VSG Maintenance Group
02/13/19, Wednesday
- Within Range: yes
- General Wellbeing: 8.5 on SS
- 10,000+ Steps: 12589
- Fitness: shoveling
- Self-Care: audiobook on healthy boundary setting
- Play/Leisure: Reading
- Intentions: Seek balance & relax, rejuvenate, & recalibrate !!
Shoveling yesterday and more today. There is so much strategy involved in shoveling with intermittent ice. Do you take the snow down to the pavement and give the ice a clean surface to build on, or leave a thin layer of snow, which will be topped in ice, to shovel off the next day, making it heavier ? I opted for the second plan, but it makes me think of lots of our recent decision points... to keto or not to keto... to continue working or stay at home/work... isn't the bottom line that we make our best decision given past experience and current information....learn from it, and do better next time? There's a gift in every life lesson if we have no preconceived notions of what it will be.
My next audiobook is Boundaries Updated and Expanded Edition: When to Say Yes, How to Say..., by Henry Cloud. This is an area I need to revisit and expand upon to keep healthy and moving forward. I've also noticed I can easily formulate and share advice with others that I often don't take the time to consider and invest in myself. One of the reasons this forum is so valuable and comforting is that it gives me a chance to offer strategies, insights and advice that become even more solidified and habituated within myself, through the act of sharing expanding my own self care repertoire. Life is soo much more than the number on the scale... took me 60+ years to figure that out !!
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
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Good point, Diane O. I've been looking at my decisions like they are completely life-altering, yes or no, one chance deals. If the diet isn't working? change it. If not working isn't working? Change it.
Actually, the more I think about it, this perfectionist thinking is what has kept me from many a good tries at something. (okay so with dieting I think it is a little more complex simply because my brain and heart gets so involved so I do have to be careful not to say go on a liquid diet for short term success that might totally ruin me and my headspace for ages. Been there, done that)
I was more cognizant of my eating yesterday. That felt good.
on 2/13/19 9:50 am
Weight 175.4 Alas, the water weight loss has reached it's zenith.
I had a nice hike with friends yesterday on a more suburban trail (the only ones open with all the recent rains). 5.4 miles. And a ton more rain on the way today through Friday. 2-3", which is an awful lot for us. Our hills could not be prettier though, so green with orange California poppies coming out.
Today is the trainer and Pilates. But before that, more coffeeeeeee.....
Diane, in thinking about decision making, I think sometimes doing something different is what's needed to shake things up. Not that previous decisions weren't good ones or that one option is any better than another. But that something new is needed to spark interest and enthusiasm again. Even in something like snow shoveling methodology! Just like sometimes our bodies need to switch up activities that have become too routine, our brains need a new challenge too every now and again to stay engaged.
Okay, I'm pissed today. Other than my damn two cookies on Monday, I have been eating fantastically well. So, imagine my frustration to see a full pound gain from Monday. Frustration to the nth degree!!!!!
I was cranky as all heck this morning with the dogs, too. It was (and still is) pouring down rain, the puppy knows she will melt like the Wicked Witch of the West should she get wet, so I had to lock her out to get her to potty. Keira lost her composure at breakfast and kept jumping up on my back even with my normal admonishments. One last good pounding on my back and I yelled at her loud enough to wake the dead. She got the message, but sheesh... You'd think I could better cope with stress and disappointment with the scale (said with a mocking 'Bless her heart' tone of voice). LOL!
Got to school. They are having a "Techfast". I skipped it because it's voluntary and there is crap food involved. But of course, my colleagues had to come and tell me about the tasty fare just down the hall. I, of course, had an instantaneous pity party because I "CAN'T" have any... I actually did think it through and believe that had I gone down to see what the offerings were beyond poppy seed muffins and All Star Donut Apple Fritters (yes, an all time favorite...discovered AFTER VSG....) and partaken in the gluttony fest that lies not so hidden beneath my surface today, I would have felt worse than I do for not making my weight loss goal for the week.
Now maybe that I've gotten this down in black and white I will be able to let it go. Thank you for the avenue to vent.
On the plus side of things, 1: I went to a most delightful student version of Cinderella last night at school. 5 of my girls participated so I went and surprised them. I brought them all bouquets of silk roses from the dollar store and they thought my attendance and the flowers was the bomb! My student who played Cinderella did a very good job. She sang well, and acted with ease and naturalness. Who knew!
2: My workout last night was a good one. Warmed ups with plank mountain climbers (harder than the jogging kind) and alternating push ups on a step board. Then did heavy chest work - declined chest press, chest flies, followed by a combo bicep curl to shoulder press move. Cooled down with the plank mountain climbers and push ups.
School has a long weekend. Today is the last day of the week. Kids have Thursday, Friday and Monday. I work tomorrow. That means today is Valentine's Day card exchange and party is today. I have already been gifted with much chocolate. And Girl Scout Cookies... Do Si Dos and Trefoils.....Sigh.... Cookies will stay here for the kids. Chocolate is low enough quality that I can throw it away guilt free.
Maybe I will make my new decade goal by my birthday on Friday. That would be nice.
on 2/13/19 1:45 pm
I'm always late to the pop culture abbreviation party, but my cousin recently introduced me to FOMO - Fear of Missing Out. He was using it to describe my aunt and her inability to not be included in every activity, whether she's capable or invited or not. The stink she threw over not being invited on the cruise was pretty epic...
I realized I experience intense food FOMO. Knowing there are yummy treats available for me to eat nearby and not checking them out and getting them is torture. Same with receiving a treat like your cookies or crappy chocolate and not eating it. It's never as good as I'm expecting, but that is so not the point. Ooh, or if I've already eaten and someone asks me to go out to eat. Pre-surgery I would go and pretend I hadn't already eaten. Now I just sulk internally. So food FOMO like missing out on your Techfast is very real for me!
