Tuesday, December 17

Ruh Oh!

If I am posting first I always worry that something is amiss with our eastern cohort!

Shrink session was not what I had envisioned, but I guess it was okay. Focused a lot on bringing therapist up to speed on puppies. I almost felt like she should have been paying me. LOL! Perhaps it was a session centered around recognizing my strengths. She really does seem amazed by my skills of animal husbandry. I guess not everyone has the fortitude to bring puppies into the world.

I hope everyone is managing the pre Christmas rush. Ron and I have done absolutely no decorating or shopping. We started cleaning the house over the weekend, but didn't get as far as needed, by a long shot. But, there is no rush...Hahahaha.... Christmas is only 7 days away (we host Christmas Eve)! As always, we will pull it together.

Food remains a Christmas Cluster Crock! My simplistically difficult goal today is to reduce sugar intake. Easier said than done in this setting, food availability, and my genetics propensity for addictive behavior. Yes, I know it's all about choices, but making the right choices takes real work. It ain't easy. I'm tired. And honestly, I am not wanting to put in the effort to making the right choices for weight loss. Once I hit a certain point in my regain, the effort seemed moot because I'm basically back in the same boat I was in prior to WLS as far as scale numbers. I'm still better off than I was and far healthier and way more active, but the number on the scale is certainly sobering.

Music class is over. Back to work for me!

Terrific Tuesdays to all!

Ooh, my scale numbers are ugly. I'm feeling the need to do something about it, but I feel like I need a goal of some sort. Not a scale number goal, but a reward of sorts to shoot for. Like I'd like a new car (I don't NEED a new car, but I want a fun new car as I have Ferg's minivan if I need to drive a lot of people or carry something big, like Ferg, so I don't need an SUV anymore too). And I could buy it now, but I was thinking of making it a reward of sorts. Like get back into my range and then I can buy it. Is this a bad idea?

At first I was looking at DietBet where you pay into a pot and weigh yourself with a picture showing the scale and a word of the day to prove it's your current weight and if you meet the goal of the bet (all reasonable percentages), you share the pot at the end. But I don't think losing $35 bucks or whatever the buy in is is enough incentive for me. I waste that more than that on silly Amazon purchases.

I know my health, getting back into my wardrobe and feeling good in my skin are all great rewards, but I guess I was looking for an energizing kickstart. I'd be interested in your thoughts even if you're sitting there thinking, noooo.

Devon, that's the way so many of my therapy sessions go. I don't like it either. I should fix that!

So I finally weighed today and I am up 10 pounds since the last time I weighed (in early June!) and 20 pounds up from a year ago. I would like to lose at least 15 and ideally 20. I think I need the structure of WW to do that but need my life and anxiety to settle down.

You are in survival mode Doll x There will be time for all of that "Hard Work" later. Focus on being kind to yourself as you travel a very hard path.

You have so many talents Devon! That email you quoted yesterday and other stories about your students prove that you are an incredible teacher and role model. That is hugely important.

And you are a doggy daddy, midwife, groomer and show artist. Again, all of these taking a lot of patience, skill and talent.

I'm tired, tired, tired. I slept about 3 hours last night and my anxiety was through the roof most of the day yesterday. I've never had much anxiety in the past because I had good coping mechanisms but none of them are working right now. Yesterday evening I started wondering if I can survive this. DH only slept about 2 hours between 7 am yesterday and 1 pm today. He paced constantly the rest of the time except meals. He crashed right after lunch today and is sleeping soundly right now. I am fighting a battle to get DH into a geriatric psych unit which he clearly needs at this point. Either there are no beds, they are too far away, or they don't take his insurance.

Maybe I'll sleep tonight and go to WW in the am. I would like to do something for self-care. I tried to go to yoga yesterday but class was cancelled.

Have a thoughtful Tuesday!

Okay, even I can't "like" your post. such a hard time for you. Hugs.

Im on the same page - just HUGS Liz xxx

Wish we could help you carry some of this load!

Greetings Treasured Friends

No weight today or for awhile. Can't face it. Seems like a lot of us are struggling with being off the rails. I need to start tracking again but hate the idea. Oh well.

Liz your house looks beautiful. Sorry for your continued struggles. You might see about a short term anti anxiety drug. I have used one from time to time. What you are facing is extreme and unusual.

Peps, what a great note from your student. Know that you helped turn a young life around. What could be better?

Cecily I think you should get a fun car. And think electric.

I did the pool yesterday and learned to use some of the equipment they have. These foam dumbbells that help do all kinds of water aerobics. There was a gaggle of old ladies like me there yesterday all exercising in the pool.

DH has gone to Target. No telling what he will come home with.

Wishing warmth to those of you who are in cold places.

I am in Christmas denial. Not thinking about it. Looking around for restaurants that will be open.

Take care all.

Diane S