Wednesday, April 3, 2019

Weight: 145.0
Macros: Cals - 1,210, Carbs - 81, Fat - 30, Protein - 106, Fiber - 16
Sleep: 8 hours
Veggie/Fruit Servings: 3
Water glasses: 8
Exercise: 8,500 steps
Meditation: Yes

Again, it is so very, very good to be home. Spring here is doing handstands, with birds, birdsong, buds, flowers, and longer daylight.

When I weighed this past Monday morning (my first day home), the scales said 150 pounds. Yesterday the scales said 147.8. This morning I am down another 2.8 pounds to 145.

For now, I am focusing on water (64 ounces), calories (1,200), protein (100+ grams), carbs (under 100 grams), sleep (8+ hours), and walking (10K steps). For the next few weeks, veggies and fruits will take a backseat to those basic weight-loss metrics.

The last two days my foods have been protein drinks, Healthy Choice steamer meals, coffee (with milk) and one glass of wine at night. Why one glass of wine? Because it is better than the NOLA customary four glasses of wine.

I would love to get down to 139 by the end of April and then down to 135 by the end of May. That might be unrealistic, but however it works out I WILL reach my 100 pound weight loss goal again early this summer. For the record, this is the first time in over 5 years I have gained this much weight. It is weird being so much heavier than I have weighed for a long time. I do not like it!

Today I read some recent threads here. It sounds like others have been snow-birding, visiting relatives and OH friends, hiking, working on the farm, shopping for cabbage, taking and posting photos, loving their doggies, climbing back up on the weight loss / maintenance horse, trying to figure out how to coexist with sugar and other addictive substances, and shaking off Old Man Winter. And Bonnie is still growing a new person inside her body! Please remind me when Bebe #2 is scheduled to arrive? And I have completely forgotten (if I ever knew) ... is Bebe #2 a boy or a girl?

It is good to be back. xoxoxo

This week's theme: Weigh, water, walk.

We have so missed you! I hope we can work together to get back to basics! I too want to be down 15 by the end of May.

Calories 835, with protein a whopping 158 which was due to two meals with shrimp. I really can avoid hunger at that calorie level but it is the carb cravings that I have to kick. So no wine for me because it seems to make me want carbs more than ever. I went to the food store yesterday and almost bought cookies for DH, then realized that I would probably eat them right now. Once I'm away from bad carbs long enough I can usually stand them in the house. I don't like dark chocolate so maybe I'll get him some of that...

Today is a quiet day other than going to an Alzheimer's support group. Tomorrow we are meeting friends from home for lunch in Bradenton.

Have a well Wednesday!

Liz, we CAN do this.

And we WILL do this.

:)

And after only two days on the "straight and narrow" I don't crave sugar at all! Of course, unless I broke into someone's house, there's no sugar available to me within six miles of here, so that helps a lot.

:)

Remember the liver-shrinking diet we all went on prior to WLS? It's possible that when I got home Sunday night that my f**king liver weighed 7 pounds again.

All that glycogen stored in all tha****er!

This is SO me!

Truly an LOL!

PERFECT !

Not much to report since last night.

Weight was down 2.4 this morning, which makes me breathe just a little easier. My food intake is getting better slowly, but surely.

I have to say there is a lot of truth in the meme I posted here. I am fat. There is no doubt about that. But I am also strong. There is no doubt about that either. Yesterday I did leg curls with 100 pounds. That is strong. I'm also pretty cardio strong, so I've got the fitness going for me. Because I am fit underneath the mask of my obesity, my inner picture of myself is much different than the reality of what I saw in the photographs with Bacall the other day.

Those pictures presented me with a harsh reality. That is neither good, not bad. It is information. What was not so good was my reaction to the photos. I was inwardly so embarrassed. I felt UGLY and I felt sad, isolated and for a short time I could feel the "Hopeless" creeping in. Then soon the nasty ass critic appeared and gave me a lecture about how I couldn't even manage "thin" after having a surgeon cut out 3/4 of my stomach. What got me out of that funk was working out.

I'm not saying all those feelings are gone, because they are not. They are there waiting for a reason to come out again. You know what they say: While in recovery your addiction is in the parking lot doing pushups waiting for an invitation to return.

I have one client dog today. Then I will try to get some chores done around here. I have a training session tonight at 5:30. Off I go to start my day....

Your comment about addiction waiting-lurking during recovery times...makes perfect sense to me in the same way that fat cells do not disappear when we lose weight- they just set there empty waiting to be filled up again and generate even more to be likewise filled. I've heard regarding addiction/recovery/relapse this analogy-

Recovery is like walking step by step up the flights of a very tall building- every floor ascendeing Further away from the addiction - Relapse is that decision made to jump out the window- assumption being that one will only "fall" the one flight down. The reality is that jumping out the window takes one alllllllll the way down to the lowest deepest place of the addiction. Recovery is making the decision to begin- from the bottom- Lesson--stay away from windows--it's a long way down.

Greetings Maintenance Marvels

155 today. I don't seem to be doing much to drop a few. Lots to be done today. Maybe I will do some of it. At least I got my taxes extended, most of the stuff together and an appointment to get them done.

Peps, you reminded me to check my property taxes. I might have paid the whole year but not sure. And sales taxes will be due for both galleries soon. Always something.

My studio needs cleaning out just as much as my house does. I keep tossing a bit every time I go there. But there is lots of unfinished stuff from a former occupant that needs finishing. A depressing job since she died a few years ago.

Ann I have no doubt you will be back in country life shape in no time. What a great adventure NOLA was. Share the stories as you can.

Peps, the only creature that thinks you don't look good is that little demon that co-occupies your mind. Be gone with that thing. And hey, you should have had a pekingese for april fool. Or show guinea pigs.

Spring is definitely here with daffodils all around. But the rain is not over.

Today I will buy more stuff for the homeless outreach project. Got a boatload of socks from costco yesterday - apparently always needed.

Drink your water everyone! I plan to do the same. Cheers. Diane S