VSG Maintenance Group
Monday, October 28, 2019
Yesterday was a total stay at home day. It was windy and rainy to the point where I almost couldn't get Justice to go out at all even under the golf umbrella. I did get all my bills paid and organized my desk which had gotten a bit out of control. I cancelled my dinner out as I really don't like to drive in rain especially in the dark. I spent the day binge watching "How Women Kill" - very entertaining. DS got takeout from Panera and I had turkey chili - very tasty and pretty healthy.
Today is yoga, lunch out with friends from our old home town (they are visiting DH first), then dinner out with local long-term friends who are leaving for Florida this week. Hopefully I can make good choices, but I'm guessing there will be a good stock of leftovers again. I'm kind of glad I have nothing scheduled tomorrow since I leave for Portsmouth NH early Wednesday.
Have a marvelous Monday!
Liz 5'3" HW: 219 SW: 185 GW: 125 LW: 113 Desired maintenance range: 120-125 CW: 119ish
I am checking in remotely , waiting for DH at his appointment, before we head off to mine. Thanks for the clarification Devon...I knew endurance was a totally different focus..never linked strength and resistance together before.
Stay warm, dry and safe all !
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
Air quality sucks at school. Indoor recesses coming my way! Funny, though, that at my house a mere 7 miles away the air quality is fine. Wish I could go back home. LOL!
Spent part of yesterday buying and planning food for me (and the doggies!). Ran into one of the trainers from the gym at Costco and she was complimentary of the items in my cart. Ooooo.... caught being "good"!
DD - bought some Fairlife 1% (Ron HATES nonfat) and added 1 scoop of collagen peptides to it for a morning drink. Makes for 23 grams of protein, albeit 10 grams are not complete protein, I guess. The gut is handling it well. Thanks for the suggestion.
One of my girls came to school in a total Hoochie Mama shirt. She's on the chunky side, too, so she has a budding figure. I did my best to ignore the cut of her shirt, but when she leaned forward and left little to the imagination, I had to do something. The office had no extra shirts today, so I improvised and tied the strap at the back of the shirt to tighten it up front. So far so good. Now that it fits properly, it's a cute top. But boy, oh boy, I wonder how a mom could let an 8 year old out of the house dressed like that!
Doing my level best to detox off the sugar. It's tough, especially since only the logical part of me wants to do it. The addict side of my brain is lurking in the background waiting for an opportunity to rationalize a fix. I have a simple goal today - no sugar at school. That is my SMART goal for the day.
Merry Monday, one and all!
on 10/28/19 9:46 am
Isn't wind the worst, Liz? I can say with 100% certainty I have had enough wind to last a lifetime. And dry Santa Ana winds seem to suck the life (and water) right out of you.
Last night I spent a lot of time trying on dressier outfits for my trip. What a depressing wake up call that was. I know that I have gained a lot of weight this last year, but somehow I didn't notice it had reached a crisis point while wearing my day to day clothes. T-shirts, sweatshirts, elastic waist shorts all mask a lot. But my dresses, skirts, sweaters, and blouses which I don't have much occasion to wear are really showing the truth of what I've done to myself. I'm going to have to go shopping today to be able to go on my trip. All to buy clothes I don't want in larger sizes. My weight did not go to my stomach as the plastic surgery took care of that, but it went to my arms BIG time, my back and my hips, the last of which is weird for me to dress as I've always been a natural apple shape.
I have been on track since I got home from Michigan and am down 6.2 pounds since then, but it's not made a dent in my clothes. In the spirit of honesty (because not sharing isn't helping me stay accountable and if there are any people I shouldn't feel embarrassed with regarding weight it's you, my friends who understand weight struggles) I am 12.2 pounds into an overweight BMI. 12 or so pounds overweight doesn't sound awful to type, but being as big a person as I am, it throws me (at least my top half) into plus size clothes which I hate. The cuts, the fabrics, the designs... they're awful. Not to mention the stigma of needing that department in the first place. My hope is to continue to not overdo on my vacation and at least not gain while I'm gone. And after that I want to get back to my range, the top of which is 21.4 pounds away, and the bottom 31.4 pounds away. Ugh.
I'm so proud of you for giving our your stats. It's hard, but I have found for me it is a releasing act. There is truth in the phrase, "The truth shall set you free." You are right, too; there is no judgement here. The person who judged me the most harshly throughout my regain was ME - not any of you.
I understand all that you talk about in the embarrassment area. I get it. I'm sure we all do!
21 - 31 pounds is doable. It's not the end of the world and in the greater scheme of life, it is not worth beating yourself up over. To those of us who have weight issues, any kind of gain can send us spinning off on a self degradation tirade. I hope you can still see how fit and active you have become and how much better your overall quality of life is. I know even with my total regain, I am so much better off than I was before. I am strong, have endurance and am far happier in my skin than I was before. I bet you are, too!
Go enjoy your holiday. I love your plan of not gaining. That is my goal on vacation these days. That way I can have some flexibility around food, which keeps me much more even keeled than if I am trying to actually lose weight on vacation.
