07/10/19, Wednesday

1. Within Range: yes
2. General Wellbeing: 10 on SS
3. 10,000+ Steps: 11,422
4. Fitness: walking
5. Self-Care: Acted upon an insight, making a direct application to the quality of my life.
6. Fun: walk
7. I learned/relearned: When I look for FUN, I find it !
8. Intentions: Seek balance & relax, rejuvenate, & recalibrate !!

We visited the most wonderful place yesterday ! Nine years ago, millionaires owned a race horse farm west of Canandaigua lake. When they decided to retire and relocate, they, for all intents and purposes, donated it to a nonprofit as a therapeutic center for Veterans and individuals with disabilities. We took a tour yesterday, and there are so many program opportunities for DC, and for me to volunteer. DC starts the culinary program tomorrow. Chopped had a show featuring Veterans. One chef who was chopped early on expressed that she would use the $10,000 to start a cooking school for Vets. A viewer was so impressed with the idea, that she funded the project even though the chef was chopped. This chef meets with eight Vets weekly, and using mostly food grown at the farm, and supervises in the creation of a three course meal. In addition to the 30+ therapeutic horses on the farm , they also take in wild mustangs from holding pens in the west, to habituate for a better quality life. To nationally renowned mustang experts train Vets to "gentle" these magnificent animals. DC will also be a part of this program. They were excited about Sadie the therapy dog and the fact that I am a Reiki Master. They are eager to apply our skills to clients, staff and animals. The subject came up when a wild mustang approached the fence I was standing at and nuzzled through for a touch. I was the first person he initiated an interaction with, and they were floored. I explained that I had felt the transfer of energy and they were ecstatic about the possibilities !! Me too !!

This place sounds wonderful! I'm so glad you found it. I saw that you were a 10 on SS and thought there must be something special. I hope DC thrives in their programs (and you too).

Today is the annual "Street Fair" in our town. The entire downtown of Falmouth is closed to traffic and several rows of booths line the streets. The merchants based on Main St participate as well. The two SILs and I are going early and meeting several friends for lunch at a long-time Falmouth restaurant in town. All of this has been a new tradition for me for the last 8-9 years. Picture from online to give you an idea:

I moved DH's daycare day from Friday to today for this week so I could go to the fair. I hope he does better than yesterday because he apparently had a difficult day and was all slouchy and weepy when he got home. He brightened up after we took a swim at our pond though and I put him to bed early. I was feeling twinges of guilt over contemplating having him in Memory Care full time.

Have a winning Wednesday!

I love going to local festivals like this. My little hometown has a Corn Festival. Talent show, crowning of a Festival Queen, midway rides, church booths selling homemade food including pies, and free sweet corn!

141.2

Food yesterday was a total bust (the scale reading above mocks me and is no true reflection of any kind of reality in the world that I currently dwell in).

What is reality is that I woke this morning discombobulated ----Oh, my gosh! Spell check just corrected that word. I thought all my life it was a nonsense conglomeration of syllables ... Just looked it up in dictionary and the word truly does reflect my state of being this morning:

Synonyms of discombobulate. addle, baffle, bamboozle, beat, befog, befuddle, bemuse, bewilder, confuse, disorient, flummox, fuddle, gravel, maze, muddle, muddy, mystify, perplex, pose, puzzle, vex

So, there you are- me- in a rather large nutshell. And I can add that I am now also totally amused with this information. On the other hand,

Words have power, to dwell in such a state is probably not such a good thing. If I have placed myself so, then it would be good, perhaps to do what needs to be done to get myself out of it. Hmmmmm...

DIANE! What an incredible door you have opened- and into a room filled with potential growth and opportunities to both give and receive. I call such a room YES. Smiling ear to ear at your good fortune. Visit, explore, and if it is a good fit, live there often.

I love you, Bonnie !

Shel, you are most certainly on my mind. You have been such an important contributor in my life. I aspire to see life the way you do.

173.4 or something. I feel like it should be a lot lower because I've been getting nearly 10,000 steps a day and I don't feel like I'm hardly eating. At least not anything yummy. I guess that's how moms don't lose weight--they eat a bunch of casual crap when they get a free second.

Haven't been on here because I'm feeling meh and yet I know I have so much to be thankful and happy for. Usually I am. Right now DH is on a work trip and it's just so much harder without him. Even though Becca is in daycare. With his helping hand I can do things like make dinner, give kids baths, pick up house, etc. Without it, it's hard! I had frozen mac and cheese for dinner last night. That's just not my thing. I like to enjoy my food--the eating and the preparing. But at some point, you gotta eat something.

Also, found out that DH did not get his promotion. You all might recall back in April he was promoted to manager (the title he held at his previous job). But then after word had made it all around (other managers announcing it) they did an about face and decided to interview internally. And then right before I had Charlotte they decided to interview externally. This whole thing was handled so poorly and has caused some angst that didn't need to be. DH was perfectly happy at his job until they came to him and offered him this job. Well actually not answered, told. And then told everyone else. And then kept him on the ropes for 3 months. And now not to get it and have to explain why it looked to everyone else like he had it and then had it taken away. It would've been much better had they never said anything!

But I'm trying to live in gratitude, though I'm not always doing a spectacular job. So I'm thankful that after 2 babies I'm only up 18lbs....and in reality only about 8 lbs. from where I was typically maintaining prior to kids. Maybe this isn't the week I try to lose weight! And I'm so so thankful that DH has a job, a good job. And that he was even considered for management again! Perhaps he's safer not being in management. And who knows what the future holds.

That was a pretty raw deal, I admire your effort to reframe the things you can be thankful for. As for the eating, exactly what you said. I complained after my 2nd baby to my SIL (who had just had her 5th baby), that I didn't eat much, but still wasn't losing weight. She replied, oh you're eating, it's not registering because you're not enjoying it. We then shared our lowest eating moments: mine was seeing some m&m s on the floor of the car, and dusting them off and eating them, hers was looking at a half eaten ice cream cone on a bib in the sink and picking it up and taking a bite. Frozen macaroni and cheese has so much more dignity :)

One of my favorites:

Living a healthy lifestyle will only deprive you of poor health, lethargy and fat. ~ Jill Johnson

159 drive by. Off to dog shows . Will eat crap. Hope activities make up for it. Yay Diane O on the horse place. Fabulous. Made for you two. Diane S

DianeO, sounds like a wonderful setting. So glad the both of you found it.

Typing on my phone so this will be short. Mowing the Searcy house. Renters waited to long to mow and it is 30" tall. It has been so wet the year. Now I am at cardiologist appointment for my mom. Then to fill her pill pack then finish mowing.

Yall have a great day.

David.