Monday, 7-15-2019

Weight: 138.2
Macros: Calories - 1,608, Carbs - 155, Fats - 45, Protein - 137, Fiber - 29
Sleep: 7 hours
Veggie/Fruit Servings: 9
Water glasses: 6.5
Exercise: 11,000 steps

Big shout outs to everyone who's doin' what needs to be done.

And here's some TMI comin' at ya ... boy, do I need to go to the bathroom! Haven't had a BM since my colonoscopy last Thursday.

I got a LOT done yesterday. That toothbrush cleaning thingie in the corners of the floor was an interesting experience; it really scratched my itch to fix something.

Oddly, last night after dinner I was very protein-hungry and ate some chicken breast tenders. Really glad I had some cooked.

Tropical storm Barry finally strolled in last night. Today's my monthly trip to the Big City to see my shrink. I'll probably buy some more sunglasses at TJ Maxx's since I can't seem to get enough after my cataract surgeries. I'm still loving that I can buy sunglasses off the rack. It's the little things in life, eh? :)

BTW, that Camelbak I found makes it much easier for me to drink water. I'll take it on my trip today. It holds 25 ounces of water, and I can drink at least 50 ounces that way.

Shel, my dear friend, I'm always thinking of you and sending you so much love and many virtual hugs.

Today's theme: Drive defensively.

P.S. Welcome, MawMawPenny - feel free to join in. :)

1. Within Range: yes
2. General Wellbeing: 10 on SS
3. 10,000+ Steps: 12,968
4. Fitness: walking, mowing
5. Self-Care: meditation
6. Fun: mowing at home
7. I learned/relearned: When I look for FUN, I find it !
8. Intentions: Seek balance & relax, rejuvenate, & recalibrate !!

Peps... LOVE Goat !! The name and the photos exemplify adventure and resilience ! I am slowly getting back to the lower end of my range, where I prefer to be. I have found some good alternatives to soft ice cream, which had really been calling to me. Halo Top has a seasonal Peach Cream which almost tastes like a sorbet, and is refreshing. I've been trying to have a 60 calorie, 4 oz. Activia probiotic once a day. It is perfect after dinner, before my kitchen closes for the night. One maintenance habit I have consistently respected is that I don't snack after dinner. After my hour moratorium on liquids, I can drink as much as I want.

Go forth and adventure and be resilient ! Check out the Factbook post I shared on "finding yourself". Loved the lense !

Respect, DianeO! I could sure use that "no eating after dinner" maintenance habit.

144.2

Edited to note the above rebuke is directed in my general direction (see Daily Eats)

With that TMI, I'd bet your true weight is lower! I'm glad that Barry was only a tropical storm. Hurricanes are very scary.

DS said he thinks I'm being selfish. Yes, but I'm just not good at this full-time Caretaker job. Maybe I should tell him to go ahead and quit his job to take care of his Dad as he suggested if he feels so strongly about it. But of course that's not really what I want him to do. Perhaps our friend Jim who worked in social services in the past and DS has known his whole life can talk to him. He will be here for a visit in 3 weeks.

BIL did show up yesterday though I wasn't really sure he would (and he never confirmed until he arrived). SIL, her DIL and I had a nice meal out on a patio overlooking the ocean. It was a truly beautiful evening weather wise. DIL is having a VSG on 7/29 and starts her 2 week liquid diet today. I'm sure glad my preop diet wasn't so onerous. My food transitions were more liberal as well. She is clear liquids for the first week postop, then full liquids, then blended food, etc. I was on blended food after the first two days. I hope it goes well for her. I was telling her about ObesityHelp and recipes like the ricotta bake. I need to send the info to her.

Today is another beautiful day and I think the AC can finally stay off. We will probably hang around and walk the dog until 1 when we have a support group meeting.

Have a mainly good Monday!

I didn't have to do the liquid diet either. Our program asked us to loss a very minimal amount of weight during a 6 month period where we met with program nutritionists. The point of the meeting was to practice skills for post surgery life. Month one, begin tracking, another month add supplements, another add exercise, another practice eating without drinking etc. I found it quite helpful to establish some habits before surgery.

Good luck to your niece, I hope her journey is successful!

You are not one bit selfish, and you have been tireless in trying to find solutions to keep your husband safe and cared for. The fact that you do it so well has confused your son, he thinks his Dad is able to live at home because you have worked so hard to make adjustments so he can. If it is safe, if your son can handle if, let him take care of his Dad on his own, on his days off.

171.4. Yayy!

I have been reading but haven't been posting. I've been in a funk and I know it's self-imposed and honestly I can hear myself and it's such bratty, minor, frivolous concerns in the scheme of things that I don't want to bog you all down.

But the gist of it is that I'm feeling pretty restless at home. I don't like being at home with my children, really. Becca is still in daycare so I haven't even gotten to experience staying at home but I don't feel very fulfilled. I feel ugly and frazzled. I don't feel very accomplished and that makes me feel bad about myself. But in the meantime, I don't think my old job has enough work for me. Which means that I would need to look for a different job, one that would probably require a lot of time and energy and learning. And I'm not sure if I can give that to anyone right now. Ugh.

I'm not feeling very maternal. Le sigh. I had been thinking one of my strongest attributes as a mother was that I didn't let it consume me. Now I'm wondering if I'm broken. All I want is to fit back into some of my nicest suits, feel respected, have a quiet lunch, and come home to a clean house (because no one was in it all day).

But the weight stuff is coming along. And doubtless that will help me feel a bit more myself. I am now about 7lbs. away from my Charlotte pre-pregnancy weight, which will be where I was when I started losing weight 2.5 years ago before getting pregnant with Becca. In other words, I consider -7lbs. to be about a break even point. Once I can get there I will feel a little more relaxed about losing weight. 165 isn't a weight I desire, but it isn't alarming like it is now.

BB, I think you are just in a postpartum funk. There is a lot of adjustment going from 1-2 children. I know it surprised me. Add that to the other things changing around you like work, etc. and I'm sure that's what has you down. You'll get back in the swing of it as you are definitely one of the most capable and can-do people I know.

Postpartum depression, perhaps? Sounds like a possibility to me. I also didn't realize you had permanently left your position with your firm. That in itself is a HUGE change with a lot of emotion attached to it! Given what you wrote, I think your mood is pretty darn normal. Sorry you are feeling "broken". Hugs.