Tuesday, January 22, 2019

Thank you so much Liz for sharing x It means more than you realise!

I have always said to my Step Son- you have one mum n one dad. I was careful to always remind myself of my place even though my nature is to care,love n nuture. I am a mumma bear

My time with DH has had its challenges from family court cases too missing out on my stepdaughters teen years. There has been huge stress n cost but moreso tears n frustration. She is 24 next month n finally I feel has the distance to see the love n support we always wanted to give her. It was my dream coming true n I will hold onto every treasured moment.

We have had an amazing 2 nights bonding. We have talked thru a lot, n hugged n shared. Im on top of the world n feeling blessed for this experience. I feel she can finally see me for me & not the poison she was fed by her mum

I just need to maintain dignity n grace- I refuse to discuss her mum n remain supportive of our blended family but darn it has its challenges x

It's a fine line. My stepdaughter's Mom has some definite issues which apparently were passed from her own mother who also cut people off. Possibly a borderline personality? Regardless, I am still careful not to criticize her Mom but I listen to my stepdaughter and I empathize with what she's feeling. I do say how sad it is that her Mom is missing out and that I can't understand it. But that's it.

Well done on having the grace to do that - to what may seem as someone who certainly doesnt deserve it. I am much in the same boat - her mother is very narcissistic and loves to control. It refreshing to see my stepdaughter out from under that cloud and making decisions and choices for herself as an adult. I tend to just say that I feel for her when she brings up any issue relating to her mum and remain neutral.

For me the hands down no question about it reason I wanted to lose weight was freedom. I could feel my world getting smaller, my mobility slipping away... I wanted to hike the trails in Cinque Terra in Italy, I wanted to walk the high line in NYC, I wanted to fit in the airplane seat, the kayak, the rollercoaster. It's a bonus, a really fun bonus, that I can now do these things while wearing the wardrobe I longed for. WLS was my ticket out of fat prison!

I second all your motivations. :)

I would add now that it is such a relief to get medical care without worrying about that someone will be dismissive because I am fat. Life is just easier in so many ways.

Weight: 135.8
Macros: Calories - 2,539, Carbs - 250, Fats - 77, Protein - 124, Fiber - 35
Sleep hours: 5
Vegetable/Fruit Servings: 7
Water glasses: 2.5
Exercise: 13,000 steps
Meditation: Yes

So I had a GREAT time at last night's dinner party. But lordy, lordy! As a result of my friend's good cooking and hosting enthusiasms, yesterday I earned my highest daily calories since I got to NOLA. And on a Monday night, no less.

I'll be more specific: Last night for dessert my friend served us Bananas Foster Bread Pudding with vanilla ice cream. It followed a meal of roasted pork loin, small roasted potatoes (I had just 1), rolls (I had none), a blue cheese/butternut/arugula salad (I had a small serving), roasted carrots with pistachio pesto (one serving), champagne (2 glasses), white wine (1 glass), and red wine (1 glass). The glasses of wine/champagne were 4-5 ounces each.

Today, my caloric goal is in the neighborhood of 1300. So there. I've set a goal and been public about it with y'all. My steps are already 8,300. No doubt I'll make 10K.

BTW, speaking of exercise ... I am so very sore today after my second day of pumping iron yesterday. My joie de vivre was not helped by getting only 5 hours of sleep last night, thanks to last evening's late hour at table.

I'm still looking for "the middle way" between indulgence and asceticism down here.

And now on to other questions of the day. Liz ... what's a Mississippi pot roast? I'm understanding better all the time what you're going through down there in Florida with so many neighbors who are socializing in retirement and the responsibility of entertaining long-term visitors.

Cecily ... I'm really tickled about your cruise and want to hear ALL about it as you have time to post. And the pictures would mean a lot, too. I've never sailed on Crystal.

DianeS ... I'm glad DH continues to do well at home. I hope your stress levels are lowering.

Devon ... I enjoyed your thoughts on weight loss motivations and old tapes. Would like to hear more as you continue to excavate around those issues.

DiamondD ... I'm really sorry about the Brett Favre abuse you described. I read up on it some this morning. I didn't know about that chapter in the Saints' history, since I'm a fairly new Who Dat fan. I can tell it was painful for you and other Minnesotans.

David ... what's up with you and your family, my friend?

Today's theme: There's are good reasons for days of rest, and it's time I took one.