Friday, 1/10/2020

Weight: 141.6
Veggies/Fruits: 6
Macronutrients: Cals - 1,381, Carbs - 154, Fats - 48, Protein - 89, Fiber - 37
Green SmartPoints: 34
Water: 0
Sleep: 6'20"
Exercise: 7,887 steps

I'm plugging along and eating a little more than I was last week--I guess those weekly points are there for a reason, eh? Again, the main difference between how I'm eating now and how I was eating before (when I wasn't over-eating) is that I'm eating bread again. I'm repeating myself, but that's a good change to have made, since I'd decided bread was evil, which made the world feel unnecessarily dangerous, and that's not a good thing.

Today I see my primary physician, which will (hopefully) finish up my annual physical visits. Although, at my age are physical exams ever really over? Maybe I should start thinking of them as an ongoing chore like paying the electric bill.

After that I get my first pedicure in three months! DianeO, I can hear you tsk-tsk'ing. Yeah, I know.

This afternoon my niece is coming for a visit and (maybe) spend the night with me. If she does spend the night I'll drag her with me to the Hip Hop Dance Class tonight. Boy, given how much I've been bragging here about trying out that class, I'm really going to have to show up for it, eh?

I'm doing well with exercise lately--back in yoga class, doing 3-4 days of yoga@home, and hitting 7,500 steps/day (which was my weekly target). Will move to 8,000 daily steps next week. I'm really focused right now on the consistency of my exercise and on gentle increases. I also don't want to strain my knee, which is finally healing better. Next week I'll meet with the trainer I plan to work with in 2020 and get started on that front.

I've also been rethinking my travel plans for 2020 and will make some decisions soon, since reservations and deposits are involved.

Liz, I'm thinking of you today and hoping you are able to have some time alone soon.

Weight 135, which I think is a true weight as all systems are functioning and I'm not dehydrated. Weigh-in is tomorrow morning at WW. I'd like to be unchanged at least (since last weeks was a dehydrated weight). Boy do I miss the days in the year after WLS when the weight kind of fell off.

I have been able to have some good alone time this week thank goodness. Next week will ramp up with family arriving Monday, so it is good to get this break. I just realized that I need to do some flowers for the wake from the kids and me. DS needs to finalize the food (they were supposed to call Wednesday but haven't called yet, which is worrying DS).

Yoga and rescheduled teeth cleaning happens today. I need to get my act together with pictures for the wake today and Sunday.

Have a great Friday!

Weight down enough to make me feel as if all my hard work ain't been in vain. (I can't help but think of Lina Lamont in Singing in the Rain when I write that!). One thing I realized yesterday (or was it the day before?) is that I was using an artificially low weight as my starting day weight on the WW app. Over winter break I hit 271-2 with consistency and even saw one fleeting day at 273.1! Given the fact that I'm 266.7 today I have been losing a little more than I credited myself. My weight on Sunday was 268.5, but by Monday when I started WW it was 269.9, so basically 270.

I ended up not using my allotment of points yesterday. Talking it through here was a blessing. I do like having the freedom to eat the lean proteins, eggs, and non fat dairy that I find filling and satiating with no real worry about being super accurate on weighing and measuring. Though, with meat I still always weigh because I want to keep track of sleeve size and capacity. At 8 years out I can eat 5 oz of moist chicken, 1/4 veg, and 1/4 cup starch without discomfort, but that is my true limit. More than that down the hatch and I will go into the overfull stage which takes HOURS from which to recover.

Ron had a dream the Dottie was bigger than Ella with this pregnancy. Please let it not be so! I'm hoping for a modest litter of 6-8 with some very high quality pups!

Liz, I hope you are able to have some peace and time for self care this weekend. Ann, I got a mani pedi last weekend. I hadn't even cut my own toenails since September! I had talons! PS - Channeling your Canadian neighbors today, eh?

Fabulous Fridays to all!

Weight 199.4

This might be higher after lunch today! My friend wanted to try a new ramen place that has lines out the door all day every day. It's a chain from Japan. It was good, but I imagine salty and caloric. At least with the sleeve I got full fast... onward. Tomorrow is brunch with the knitting crowd. More food. I don't really like not being in control of my own food when I'm trying to lose. Control freak! I'm bringing fruit. I need to load up on that and not the coffee cake, strudel, potatoes, bacon, egg casserole etc.

Happy Friday!

I hear you on the control freak side of things when you are trying to lose some pounds. I have a school "Buddy". I offered to have a door dash lunch delivered to her today. She picked a Greek/Mediterranean place called Yalla (small chain I believe). I felt lazy last night and thought to myself, "Well, I'm getting her lunch. I can order for myself, too." I wanted to check points and WW had no info on Yalla whatsoever-NONE! I kind of felt at a loss and had a fleeting moment of recognition of warped thinking - You know, the " I blew it", "I'm gonna eat too much", "Oh, what's the point now?", "This is going to wreck my 'diet'", etc.... Fatalism at its finest.

I ended up getting a wrap with double chicken, harissa, Israeli pickles, and hummus. I ate the guts and left the wrap. It ended up only being around 8 points for the entire lunch, so I was feeling pretty good about my choice, but boy did I vacillate over what I should order. This was a better lower fat, lower carb choice than what I was originally thinking, so that made me feel better.

Tomorrow I have a dog club. Soup and bread will be served, followed by an undisclosed dessert and a persimmon pudding. Not sure how I'm going to navigate that one, but at least I have 49 "weeklies" stock piled. LOL!

It's weird, I get cranky. Like, "doesn't everyone understand that I rarely have the motivation to work on my weight and now I think I do, ya'll are making it hard?!" There must be some pathology to wanting to choose not being with other people to control your food environment. I'm choosing the people, but just barely.

I guessed at lunch, but had 48 weekly points going into today with Monday being my weigh in day, so I need to chill out.

I hear you on the "control freak" issue, Cecily and Devon.

And I also hear you on the issue of preferring to live alone, be alone, and not wanting my food choices to be controlled by someone else's food choices.

The anxiety on thoe fronts is sky-high sometimes.

Are we crazy or what?!

At least we know we're not the only one!

I'm on my 4th day of prednisone, and bursitis pain is lessening. It also does a number on my appetite. I am intravenously hungry at times, but then can only eat a few bites and I'm full. Not complaining, as I have dropped a few pounds, just think it's weird.

Did I mention that we're celebrating DH s 60th birthday in New York? We'll be there for 6 days, and some friends/family are joining us for a long weekend. So far, 12 of us are going, and 5 more maybe, leaning towards yes. Normally I love trip planning, but I am getting freaked out by planning for this large of a group. Hotel rooms in Manhattan, or airbnb in Brooklyn that sleeps the whole group? Walking tours or hop on hop off bus? Speakeasy tour or brewery tour? What restaurant for the big birthday dinner on Saturday??!! I keep telling myself people are coming to hang out and celebrate dear husband (a guy worth celebrating!), and I don't have to be some kind of manic pixie tour guide. But I do have to plan things, because there is no inertia like the inertia of a large group trying to leave the hotel and find something to eat.

Enjoying the weigh****chers updates. I'm not joining yet, because I'll probably apply what I would spend on fees to a health club and personal trainer. It's so good to know that the plan seems to be working well for all us sleevers.

Thinking of you Liz, and what's ahead of you this week.

Ps I think I need a pedicure too. Maybe next week to celebrate the end of 1st semester.