Tuesday, March 26, 2019

The SILs and I are off to Sarasota today. DH is going to Senior Daycare. I slept well last night though I was awake from about 5:15 on. DH seemed to sleep most of the night as well. Hopefully that means today will be a good one for all.

We are here in Florida for almost another 8 weeks, until May 19. It will be quite warm here at that point, but hopefully also getting warmer at home. Last year we went home in mid April and it seemed too early. I kind of feel like I need to maximize the time because I don't know how much longer DH can go. Our schedule will be a lot quieter after visiting SIL leaves on Monday. A couple of weeks later the SIL living with us leaves and we have one more visit for 10 days at the end of April (DH's brother). That will be quite different as he is coming to spend time with DH so we won't go out a lot.

Speaking of which, DS mentioned that he has a friend who works in a memory care unit at a place in our town at home who might be willing to help out some. Right now I feel like daycare is good, but would like to be able to have someone who could come as needed in the evening or on a weekend if I want to go out with friends or go to a show. We are really at the tail end of DH being able to do that other than dinner out and not even that if the evening lasts past 8.

Have a timely Tuesday!

185.6

Liz-sounds like you have the makings for a great day ahead. Enjoy

Have I missed any updates from Ann?

Not so much going on with me. Definitely not on the weightloss front. Still toughing out this cold. And apparently Becca is at the age where she's realized she can say no to food. That's not fun. Pickiness is a big deal to me. I will not tolerate it. But I'm also not sure how much reasoning can be done with a 12 month old. It's not really about the battle, but about the war. I'm trying to be prepared for when she can be reasoned with. My sister's kids are just awful eaters. Like down to the shape of pasta and shape of chicken nuggets. No reason for that. There is no difference between dinosaur shaped nuggets and "circle" nuggets. So I see many of these battles as more behavioral--but again, I'm not sure how far to push things with a 12 month old. She tosses her head like I'm trying to feed her poison. If it gets into her mouth she spits it out. And last night she went so far as to pick up her plate and turn upside down. So....she got toast for dinner. Mom win? Not exactly.

Actually I was feeling pretty tired and didn't eat much. Maybe that's the reason for the scale staying nice? If that's true, I have nothing to worry about in the next 6 months!

Wow! Did I have a great counseling session yesterday. I realized how terribly comfortable I am with my addictive behaviors around sugary, carbohydrate laden foods. I mean, I really am okay with it. It's okay. It's who I am and I travelled down a hell of a road to get here. My eating is a reflection of so many experiences that have shaped my life. I understand how unproductive it has been for me to be upset by disordered eating. The blaming, the self pitying, the anger turned inward - none of that has helped in the end.

I am feeling "freed", for a lack of a better word to express the lightness I am feeling. Accepting my sugar lust and understanding how AB-normal my sugar eating is makes me laugh. It's not a laughing at myself, but rather with myself. In recovery programs there is a saying about one's best thinking gets you to the point of needing intensive intervention type of help. That's kind of a good description of how I am seeing myself with my sugar issues. I really need to let someone who knows better be my guide. Clearly, my best thinking is getting me back to the same place over and over. So, as much as it pains me to think about it, I am going to have to put myself in the hands of others if I want to fix this thing.

My shrink wants me to concentrate on the benefits I get from a low/no sugar, low carb eating style. I ordered Diane SanFillipo's 21 Sugar Detox book. I liked her Keto Quickstart book, so I thought I would investigate her sugar detox approach. The book will arrive tomorrow. Another self help project awaits!

On the dog front: Lucky's win picture was finally put on line for purchase and downloading. It is a great photo. Here is a cropped version of just Lucky without the judge or handler.

How beautiful!

Lucky is a gorgeous guy!

Greetings all

Here is a photo of Shel and her food at the lovely Cafe Brio in Arcata. We had a great visit. I don't know why it is so giant but can't fix it.

Shel is continuing her hikes tomorrow and then will come over and meet the dogs. Fun. After lunch I played scrabble. Its a lovely sunny day here though tomorrow may be rain.

Tee hee, we both ate bread and butter. Diane S

I love that you were able to meet! Hi Shel!

Hiya, Shel!!