VSG Maintenance Group
9/25/2019 Wednesday
Weight: 138.2
Protein: 84
Carbs: 108
Veggies/Fruits: 9
Water: 18 ounces
Sleep: 3.5 hours (rats!)
Exercise: Sunrise walk (30"), yoga class (75")
And here I am at dark o'clock--up since 12:30 a.m. I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. So as Devon prescribes, I got the hell up and out of bed to read. And here I am, two cups of coffee and a protein shake later. I will probably crash this afternoon.
Good news is that my weight continues its current downward trend, even when measured at 12:30 a.m.
More good news is that Where'd You Go, Bernadette? is just my cup of tea. I can't believe this book was not already on my radar, since it was published in 2012. It's set in Seattle, and that's all I'll say at this point. ;) Has anyone else read it?
Today's music is by a cool Pacific Northwest acoustic guitar duo that I never heard of before called Science! With a name like that, how could you not love them? Here they are singing about "Seattle"
ANN 5'5", AGE 74, HW 235.6 (BMI 39.2), SW 216, GW 150, CW 132, BMI 22
POUNDS LOST: Pre-op -20, M1 -10, M2 -11, M3 -10, M4 -10, M5 -7, M6 -5, M7 -6, M8 -4, M9 -4,
NEXT 10 MOS. -12, TOTAL -100 LBS.
Curious about your preferences electronic v. print. When I am reading for pure pleasure, I love electronic (digital or audio). When I am reading to remember, I have to have print, to make notes, highlight, sticky note.
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
Uhhhh ... my preference is sort of whichever form a book is to hand. I must admit that Kindle's books are sooo easy to buy and download. No shopping for it. But still I do read a lot of hardbacks. This house is FULL of them. (Bookshelves will soon be an extinct residential feature.)
I also admit that I adore how easy it is to look up definitions or dart out to Wikipedia to find out who Issey Miyake is while reading a digital edition.
P.S. I have NEVER listened to an audio book, not even when they were "books on tape" even though my primary learning modality is auditory. I'll must try that.
ANN 5'5", AGE 74, HW 235.6 (BMI 39.2), SW 216, GW 150, CW 132, BMI 22
POUNDS LOST: Pre-op -20, M1 -10, M2 -11, M3 -10, M4 -10, M5 -7, M6 -5, M7 -6, M8 -4, M9 -4,
NEXT 10 MOS. -12, TOTAL -100 LBS.
- Within Range: yes
- General Wellbeing: 9 on SS
- 10,000+ Steps: 7841
- Fitness: walking
- Self-Care: hair cut & color, massage
- Fun: decorated porch
- I learned/relearned: Patience IS a virtue... I must be more virtuous !
Picked up the corn stalks and got to work more on my porch. My massage was heavenly and I LOVE my hair cut & color. I switched the pedicure to a manicure because the l o n g nails I had for the wedding HAD to go. We have a ton of pellets for our stove being delivered tomorrow and I can't stack 50 forty pound bags with long nails. (DH is having ortho issues). Evidently the nail technician I went to in Maine applied too many layers of product and I had to soak in acetone to have them removed to start over. (Shel would yell... I know, carcinogens..) By the time they were off, and my hands were rehabbed from the acetone, it was recommended I go bare for a month or two to let my nail beds heal.
Thinking about all of you, but especially our two Bonnies.
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
OK, so do y'all want to hear my just-now identified version of Crazy?
One of the things I have difficulty doing throughout the day is drinking enough water. I really fight it! That means that when I wake up in the middle of the night at (just spitwadding here) midnight and while asleep I've been breathing through my mouth (given that it's goldenrod season in the Lower Midwest), my mouth is super dry and I am (clinical word here) dehydrated.
But do I take several drinks of water and lie back down to rest?
No, I don't. Because I don't want the scales to weigh "heavier than they might" whenever I finally DO get up and weigh just because I drank some water in the middle of the night.
So what's your diagnosis, doctors? Is this an "eating disorder"? A "drinking disorder"? Should I stop weighing every morning and weigh only once a week (which feels scary)? Should my mother have had me tested as a child to see if I was crazy? Should I channel all this obsession abou****er intake and daily weigh-ins into a lower-weight wrestling career?
ANN 5'5", AGE 74, HW 235.6 (BMI 39.2), SW 216, GW 150, CW 132, BMI 22
POUNDS LOST: Pre-op -20, M1 -10, M2 -11, M3 -10, M4 -10, M5 -7, M6 -5, M7 -6, M8 -4, M9 -4,
NEXT 10 MOS. -12, TOTAL -100 LBS.
Not even a little sip to quench your mouth?
I totally get your thinking, because mine is similar. I no longer think those thoughts out loud to myself. I just know they are there. It has taken years of practice to drink the perfect amount of water when I get up to use the loo. Just enough to wet the whistle, but not enough to add an ounce to the number on the scale.
I don't think that is disordered eating, but rather a body dysmorphia issue. Just guessing, though...
Weight: 166.6
It was a quick way to lose 2lbs.--lose the boobs. Another pound of fat in lipo. Another couple in grief.
Sorry, y'all. I haven't been keeping up here. But I have seen stuff on Facebook. Weddings and Vegas make me happy. Life.
I guess life returns. How it's possible, I don't know.
I always knew that day was coming but you're just never quite prepared for it. I'm feeling more comfortable with my faith this time. And maybe just because I gosh darn hope we see our loved ones again. Not a lot of science behind that. But I guess that's faith. And I'm going to choose to believe I'll see them all again. Heaven is already looking more attractive.
I made it through the eulogy and I thought it was really lovely. I had worked so long on it I was worried I'd be numb to the words and it wouldn't be impactful. But I received lots of nice compliments. So I guess that worked. Weird how I wanted to do well at it and yet it's not something I ever wanted to do. Really.
She was more like a mother. Gosh getting older is hard.
Back on the weight front, this has caused me some reflections
Apparently now I am not an eat-through-grief-er. My stomach has been unsettled. I've been picking. The last time I lost someone important was just days after VSG. Back then I probably was a grief eater. And I was mourning food already. At a time when people were bringing in food constantly.
And yet simultaneously I can recognize just how important food is in my life. It just may be my love language. And no doubt it had to do with my grandmommy. She always had food. There was such comfort in that. Now more than ever I want to recreate that. For myself, for my dad, for my kids. But I'm keenly aware of needing to balance that out. Hmmm. I don't think homemade food is all that bad. Even when it's chicken fried steak with gravy or a pie. I know too many "young people" who go through a drive-thru and consume just as many calories without the same pleasure. So it's not just that.
