Saturday, December 29, 2018

Good Morning! I've been up since 5am. My body need to move after I've laid in bed for so long. I have been sleeping well but have been having horrible hot flashes. I thought I was over that buy since surgery they have reappeared. I didn't think I would have those again since the total hysterectomy. My follow-up appointment was positive. Recovery slower than I'd like. I start out the day in pretty good spirits then sink into the edge of the pit as the day goes by. I need to change that.

I remember having the same conversation with Andy's grandmother ...the same questions over and over. We would just answer her like they'd never been asked. We would take her for walks by the fish tank and she tell us each time that fish have more than one eye lid. It can be frustrating.

I admire each and everyone of you...your journeys, your thought processes, the way you deal with life...thank you for sharing yourself with others.

OU football is on the agenda today...sure hope they can beat Alabama!

Here's to hoping no one falls into the pit today!

Stephanie- If those hot flashes are happening at night, I think it's just a side issue of the surgery. Mine went away after a week or two. Ditto for the declining moods at the end of the day. My body would just shut down- get cold, droopy and mind was unhappy. I found that if I literally got up and started shuffling (pacing) around the house, both my body and spirits would return at least to some semblance of ok. Give yourself the benefit of the doubt. You are not broken, just in the process of recovery. This, too, will pass.

I'm having hot flashes at all times of the day and night. It could be the pain meds, too. I'm wearing my Apple Watch today to count my steps and remind me to stand up. I've been doing my fair share of pacing, too. Meditating on these words from Lysa Terkeurst:

Can I whisper some encouragement to you tonight? You are beautiful and captivating and smart and capable.

But just in case you don't feel that way right now, remember this truth...

"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139:13-14 (ESV)

Thank you for the reminder that I am not broken. Recovery is a *****!??

Amen sister! I've done several of Lysa's bible studies.....good stuff!

Good morning!

Liz, I always wondered what was going on MIL's mind when she was mute. Confusing cobwebs? Static? Misfiring zaps? Clear skys but unable to form words? Terror? Empty? An inner world so full that it was impossible to engage with me? On the food front, your current situation does sound tough!

;) Last night I played Happy on a loop as I went thru a workout which had blocks that were supposed to be on a 3-4 minutes in length. What is it about that song that makes it rank right up there with sunlight? At least what I remember sunlight being like. RIP sunlight.

One nice thing about not using MFP for a long time is that it feels like a fresh toy when I pick it up again (current streak: 3 days) I am trying to tinker my macros so that eventually 60% calories (or so) are from fat most days of week. That's an interesting puzzle and perhaps the only type of diet I have no practice at. My WL was entirely Keto but it was protein based.

A delightful lab finding on my 4 year labs: my ferritin is now normal. My very first elevated ferritin level was worked up and assessed as "inflammation" rather due to a variety of other things. (DH has hemochromatosis and no, I did not have that. Also, my oncologist said "this is not cancer.") The inflammation was thought to be related to previous obesity and pre-diabetes.

"Elevated Inflammation" felt like a kiss of death. It greatly bothered me that it did not rapidly plunge once I lost the weight. But, it did slowly decrease (like my PCP promised) and is now solidly in low normal range.

DianeO and SP: healing vibes being sent to you! You, too, B150! Oh, and also to ;) and Dave and DianeS! (What is wrong with this group?) Soothing thoughts to Diamond as you car shop. (I hate paying for cars but enjoy the shopping every 10-15 years) BB, I love the way you savor the season and your peeps! Paula, it is always so good to see your posts. One reason I rarely do shout outs is that once I get rolling I KNOW I AM MISSING SOMEONE and I value all of you! Oh! Peps! Talk about new toys! Have fun feathering that new nest.

The weather outside is not inviting. But, as my uphill trainer would say, unpleasant and uncomfortable is good! Onward to Tiger MTN!

Shel

The pound that found me has fled - and then some. Great work out last night.

Cecily - Butter cookies are crack! I understand eating one's weight in them. I could probably eat a layer out of a Royal Danish tin... Of course, then I'd feel like **** but I could do it.

We are off to the Disney Family Museum in what was once the Presidio near Golden Gate Bridge in SF. Will check in later this evening.

DH loved that museum on our, so far, one and only trip to SFO. Not being quite the Walt fan he is, I bought an iced tea and read a book on the porch. Both of us passed a few happy hours :)

Butter cookies ARE crack!! Just one layer? Pffft...

Greetings New Years Revelers

154 today. Crap the pounds lost with cold are back. Guess it was not real. Oh well, onward.

Yep, big football starts today. I will be on gallery duty so will only catch the last one but that's the only one of much interest.

Yowza Ocean Diane, 16 loads of laundry with a burned arm? You are wonder woman. Glad DC is transitioning. Maybe the ratty sweatpants could have an "accident". I used to plot the same for my DH when he used to wear his dad's old clothes. Oops I spilled the bleach... But then he outgrew them.

Liz glad you have the supportive couple. Not sure which is harder - repeated questions or silence. My grandmother used to ask the same questions over and over but eventually became quite withdrawn. Not an easy road.

Peps, there is an old Lucile Ball movie called The Long Trailer or something like that. Lucy cooks dinner in a trailer while Desi drives it on winding roads. Hilarious. I know you won't be cooking while driving. Sounds like DianeO has a pretty good list. Your own good coffee early on a dog show morning would be high on my list. I don't like Keurig either. Not strong enough. I buy my own favorite blend at the health food store and pour it through a filter. Half and half of course.

Ann glad you are feeling better. Its seems your natural state of mind is one of optimism and I am glad the invading gloom didn't last. Hoping for ever improving eye. Time in NOLA will be quite the tonic.

I got some studio time in and some errands run yesterday but gallery this afternoon. I sure love running around in the electric car. Its like it runs for free. Of course electricity is not free but its cheaper than gasoline and I never go to a gas station. SP car shopping can be the pits. Good luck.

Liz, glad the desserts are disappearing. We still have the cranberry nut bread which I would like to toss. I can keep it to one slice per day but thats more than I need.

Well our neighbor lady took down all the inflatable Christmas stuff. We will probably keep our little fiber optic tree up for a month. Why not?

Well time for more coffee and to cruise facebook. Check out some football before gallery duty. I love being retired. Diane S