Sunday, December 16, 2018

Weight 179.4 Ugh.

I bought Christmas sugar cookies and ate most of them before throwing the rest in the outdoor icky trash can. How sad that I knew that if they were in their container in the kitchen trash, I might convince myself to dig them out? That my friends is the definition of a food problem.

I've just plain been eating too much lately. If I had to label it, it's loneliness and boredom, despite being busy for me.

I am going to throw my tree up tonight so I'm not doing it right before my dad shows for Christmas day only to have to turn around and take it down.

In writing this, I think my feelings about the creeping scale are coloring my day to day mood. My feelings about my weight are so tied to my everyday feelings. Good days equal good moods, bad days turn me into Eyeore...

All you Christmas cookie bakers are impressive! I would eat them all!

I get it. I do. You are not alone.

I know you do, Peps!!

Been there-done that with the trash.

Loneliness and boredom are harsh, hard to deal with adversaries--so sneaky. Food says it will keep you both occupied and company, but it lies. Tell your scales to go **** themselves- they, too, lie when they tell you that your total worth and value are measured by the number shown.

Good days are not made up solely by what you eat. You, sweet Cecily are so much more, and take heart-

Every choice you make presents an opportunity to choose again- a "bad moment" does not necessarily make a bad day.

You've got this, buttercup. I smile every time I think of you-- You are amazing- own it- Truth.

You say the kindest things, Bonnie! Thank you!

I'm right there with you on the cookies. And, by right there, I mean I am posting this as I pull your cookies out of your outside trash can.

Seriously, I have to run water over cookies to have a permanent throw-out. Anything less is a faux-throw.

Is seems good that you are able to label it.

I hear you - and sending you a big aussie hug

Ive been eating my stress and the scales showed me this morning

Hugging back at you!

As everyone else said we have all been there and done that. Including how we feel about our weight affecting our moods. And loneliness/boredom? Yes, and negative mood too. Oh, and how about dish soap poured over the offending food in the trash? I'm still struggling with my higher weight - below my WLS goal but way above the range I ended up liking. Please don't beat yourself up - today is a new day for all of us!