Tuesday, December 18, 2018

Weight 123.4, calories 998. Only one more sleep until we travel home. I think DH had it in his mind that we were leaving today as he got up a few times, turned on the light and started getting dressed. He has to get up about 5 hours earlier than his usual time tomorrow, so hopefully he will get to bed early. Yesterday he was very tired and took a nap which I think may have partially caused the disturbed sleep last night.

Pictures below of the golf cart parade (hard to get much in the dark). The one with the two women with Santa and Justice watching has relatives of our neighbor visiting from Iceland. Very nice and fun people! The other picture is of the two animal stockings. Lavender's didn't come out as good as I made the L way too big then had to squish everything else. Oh well...

Have a thankful Tuesday!

Fun and Festive! Lavender looks just right :)

Agreed! The gingerbread man cart is delightful!

1. Within Range: yes
2. General Wellbeing: 6 on SS
3. 10,000+ Steps: 4238
4. Fitness:
5. Self-Care:
6. Play/Leisure: knitting, reading
7. Intention: Finish 2018 the way I intend to start 2019.

Yes, this time of the year is challenging. DC bring tethered to his bag and the bad experience we had venturing out has turned him into a recliner rock. I see myself struggling to maintain the activity level I need to feel good mentally and physically. I totally agree that the holidays often amplify the disfunction of the past, and stark comparisons between how I will spend the holidays and how I wish I was spending the holidays are hard to quiet. I have to find artificial sun and increase my music driven activity level. This is NOT how I want to start 2019. Some Reiki work is in order to shake things up and get me moving to make my intention my reality. My heart and thoughts go out to everyone struggling. My thanks and gratitude to those sharing their success and positive energy.

Hang in there and keep moving! Next year in the sun hopefully?

I understand DC's reaction to the not so good experience, for whatever reason it was caused. There have been at least 3 times now when it seems like I am broken back to where I began coming home. My knee jerk reaction (and consequent despairing mood) is fear that I have undone all the progress I've made and I literally freeze where I am. What has helped me get over the bad day and move forward is to focus not on the isolated incident, but back out and look at the progress I have made over time which changes the perspective dramatically. Makes the moment less of a total loss and more of a "cheer up, Buttercup, this is just a new puzzle to work out in your healing process". It's what I think, always, that determines my feelings, which then drive my decisions-and then behaviors. Encourage DC to look through the window that shows the big picture and move forward.

My most positive thoughts and energies are directed your way- visualizing warm, comforting rays of sunshine upon you.

I couldn't quite hit the like for this post, but was wishing for an "I empathize" button instead! LOL!

Chuck and Ron the Recliner Rocks! LOL! Even though Ron has ventured out and is embracing life as a bagged man, he is most definitely a recliner rock once at home. The home inactivity had been a problem (for me anyway) prior to the stroke, but now it's quite a bit more intense. The catheter is a fantastic excuse for not doing much - even the things he can do easily around the house. I have adopted the philosophy that I must do for myself and let him be sedentary. When I don't get the time to workout or due the things I want to do, I will fall into resentment and that will just make everything worse. I find that ignoring Ron's "poor me" behavior and focusing on taking care of myself helps me be okay with everything. As long as I'm taking care of my needs I seem to have room for tolerance, compassion, and understanding for Ron and his health situations and how that affects his mood, thinking and behavior.

We totally need an I empathize button!

Love the idea of an empathize button !!

131.4 (consequence of body-function- related to meds. ? shift? OR, what would be a good thing, as in my system finally fully awake and working on its own...at any rate, adjustments needed.)

So blessed - the forecast for the rest of the week is for continued above average moderate weather and chances of sun. A reprieve. Nothing much on the menu for today. Cookies and a Christmas party tonight with the girlfriends- much chatter and enjoyment of good company in store. Hope to spend a deal of time outside and soak up some vit. D.

I was thinking about this group, and visualized one of those Christmas village displays- the ones with the cotton snow underlayment and all of the ceramic houses and buildings-- each of us in our own unique home, but with the lights going in all the windows throughout --a community of sharing and welcome. Doors open and, "howdy-howdy, come on in and spend a while".

Howdy-howdy !