortable. Finding comfort can be short lived and restricting. Relaxing into the perceived restriction is often the best solution. Smart doggie and Dog Dad !

I so appreciate it when everyone digs deep, makes meaningful connections and then SHARES. Being here gives me so much food for thought. This week, I am trying designated journaling time every day because I know it helps me process and integrate more effectively.

Good morning all! I am glad your water is dissipating. I am feeling grateful this morning for our tribe who I can trust to hear my feelings and help me.

Weight 127.6 (2nd day in a row - what was that 126.4 the other day?), WW blue points 10.

Yesterday I found out that the one last task I thought I had left with the car was a recall for an older car. So it is up to date as is my health stuff. The important things have been dealt with so far.

Today is going to be a change day with gray skies and showers. The next 3 mornings are supposed to be in the 40's, very unusual for late February in Southwest Florida. Daytimes will be in the 60's, getting into the 70's again by Sunday. Next week looks warm and nice though. So today might be a shopping day?

Have a good hump day!

Weight: 137.8
Veggies/Fruits: 9
Macronutrients: Cals - 1,853, Carbs - 187, Fats - 73, Proteins - 121, Fiber - 37
WW SmartPoints: 42
Water: 3
Fitbit Recorded Sleep: 6'35"
Exercise: 75" yoga class and 10,257 steps

Last night I couldn't fall asleep, so I stayed up later, and I got hungry. And I ate--nothing horrid, just more calories than will help me lose weight right now.

Forward. :)

DianeO, that's good that your "Watergate" (good term, Liz) is draining. And yes, you're right that conversations here are NOT superficial.

Following on DianeO's post this morning ... my thing right now, hard as it is, is practicing sitting in discomfort and uncertainty without trying to make myself feel more comfortable or more in control by seeking distractions of all kinds, including food.

Devon's RD's and my own GP's recent comments about humans' needs/desires for dopamine hits at times of stress definitely apply. This sitting in discomfort and uncertainty is not easy, but seems worth focusing on. It's also tied into what I was talking about yesterday--agonizing over-time (creating more suffering for ourselves) about what we're not satisfied with about ourselves, others, the world, etc., which will never be perfect anyway, even if perfection is momentarily achieved. I'm starting to glimpse more clearly that although it's healthy (spiritually, emotionally, physically) to address our issues, it's not healthy, nor is it necessary, for us to make ourselves miserable about those issues.

Today is Hump Day, which has become one of my favorite days of the week since deciding to treat Wednesdays like retreats without errands into town so I can focus on writing and other activities that feed my soul.

Nonetheless, tonight is the monthly "Widows Group" dinner at a restaurant. There are now four of us, and the monthly gathering is what some of us still need. Tonight I'll propose that we shift to meet on a Friday night.

Today's golden-oldie theme is Be Here Now. Y'all have a good, good Hump Day.

Diane, glad your fluids are shifting back to normal. Stopping a Med like that is hard on your whole system.

I am at the Ford dealership this morning. I probably could have gotten a ride home but I thought I can fast internet for 3 hours here. Or slow internet at home. I did make an iPad holder for the occasion. I think it is version 5.0

The weather is supposed to be great the next 4 days so with my truck fixed I am planning on going to work on the house. I installed my AC line sets incorrectly and I can keep adding freon or redo it. The weather will give me time to redo it correctly. I can also get these washers out of the shop. I will try to not fall down while doing it.

More later,

David

quick prototype.

Boy, the stuff you come up with, Dave! That's really cool.

Weight 188.8 bounce up again. I think it's too much salt

I finished my book club book yesterday. Pretty good. A quick, non-thinking read, which truth be told are my favorites. It was Someone We Know by Shari Lapena. A murder mystery in a Peyton Place type neighborhood. It made me glad to hardly know my neighbors other than to wave after 15 years! Hermits have advantages. Though, if I ever got arrested for murder, they'd all tell the reporters, "We didn't really know her; she kept to herself..." Book club is tonight.

Ferg went to the vet yesterday and got lots of pets from the staff and exclamations of "he's sooo sweet!". The vet added a medication for his arthritis (tramadol) in addition to the Carprofen, which I think just knocks him out. But at least he might sleep better at night. He also gained 3 pounds, so I think I've been surrogate feeding him while I lose weight. Oops. That can't help with the arthritis, though the vet said at his size (89 lbs), it's negligible. He had a giant wee after we left, so if he's like me, he lost a pound there!

It's gotten very warm here (85 yesterday), but should cool down again soon. It's a beautiful day, though, so I'll need to get out and enjoy it.

Diane, so glad you're draining!

Have good days everybody!

Tramadol - narcotic, used for pain relief. Will knock him on his azz!

Carprofen - anti inflammatory, mild pain reliever. Should not make him drowsy once he's used to it.

Thanks, Devon! Yeah, he's been on the Carprofen for a while and it's just not doing enough, hence the addition of tramadol. He was on it before, but I forgot how sleepy it makes him! Apparently they recently upped how much dogs can safely have, so that may be part of it too. I'm just giving it at night, I've decided so he's not catatonic during the day, but I get to sleep. Poor lamb. I worry it might be something more than arthritis especially with a golden. he also said we could try gabapentin in addition to the Carprofen but thought we should start with the tramadol. It hasn't changed his limp, just gives him better rest.

Yeah for shedding retained water, exploring truth without judging ourselves, inventive minds and being cordial, but not overly friendly with the neighbors. My MIL once told me,be friendly towards your neighbors, but find your friends a few streets over. She was an air force spouse for 20 years, so I think she must have learned a thing or two about getting along.

So I had a second visit with a bariatric doctor recommended by my WLS clinic. My clinic tells me regain will require 800 calories a day. This doctor prescribes a 1,500 calorie diet with an emphasis on protein. I told him I would try it, but I didn't think I could lose eating that much. So after a month and a half, I've lost 4 pounds according to their scales. I'm ecstatic, with little pain, I'm moving, albeit, slowly in the right direction. The doctor, who is very kind, gently questions me on whether I am measuring my food, following the protocol, do I understand it? I explain I'm satisfied with this progress. He proposes I investigate a pre packaged food service (I just order it off the internet, he doesn't get any $, he only recommends it because he likes its macros and some patients have good success). One part of my brain is, I know this is working, it's just going to be slow if I eat this much, the other part of my brain, he's disappointed by my performance. Doubt creeps in. Maybe I don't know what I'm doing. I want to be the model patient. Of course. But I'm also a grown up good girl. I want to trust myself. Finally I decide we're all a study with N=1. There is so much conflicting information about obesity. At some point we have to learn, assess, and design for our study's subject: ourselves. So I 'll stay the course I'm on for the next month.