VSG Maintenance Group
Thursday, May 2, 2019
I am not positive but I think he is reaching for his shoe that is hanging -- I would so totally drop a shoe
HW:361 SW:304 (VSG 12/04/2014)Mo 1:-32 Mo 2:-13.5 Mo 3: -13.5 Mo 4 -9.5 Mo 5: -15 Mo 6: -15 Mo 7: -13.5 Mo 8: -17 Mo 9: -13 Mo 10: -12.5 11/3/2015 Healthy BMI Reached! Mo 11: -9 Mo 12: -8 12/27/2015 Goal Weight Reached!
on 5/2/19 9:09 am
I'll pop back later, but in the meantime, I saw this article on self care and thought it was interesting...
Just read the article, Cecily. Thanks for posting it.
Much to think about there -- especially for me, the metrics maven. Here are some first reactions:
This morning at yoga class our instructor said something that rung a bell for me (recited here as best I can remember): "Engage your muscles and, at the same time, relax your body. I know that sounds strange, but try to do that -- play with it."
The same instruction could be applied to my absorption with numbers, to-do lists, and git 'er done self-talk. Maybe it's possible to both engage and relax at the same time.
That's sort of how I felt about last evening's pub visit partaking of mezcal and restaurant food. Metaphorically speaking, I guess I used different colored crayons, but still colored inside the lines. Maybe variety IS the spice of life.
And maybe I ought to do one day a week NOT weighing, NOT using My Fitness Pal, and NOT counting my steps. Just thinking about that makes me nervous. Which probably means ....
ANN 5'5", AGE 74, HW 235.6 (BMI 39.2), SW 216, GW 150, CW 132, BMI 22
POUNDS LOST: Pre-op -20, M1 -10, M2 -11, M3 -10, M4 -10, M5 -7, M6 -5, M7 -6, M8 -4, M9 -4,
NEXT 10 MOS. -12, TOTAL -100 LBS.
I almost dropped the F bomb in class today. The Fuhhh came bursting forth as my back completely spasmed as I started to stand up from my chair. I collapsed in front of the kids, but totally kept it together while trying to figure out how to upright myself. After a few minutes of this and that not working, one of the kids suggested my desk chair with rollers. That got me mobile. I got the kids logged on to state testing spewing directions from my rolling chair. The office brought me ice and my teaching partner had her migraine motrin, so I took 600 mgs of that. I have an Ergotron mobile desk that I am using as a walker. What's a teacher to do? I feel rather pathetic.
I realize the back issues trigger fat thinking. Year ago a co teacher told said to me that I wouldn't have back issues if I weren't so fat. My thinking is totally hijacked. I hurt, I am feeling ashamed of my weight. I am ashamed to admit with full disclosure that I thought to myself the kids are going to see me walking with that rolling desk and think, "Why does that fat man walk with a rolling desk? Is he too fat to walk on his own?"
Brains are curious organs....
I have cancelled my client for this afternoon, cancelled my trainer for my pre dinner workout, and ate a big handful of golden oreo thins. So boooooo on today!
However, like Ocean Diane said, the other posts here help me put it all in perspective. I'm simply suffering from a back injury that will heal. I will survive.
