Wednesday, June 12, 2019

Good morning! It is just before 7 and I am the only one up. SILs and I talked until 11 and they are still asleep after having arisen at 2:30 am yesterday for travel. I hope they slept well - I did, but I always wake up around 5:30 or so.

So SIL with the nasty lung cancer is even thinner than when I left last week! She is 5'7" and only weighed a bit over 100 when she had her first infusion 2 weeks ago. She is coughing constantly which apparently is actually a good sign that the immunotherapy is working. But her ribs are sore from the coughing and she looks exhausted. We were afraid for her to go into the crashing waves yesterday because she looks like she would break. I hope that she gets some rest this week but boy she needs to eat some more. She had two tiny crab cakes on her plate for lunch yesterday (an appetizer for lunch), but only ate 1. She did eat some cheese and crackers for dinner, but don't think she had breakfast yesterday. Here I am having angst over eating too much and she can't get enough in to get to a healthy weight!

We plan on nothing difficult today other than going to the food store, taking a walk, swimming and going somewhere for dinner. I could get very relaxed doing this...

Have a great weekly Wednesday!

Keep doing the relaxing thing. I don't know what your sil's views are on marijuana, or if it can be used with her treatment, but my sil did use medical marijuana to increase her appetite, and it helped some at first.

Liz, there's a cannabinoid Rx called Marinol that many people take to improve their appetites and general interest in food/eating. It has zero THC effects. I have some still left over around here from DH's cancer treatment days, and I would gift it to her if she were here.

This week eating well is easier. Since summer break started, I've cooked more, I'm busy doing things I want to do, so less stress eating, and less eating because I see other people eating, or it's time to eat. There are no crackers, breads, cookies, chips etc in the house, so less mindless snacking. If I want to eat, I am choosing from left overs (meatloaf today), cottage cheese, yogurt, boiled eggs... typically not stuff I overeat. If a boiled egg sounds good, I'm probably hungry :) On the other hand, I am resisting formal workouts, so I am making a deal with myself, I do my Tai chi routine (about 12 minutes) when I get up and before bed, and I pick up the pace of my normal activities. I read about how people who just move more increase their metabolism by a few hundred calories a day. If I need something downstairs, and think, I'll get it when I take the clothes out of the dryer, I tell myself, go now. With more time in my day, I don't have to be as efficient as when I'm trying to cram all the chores into fewer hours. So, off to the laundry room to empty the dryer, then outside to work in the yard. Lots of stuff to lift and carry!

Housework doesn't get the good exercise rep it deserves! Tote that laundry. Lift that laundry! :)

Weight 264ish (don't remember the 10ths...)

It is supposed to be cooler here today, but only by about 10 degrees. Not much difference between 104 and 94, if you ask me! LOL! HOT IS HOT! However, it's a lovely dry heat, not that horrible humidity of the southeast.

Drove up to Sonoma to go through MIL's house. The woman was a pack rat - a well organized pack rat, but still... she had STUFF! Way too much stuff....

I am looking forward to actively working on eating in a way that promotes better well being. I am so out of the habit of taking the time to prepare and eat fresh, healthy food. I am hoping that it will feel like I am indulging in self care and that it will feel GOOD!

Not much else going on. BF from High School is going home tonight on a red eye. She's been suffering with a migraine since yesterday. Must be awful to feel that crappy when you're away from home.

Will take some time to do some back reading on the board. Want to see Shel's grad pics!

Greetings Dear Friends

157 today. A little less hot today. Yesterday was truly miserable. We had sweet corn and a little bacon for dinner. Pre cooked from Costco. Great stuff. I think I will search for more corn today.

The WW2 airplanes are up and flying around again. The airport is near and the flight path for landing is visible from our deck. We see all these old planes coming in and it is fun.

The carpenter is still working on the deck. Might finish today.

Liz, its good that you have time with the SIL's. I wish there was some way for the one who is ill to find some comfort. Medical canabis is a good thing. I wish my brother with the brain tumor would use it but its totally illegal where he lives. Could she eat ice cream and such? The canabanoid edibles really helped my younger brother with pain after shoulder surgery.

Studio work needed today. And tonight is a membership meeting of the gallery and I am supposed to do a report on by law changes which I have not prepared yet. The meeting will be a food mine field since its sort of a wine and hors d'oevres party. I will bring some ready made sushi or whatever else is available at the deli.

DD you are so right on just moving more. Earlier in my post VSG days I moved around a lot more and my more recent sedentary behavior has contributed to regain. I need to find more joy in moving because I can. I used to always mentally economize motion - fewer trips up and down stairs - like you. I do park far away unless I am in a rush and need to add more stuff in like that. Move it or lose it as they say. I am recharging fitbit as I speak.

Time for another coffee and then out to meet the day. Diane S

The movement thing is interesting. Like you, when I reached that point of significant weight loss, I was constantly in motion. I felt like one of those cute little goats that jump and skitter and skip around. But over time did slow down again, out of habit, because of joint pain, weight gain, and yes, sometimes as you so aptly described it economizing movement because I felt I had so much to do, and little time. But thinking about it, how much time does it really save. I know people who never take even 20 minutes for lunch because they need to keep working. I contend that I recapture that time because I did take a break, and socialized for a bit. Maybe being less "efficient" about moving will have the same outcome. Maybe by moving more, things will get accomplished even faster.

Yep, the economizing on motion for me goes way back to being overweight. It was harder to move so I moved less. Vicious circle. Then after big weight loss I moved much more. Now, nearly 10 years later (and at age 67) I move less. Its age, some pain and being in a bit of a funk. Must get moving more. Have to get it out of my head that making one trip with the laundry basket is better than three. I bet I could get 2000 more steps in just picking up stuff and putting it away. Some people here are so great on activity. People who are always in motion are usually slim. Note to self: move it.

Liz-perspective is everything. Some people only wish they could gain/eat like we do, and have our health. We must remember the good, even when it's not our perfect.

Peps-Love the positive perspective on eating better=doing better for yourself. I must start thinking this way too.

DD-agreed. When healthy foods sound good to eat, usually that's how I know I'm hungry!

Shel-cannot remember if I commented or not, but your daughter's graduation party looked awesome and your yard is out of a fairytale!

174.2. I've begun truly watching my calories and so it's shaking a little of this weight off. I don't fit into anything but workout clothes right now (how amusing!) so I have to get this weight off! It's crazy all the places the weight seems to have deposited. And how big a difference 10lbs. can make at this weight--whereas I recall it taking 20-25lbs. to move a dress size when I was size 20! But I suppose that's fair since I was at the top end of my sizing when I got pregnant at 165. I'm trying to balance not being too unkind with myself and not using this as an excuse, either. And excuses are plentiful. Friends and husbands are even quick to chime in and supply me with them. "*oh you JUST had a baby*" You look great This definitely feeds the little devil on my shoulder who likes to interpret those comments as "go ahead, get another snack."