Monday, January 28, 2019

Weight 125.4 (ugh), calories 1429. I've been eating like I'm on vacation but I'm not. I wish I felt like I was on vacation. I guess I'm not alone in this phase though.

What a day of highs and lows you all had yesterday! DH had some sort of intestinal issue too so I had to do a lot of cleanup on aisle 9. He was fine by the end of the day. I did accomplish the installation of some under cabinet lights yesterday so it wasn't a completely wasted day.

It looks like we have one more week of cool temperatures, then a warmup next week. Just in time for DD's visit, thank goodness. This month has definitely been much cooler than the last two January's - I checked the historical temperatures.

Friends from home arrive this afternoon to stay at our other friends. It will be nice to see them.

Thats all I have right now! Have a mostly good Monday

1. Within Range: yes
2. General Wellbeing: 7.5 on SS
3. 10,000+ Steps: 3862
4. Fitness: scrubbing floors
5. Self-Care: lagging behind
6. Play/Leisure: see #5
7. Intentions: Manifest daily fitness goals. Seek balance.

More snow on the way, followed by a polar vortex. Well, at least that is better than an intestinal vortex !! Better than a financial vortex ! My mammo was negative... lots better than a big C vortex !! Which brings me to my next train of thought...

Why I don't want to be overweight ... versus... Why I want to be healthy.

Why I don't want to be overweight activates a flood of negative thoughts and memories. I can just feel initiative, hope and positivity draining out of me. In a heartbeat, all of that pain and heartache is so familiar and real... 50+ years of it. I will continue to do the heart and head work necessary to learn and grow, but revisiting that pain to frame what I don't want, just doesn't work for me.

I want to be healthy ! Weight is just one measure. When Ann, Shel, Peps and Cecily share the challenges their bodies meet and exceed, I feel envy as I identify role models and new goals to aspire to. When Miss Bonnie, Lesa, Shirl, Paula, Liz, Ann, BB, DD, Dave, Diane (and all of us) share hardships and challenges they have met head on and are working through, I am encouraged and humbled by the power of our minds and perseverance. All of us are lifelong learners who benefit from the hard earned lessons of others, as well as our own. I believe I can learn from the past while looking ahead.

That onion we all work so hard to peel does have countless layers to work through, and the potential for many more sprouts of new, healthy growth. I'm in the I lost the weight...now what ? phase, as I discover the multi-dimensional me and my many personal bests. So grateful to all of you, who join me on this adventure !!

Weight: 136.2
Macros: Cals - 1,674, Carbs - 175, Fats - 56, Protein - 90, Fiber - 27
Sleep hours: 10 hours
Vegetable/Fruit Servings: 9
Water glasses: 2
Exercise: 9,000 steps
Meditation: Yes

Nine veggies and fruits yesterday and fresh fish for dinner, then ten hours of sleep last night -- feels so good!

OK, here's the deal ... I'm up two pounds after four weeks in NOLA. No shame, just observing. And learning.

Mondays are good days for me to begin anew with fresh insights, plans, and intentions. FTR, my intentions this week are to nourish my body, mind, and soul. That sounds like it could be fancy or simple. So I pick simple.

Today's theme: Begin anew!

Uncertain on weight.

Cable company apparently cut our internet lines again and I was not ambitious enough to try and check in on my phone. They come tonight. Man I feel like I've been striking out on customer service recently.

big Vent: Best Buy. I hope it goes into bankruptcy. Guess this is what I get for using them instead of Amazon or something. Parents bought remote car start for my husband's car. Turn out, he can do that from an app on his phone. So he wanted to put it on his "fun" car that sits outside anyway. Unopened box, finally get receipt from mom, and we just want to do a simple exchange. Well it turns out they don't work on mercedes so we're out of luck. And they say their return for Christmas ended January 12. Are you freaking kidding me?!! I just don't see how that works in this day-in-age. Okay okay I suppose our bad (not that we don't have like a ZILLION things going on, but technically we're outside of range.) But we're like the best-case scenario: we want to spend our money there! We did spend our money there. The (expensive) thing won't work. It just really ticks me off that I feel like this whole policy was created to STEAL your money. What other reason could they have for not issuing the return? They haven't done the service, box is unopened. Grrr. Finally went to another store and it looks like they will issue store credit. Not ideal, but much much better. HOwever, I can assure you that is the last PENNY I will ever spend at Best Buy.

Saw Mary Poppins yesterday. It was kind of boring, Tbh.

I forget, did anyone see The Mule? Reviews?

Check-in on New Year's resolutions. Well I actually think I'm planning more than ever. But I'm also trying to really enjoy my time. So I'm half meeting my resolutions. I don't know if I have less patience for people, and if that's a bad thing or not, but I feel like some of my friends are really revealing their true identities. I'd told you about the drama with another couple from a couple weeks back. Well a similar thing happened this weekend. Maybe i'm intolerant because I'm stone-cold sober? We had a larger game night (4 couples) this weekend and long story short, two girls who are very good friends ended up having a blow-up. it all began because one was a sore loser. And I guess the other one, who I guess had too much to drink, decided this was the appropriate time to unleash all of her complaints. Luckily the other couple left, but then complaint-girl decided to go down a war path on her boyfriend. It was veeerrry uncomfortable. To say the least. rich and I didn't really want to get involved but needed to try and diffuse the situation. Luckily it was not physical at all, but in all our parties, including parties of 80+, with alcohol, etc., we've never had quite this dramatic of a blow up. But now I feel in an unusual situation because girl began saying how they'd never be invited back anyway, but DH reassured her they would. Eeek?! This would have otherwise been a let the friendship die kind of thing. Blech. I swear we are really rather mellow people. Is there some kind of weird moon energy out there making people so combative?

I also went to prenatal yoga. Wow, even that makes me sore! I think the reality is when you sit at a desk all day and don't move, anything is going to make you sore at first. And perhaps to embrace that. I mean, is it any wonder considering my back is sore if I sit in a backless chair at a restaurant?! I figured now is as good of a time as ever to try yoga since it will be especially gentle for pregnancy. And I'd say this class was more on the meditation side of yoga, but I still really enjoyed.

Diane O, I think you touched on something there. I'm not sure I want to be thin as much as I don't want to be fat. But is that a strong enough motivator? I love crossing my legs, buying clothes in any store, sitting in any seat. I kind of just get to live. But in a hungry/craving moment, I'm not thinking like that. I remember hearing something about habits being more important than discipline and that one only needs enough discipline to set a habit into motion. Hmmm

"Habits are more important than discipline." I like that. Because it sounds so practical. :)

I really do too. I was just pondering over that at lunch today haha. I like it because I'm one to sometimes think "well, I just don't have the discipline. Boohoo." But this is more about being smart about the finite amount of "discipline" we all have. Tactical. Hmmm

Now if I can only put that into practice.

I called in sick for today, but turns out we're having a snow day! Good, now I don't have to worry about what's going on when I'm not there. I do use my personal days (in fact we're going to St. Pete beach for a long weekend this Saturday, so I guess if I am going to be smote with the flu plague, the timing is right) but I feel better leaving when I've got one of my preferred subs and wrote lesson plans for that particular sub. Emergency plans are never as robust. But now we are in weather Armageddon, snow day today, and tomorrow windchill -40 until Thursday!!! Not sure if we will have school, they typically close if windchill -35, or air temp is -25. Crazy days.

I feel your pain ! Stay warm !

Liz, I want you to know that I wish I had a magic wand that would lighten your load as DH's caregiver. But I don't. Sure wish I did though.

Greetings Fudge Lovers

155 today but not due to fudge. Not sure why - lack of protein.

Liz I too wish there was a way to lighten your care giver load. Clean up day sounds like no fun. Seems like there is lots of that bug going around. Hope you don't catch it. Enjoy your friends. Seems like you have loads of good ones.

Off to Costco today to buy a gallery printer. BB Costco is very good about returns which is one reason I shop there. (Another is there is no place else in our dinky towns). Hope you get your issue resolved.

DD and DianeO I wish I could send some heat your way. Continuous cold is so oppressive. The thought of it makes me want to search for soup. I got some crab corn chowder from Costco but its not so good. But no, I won't take it back though I did once take back some fish that just didn't taste right.

Cecily thanks for posting those beautiful pictures. IX-nay on the mosquitoes however. Hate those things. Its why I don't like Minnesota (sorry steffie).

Peps, here is hoping you and Ron feel better. We lived that drama here a few weeks ago - the household traveling cold.

Well not much else. Its overcast today which is always sort of a downer but I will take it over freezing rain and snow. I don't have a heavy winter coat anymore - at least not one that fits.

Take care all. Diane S