Tuesday, July 30, 2019

I've missed you. That is all.

Me too - protein about the same from one year out, but endless crap capacity.

Greetings Peeps and Peps and Pups

158 today. No gain so I'll take it. Dinner last night was a black bean veggie burger. With cheese of course.

Welcome back from the writing experience Ann. Rest up and then tell us more. Hope you will post some of your creative writing. Good writing is such a joy. Can be enjoyed over and over. Glad you met up with Shel's friend. Any friend of Shel's must be a good person.

Those boot flip flops are hilarious. Its like someone set out to come up with the most ridiculous item possible. Yep, try showing up to a rodeo in those!

Guess I was AWOL yesterday. Read the posts but somehow forgot to comment. All the diet soda stuff is interesting. There is a lot of internet stuff out there on the correlation between the diet soda and weight gain but no real explanation if its a true cause or if some other factors are involved. Luckily I have never liked diet soda. (remember Tab? blecchhhh!). I would rather drink unsweetened iced tea. I bet I have only had about two carbonated drinks since I had VSG. Just not interested though lately a real Coke is appealing.

Dog Chip is shivering a lot since his hair cut. Its about 60 degrees here. I covered him with a blanket. I might have to get him a dog coat!

DH is at the eye doctor. Not sure why. Just another opportunity for him to say he is unhappy with his cataract surgery results and for them to say there is nothing to be done. May go to a specialist in Santa Rosa.

My older brother is not doing well. He and his wife are both in the same nursing home - him for brain tumor and her for recovery from hip replacement. Still considering a trip but waffling. Hate the trek. SIL doesn't think I should rush out there but I think she is in denial. Rats.

Fussy painter is here for hopefully the last time. He is fun but I have enough drama thank-you-very-much.

Speaking of drama we will watch the debates tonight and a friend may be over as she doesn't get all the tv channels.

Fortunately there is scrabble today. Good fun and a dose of truly sane and centered people. A blessing to have such friends and chuckle over peculiar words.

Well, coffee #2 is almost time. Time to get busy. Diane S

On visiting your brother: Trust your instincts - SIL probably is in some level of denial because she needs to be to keep going. IMHO

Not feeling too happy with myself. I called the MRI clinic twice to verify position for the scan. A tech confirmed I would be on my back, feet first, up to about my elbow. No problem, I won't need the xanax then or a ride. When I get there I discover I was misinformed, and I need to go in face down, head first, arm in superman position, strapped down above my head. They put me in to show me, I decide I can handle it if I have music and headphones. Yes, they put those on my head, and start up. After the first round of noise, I ask, when does the music start? No answer. Than I hear some mumbling. After that rumbling is over I say loudly, I can't hear you or any music. Nothing. I finally give up asking because I start to feel panicky that they can't hear me, and I can't hear them, so I just decide to meditate. All of this is not a very big deal on the scale of things a person has to deal with. So why did I have to sooth myself with ice cream? I drove past one McDonalds on the way home and reasoned with myself. The second one I drove by found me buying a small McFlurry. The only victory is that I threw half of it away before I ate it. I have logged it, and can now see it is not the end of the world. Rant over :)

No excuse for them to misinform you - I would have flipped out and would have had to reschedule. Not smart of them not to give you the correct info.

Anxiety is a hard emotion to deal with **** poor gift that keeps on giving way past the event that triggered it. Consider the blizzard medication.

That is bad treatment with the MRI. Management needs to know what is going on.

The day started with serious bio-hazard cleanup. DH (after much cleansing) went to daycare and I fudged around feeling depressed for a while. I finally took a shower, went out for errands, then met SIL for lunch. I'm feeling better.

It is SOOOO hot here - 90, feeling like 100 which never happens on Cape Cod! I'm sitting with Justice in the sunroom with AC and fans on when I would usually be on the deck this time of day.

Good conversation with DS the other day around his feelings about his Dad going into care. I think he is working through it but there is a lot tangled up around it. And one of his best friends was in a serious car accident last night and is in a coma. DS is so upset and so am I. I stopped by his work to check on him with a lot of consternation but I think he really appreciated it.

Tomorrow if BIL doesn't cancel (you never know), I am going to go see DD's new apartment, have lunch with her, and inter Chiquita's ashes into eldest DD's grave (Chiquita was DD's much loved puppy).

Time to check on DH - Have a thoughtful Tuesday!

You have a lot of BIG stuff on your plate. Be kind to yourself. You needn't be strong all the time! Hugs!