Wednesday, September 11, 2019

I am first again???

DH is home today. I never made it to Quissett Harbor yesterday but I might take him today. Apparently there are dolphins swimming there right now, which is almost never seen in New England. Today is supposed to be warm and humid but it is super windy.

DH was assigned a room yesterday in the Cotuit neighborhood (they have 3 units called neighborhoods with 20 rooms each and are named after nearby Cape Cod towns or areas). It overlooks the courtyard so he will have a beautiful view.

Nothing else going on here! Have a windy Wednesday!

Good morning! I am happy to report this foot massager I bought has all but cured my plantar fasciitis. Maybe the first w steps in the morning I can feel it, but the rest of the day is pain free. Hallelujah!

Foodwise I continue to do okay. The craving/binge monster hits when I'm alone after dinner (I think the trigger is being alone rather than being nighttime as I'm not a nighttime eater, but I am a secret eater). But not having things to eat or fashion a carb binge from is helping tremendously. I don't know how well it would work if I was trying to eat all meals here, but for breakfast and lunch it's fine.

I need to do something active today. It may be the treadmill as rain is coming.

Fergus has turned super naughty at night, running away and hiding when it's time to come inside, not coming in when it's pouring rain, etc. The family theory is he was compliant when he wasn't feeling well and he must be feeling better and has reverted to his stubborn, naughty self. I hope so, though he's driving me crazy. Not even treats can lure him. He doesn't have a follow up echocardiogram until November to see if there is any improvement. Only nutritionally-mediated dilated cardiomyopathy can improve. All other DCM is a one way street.

Hugs to all of you!

Haha, Ferg's got attitude. Gotta love it.

Hey Diamond, please check your OH personal messages

I don't see any new messages?

Reflective 9/11. Ann, your metaphor about exotic v. partner pets got me thinking about reactivity v. proactivity. So many times, we find ourselves in situations/cir****tances requiring us to be reactive. More and more the key seems to be building in the space that enables us to focus more on being proactive. DD, your beach trips for reading (and hopefully soon kayaking) seems to provide some of that for you. Liz, you've lived in a forced reactive place for so long...so many new opportunities coming to care for yourself and to make plans you can control. Peps, cutting back on clients enables you to build your proactivity space. Can't wait to hear about the jeans. Sorry about the 2nd root canal...I reached the place where I have more crowns than teeth! Ann, your plastics plan and timing sound solid ! I agree with you that our tribe is evolving into such a rich source of insight, comfort, knowledge and stability. I concur with everyone who sees this sacred space as a lifeline. It is wise for us to have a back up plan for remaining connected. Our directory certainly makes me feel like we have the beginnings. I'll do another update (some of you have added phone numbers) when I get back from Maine. Ceci, love love your hiking speed challenge ! BB, thanks for checking in after surgery. We're they able to do it laparoscopically ? Shirl, is your throat better ? Can't wait for your report on Dwarfish ! Dave ...loving your online retail therapy ! Score with that vacuum ! Diane, thanks again for your timely Shel photo!!

I know I have gained double what I lost in Vancouver. I have not ever experienced DC to be so ravenous for pastries and bakery items and I hopped on the carb train. My activity level is much lower here than in VC. My body feels crummy and sluggish and I am not feeling good about my choices. I need to put an end to this cycle, so that I can restore the healthy balance I typically enjoy.

I like to think about those proactive things as the answer to, what am I really hungry for? Music, water views, something substantial to read, nature, theater, friends and family, but also quiet time, champagne, chai latte, movies... If I fill up on these things, the "slings and arrows" of life don't sting as much.

Went for post op visit yesterday. He said the knee and swelling looks good but then told me I needed PT to give me a little push. I must have been doing my exercises wrong or something. I have really been a whimp on the pain. The doc also cut the number of pain pills back again and told me to save them for after PT.

Lots of waking during the night. I think I napped yesterday for about 30 minutes. Slept the best I have slept in a long time from 5 til 7 this morning.

DW has been cooking my breakfast and making my coffee for the past couple of weeks. I usually make her coffee and she usually makes my bed. I'm sure it won't be long before I am independent again. She does cook my eggs like I like them. She usually adds protein powder to her coffee for her breakfast. Yuck. If I was going to do protein shakes I would not ruin my coffee with it.

Adalyn is cutting 2 more teeth. Running a bit of fever. And caught a stomach bug from daycare. Pretty bad when pop pop tells DD to take her home and put her to bed. She is just miserable.

Peace

Don't think I'll be weighing for awhile.

I just glanced over yesterday's posts but looked like some good discussions that I'll want to bookmark for later.

Pain is pretty tolerable. I feel very selfish and terrible for putting this on the backs of everyone else, especially DH. I'm also worried I will never be happy with my chest. But it is what it is. Cannot go backwards. Poop.

Diane O.-nope not laparoscopically but they did go through the original scar

Chest hurts more than sides. Bound very tightly like Thoroughly Modern Millie. Drains in but not bad probably because bound so tight. Least fun part is asthma + chest surgery (coughing hurts) and I'm hating sleeping in a recliner.

Wouldn't even know I had anything done to my sides. She said she got 500cc fat. Sure doesn't sound like much. Between that and the lack of soreness I guess I'm worrying that she did enough. I mean it wasn't bad to begin with so I'm hoping there's enough improvement to justify it. What's the point in a new (higher?) scar if we didn't get rid of all the muffin top.

eek the doubts you have after surgery.

I probably won't get drains out until Monday but hoping by then to feel pretty good. Lifting restrictions for awhile still

I'm sure it will all be worth it. I hope your cough won't kick in too much.