Thursday, April 4, 2019

Calories 904, protein 130, carbs 58. I was feeling more cravings but for the most part good food satisfied me. Day 4 of being on the wagon today. I'm planning on revealing my weight to myself on Monday.

You guys amaze me with your fitness! Weight lifting, Pilates, hiking, farming, ... It puts my daily walking to shame.

DH was a bit nasty yesterday but the low-dose risperidone worked. Today we are driving 1.5 hours to Bradenton to meet some me friends for lunch. Hopefully he does okay with that. I have started to look into memory care centers here in Florida to compare them to those at home. If the cost is substantially lower my financial advisor has suggested that I consider placing DH here and commuting on a regular basis from home in the summer. DH is going downhill so fast that I want to be prepared if I need to do something in the next year.

Have a thriving Thursday!

A couple of pics from yesterday: Our Florida dog Justice sunbathing and a butterfly viewed on a walk around the pond yesterday evening.

Justice is super cute - chilling in the sunshine :)

Sorry things are moving so fast with Paul but best to start getting things in place so you have the support you both need. I think you are such an amazingly strong lady Liz - I dont know if I would be the same if in the same cir****tances. Be kind to yourself and allow others to help share the load as much as possible - and of course we are all here for you xx

Weight: 144.2
Macros: Cals - 1,418, Carbs - 132, Fat - 29, Protein - 105, Fiber - 21
Sleep: 7.5 hours
Veggie/Fruit Servings: 3
Water glasses: 8.5
Exercise: 10,500 steps
Meditation: Yes

Scale is still moving down. And I reached my 10K steps goal yesterday. However, yesterday's calories were higher than intended due to not having in the house all the low-calorie meals I needed. Yesterday afternoon I went to the grocery store and remedied that. Onward and downward. :)

Not a lot to report - still unpacking, puttering, walking, and drinking more water than I've drunk in years. I MUST keep up this water habit. It is good for my body in so many ways.

Found out yesterday that our book club is meeting this afternoon, and I've got most of the book left to read, so that's my big assignment for today. This week I've also been studying / practicing French daily. I could NEVER have done this before studying French this winter. It's similar to having learned how to read music, and now I am able to practice on my own. Plus, the wine barge trip in France I've scheduled this October is great motivation to keep practicing.

Truth is that this week my life is pretty boring. And it's exactly what the doctor ordered!

Finally, I just want to tell everyone here that it is a privilege to listen to your daily challenges - your night goblins, confusions, exhaustion. Sometimes I imagine I'm an outlier when I feel destabilized and undisciplined and imagine that everyone else is balanced and focused. The truth is, we're all a bit in the dark here, and it's good to hold hands as we walk through the forest at night.

This week's continuing theme: Weigh, water, walk.

Holding hands as we walk through the forest at night. This resonants with me so much this evening. Just came back from visiting my sil who has cancer. We are getting deeper into the forest, and the night is getting darker, but in my mind is now the image that we're all scared, but I can offer my hand and walk with her, and I can offer my other hand to my husband, and we will hang onto each other in the dark, so no one has to go it alone.

1. Within Range: yes
2. General Wellbeing: 8.5 on SS
3. 10,000+ Steps: 8773
4. Fitness: walking
5. Self-Care: hot packing internal eyelid stye
6. Play/Leisure: reading
7. Intentions: Seek balance & relax, rejuvenate, & recalibrate !!

We are meeting with a realtor tomorrow night about renting our potentially listing our house. More ice, sleet and snow due tomorrow. This just isn't the way I want to spend my retirement ! We got a box in the mail yesterday, and it was things we'd left in the dryer in Pawley's Island ! Two bath sheets (towels) my FAVORITE yoga capris, sports bra and t top and some other stuff ! We did that final load after cleaning & showering, and put it in the dryer before bed, then forgot all about it !! It is hard to imagine wearing those things any time soon around here !

Next weekend, I go visit my youngest DD in NYC. I'll get there Friday afternoon and stay until Sunday after her SHAPE half marathon in Central Park. The least I can do is to walk around Central Park while she's running a half marathon ! I can't wait to see her !!

Miss Bonnie, I see your stairs up the tower more like a game of Chutes and Ladders, but I agree that the slide back down is not worth it. PEPS, that little guy in your head visits me sometimes too ! We're all getting stronger at recognizing when it happens, doing some positive self talk, and banishing him right away.

Good Morning All - Friyay here and Im back in the city. Trip down in the old farm ute was ok. I managed to back it up to the trailer, hook up, do all the checks and off I went. Didnt love towing it but another trip accomplished. One day I will get comfortable doing this......... I hope.

Today is a busy one. I have to leave at 9am to meet the team at a coffee shop for a Service Board meeting. They have been waiting for me to come down as I tend to co-ordinate all the scheduling etc etc. Will be nice to see them after a couple of months. Then picking up some boxes on the way home - Im stockpiling for when DSD is ready to move. Ive moved my counselling session to Tuesday as we have to be out at 6pm tonigh****ching DSD and her partner do LARP - Live Action Replay - Dress ups with plastic swords etc. First time for me so should be interesting.

Weight - down a bit from yesterday so happy with that at 174.46 - want it back in the 160's before I come to the States

Well I best get my butt moving. Shower and cup of tea then dressed before my cleaner comes. Havent seen her for months either - will be nice to say a brief hello before I fly out the door again

Have a wonderful evening all

S

Liz, I am constantly amazed by how low you can keep your calories when you set your mind to it! I simply don't have that ability. Even during weight loss post VSG my calories were often between 800-1100. During the first month post VSG I was regularly between 650 and 800 calories per day. Now, 7.5 years out, NO WAY! LOL!

I had Go Lean cereal with a banana for breakfast with WHOLE milk. I am weaning myself off of low fat anything for the switch over to the sugar detox. It feels sort of decadent. Hehehehe. I am slowly reducing sugar intake so it's not as great a shock to my system when I go whole hog, cold turkey in just over a week.

So here's a big commitment on my part. It was one I was absolutely loathe to make, too. Yet, I was doing Hammer Smith Machine Chest presses with the trainer yesterday and the gym scale caught my eye (you know one of those "old fashioned" Health O Meter Dr. Office scales (I think Liz uses something like that)). I got the idea that when I start the sugar detox I should do weekly weigh ins with my trainer. I started laughing inside and the laughter bubbled to the surface and I told my trainer what I was thinking, explaining that everything inside of me was telling me to "keep that thought a SECRET". So, given that my instinct was first to create an accountability system for myself and then my inner addict said,"OH NO YOU DON'T!!!!!" I suggested we start weekly weigh ins next Tuesday. So, weigh ins will be on Tuesday evenings. That means I will not be my in my nekkid-I-just-peed-and-have-an-empty-stomach state of being when I weigh. I do not like this, but I know I am the only person judging. My trainer certainly is not.

I am having my slug day today. I should be much more productive, but it's just not in me today. Oh well,.... I am a great procrastinator and work well under a time pressure crunch, so what the hell.... Slug away I shall!

Weighing in the evening not-nekkid-etc. ... why the hell not!

Go for it. :)

P.S. I seem to recall that Liz doesn't count among her daily calories veggies (and maybe fruits?). I could be wrong about that. But IF that's the deal, her total calories would be greater. And for the record, I could also NOT subsist on anything under 1,000 cals/day. Heck, 1,200/day is tough enough for me.

You are correct that I usually don't count veggies (I do count fruits), plus there is about another 100 in coffee creamer which I don't log as I have it every day.