Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Calories 1818 and wine was included. We went to our last dinner dance of the season in our community center. DH had a great time dancing with everyone until he became exhausted so I brought him home and he went to bed immediately. So I'm not weighing this morning, but I don't feel bad about having a high day. It was worth it.

Today DH is going to daycare. Strangely the other day when we were on the way to the beach he got very weepy and asked to be taken to the daycare. Lately his eating habits and manner in a restaurant have gotten very unpredictable so I don't think we will be going out to dinner much longer. Take-out I guess...

Yesterday I viewed a Memory Care unit nearby. It is one of the nicest and most expensive in the area at $6000 a month (including all services). In Massachusetts a comparable facility would be $8500 a month. I plan to view a few more before I go home and then a few at home so I can mull over the best choice for all of us. I'm not sure how my children would feel about their Dad being this far from them, but since he isn't really himself it may not be a big deal and visiting periodically over a weekend would be very doable. That's another reason I didn't regret eating and drinking at the dance. It was depressing to start those visits. A couple of the ladies we chatted with were more on the ball than DH (though older).

Have a wonderous Wednesday!

Weight: 143.0
Macros: Cals - 1,240, Carbs - 101, Fat - 26, Protein - 104, Fiber - 20
Sleep: 8 hours
Veggie/Fruit Servings: 4
Water glasses: 8
Exercise: 10,700 steps
Meditation: Yes

Quick post this morning ...

I've weighed basically the same for six days. Not a shocker after losing 7 pounds in 7 days. But interesting.

Something else interesting happened yesterday. At my woman's club meeting in the mid-afternoon, cheesecake and chocolate lava cake were served for dessert. I declined both. It actually wasn't hard to say "No, thank you," since I only had to say no to a waitress in a meeting room, not to a friend who had cooked both desserts and was offering them to me in her home. So good for me, right?

But here's the interesting part: I noticed that the slim, fit-looking woman sitting next to me also didn't take any dessert. I said to her, sotto voce, that I was passing on dessert because I wanted to lose some NOLA weight. She nodded, but didn't offer any reason for her decision to pass on 500 calories of sugar and other carbs. In retrospect, I see her lack of explanation about what she was or wasn't eating as super-cool! The obvious rhetorical question is why in the world do I feel I must explain / justify / seek approval from others about what I'm eating or not eating?! And right there is another corner of my psyche that needs a good housecleaning!

I'm seeing my local optometrist this afternoon -- the first step to getting in the queue for my second cataract surgery. Wish me luck!

This week's theme/mantra: "I take good care of myself."

Hello all!

Tight pants watch: improving!

DianeO, I feel your scale pain. I know you intellectually got this but the other stuff is harder, right?

Liz, I'm glad you are looking ahead at potential spots for Paul. Hugs to you. I am glad you already have a home base in Florida so Florida is a reasonable option.

Ann, I wish there was a nature show on "naturally" thin people, just showing their behaviors. Her lack of comment was so telling.

About self care: why is it if my food behaviors are on point, my other self care improves, too? I don't think it is ever the other way around. My other self care has to be forced if food isn't on point. Maybe the food ostrich casts a dark shadow on everything else.

DianeO (yes back to you) you wondered what is next after Rainier. I don't know. In the Rainier mtn shop, the person helping me said every time she returns from the summit she is so terrified that she swears she will never go back. But, then, in a few weeks/months she finds herself thinking she would like to do it again. I found these COMMENTS terrifying. Like WTF! She works in the shop! This is her thing! So, I don't know for sure what is next. For the rest of the summer, I'll consume day-hikes. There are two day hikes in particular I have been eyeing for a couple of years. This might be the year I have confidence/fitness to try.

DianeS, hope DH feels better in all manner of ways, soon. He has had a tough several months. (Ditto for your family members) I noticed your area (and Iowa) had less daylight than up here. I'm hoping that longer days help. I was surprised to notice the difference between locations.

Peps, is Lucky home, yet? Are all the pups home? (I think one of the girls is also in show mode?)

Shirl, Cecily, DD and B150 (!!!!) thinking of you and EVERYONE ELSE!

Tulips are beginning to bloom in this area....finally. Drink it in.

Shel

Greetings all! I weighed this morning. I?m not at my all time post WLS-loss high, but I'm close. Argh. I was getting dressed last night to go see Cats and have dinner with friends and my normal going out clothes were SO TIGHT. I ended up in jeans from the "don't know why I'm keeping these" side of the closet. Crap. I chose well at dinner last night and want to keep it up and get back to where I was and was not stressed about my body.

I moved my trainer appointment from today to an ungodly hour tomorrow morning because I thought I had an outing scheduled with a friend today. Turns out the outing is May 10, not April 10 so I am punishing myself tomorrow for nothing!

So Pilates tonight but nothing else today. Perhaps an "office stuff" day. I need to make an appointment to take my car in for service and get my tax checks written and mailed.

Liz, I can imagine needing to start those visits is a heavy weight.

Ann, your seeking approval story made me chuckle. I feel like I've stumbled on aliens when I come across people who appear not to have food demons and seem to effortlessly make good food choices or people who say they don't like certain decadent foods. Who are these people who don't feel the battle between good and evil when deciding whether to eat dessert and don't declare victory and await back patting when they make the choice to abstain? What sort of person effortlessly turns down fresh warm bread and butter at a restaurant without feeling like a martyr? Who "doesn't like" pasta (my trainer claims this)??

Shel, you're so right about food behavior determining all other self care. It's such a lynchpin. If my eating is under control, the rest of my life seems to hum right along. Not so when it's not.

Turns out my stomach was saying no thank you to more than just cake. I am home sick today, with queasy gut, pounding headache and aching body. This might put me off cake for a good long time. And a spring blizzard has started. Or so dh told me before he left work, it's 1pm here and I've been in bed with the curtains pulled. I'm going to get up and see if I can drink some tea, and get a look at the blizzard for myself.

Feel better and be safe !