VSG Maintenance Group
11/12/18, Monday
Mojo and positive energy for Bonnie150 and her surgical team for tomorrow. I pray for steady hands, a strong and cooperative body and no surprises for the surgeon.
Glad for David's and Paula's check ins! Lesa, your turn!
Today is a federally mandated school holiday. I stayed under cover for a full 8 hours, though not asleep that whole time. Sleeping a straight 8 hours for me would be a miracle. I usually get 3 hours at a time at most. Luckily, I do fall back asleep quite easily. I'm still sipping coffee and in my lounge wear (elegant way of saying boxers and a tee! LOL)
In spite of someone's mood yesterday, I managed to have a really nice day. I decided it was best to focus on what I needed to do to feel good about my day and did so. I went to the gym and had a wonderful workout. I came home and cloistered myself in the bedroom with my laptop researching travel trailers. (Yes, I found one I kind of like! Damn it!) Then I scheduled myself for a foot reflexology and massage at 6 pm. Ron wanted to know why I was hanging out in the bedroom. I skillfully and without emotion told him I was tired of being the recipient of his irritability, but I understood why he was feeling the way he was and did not want to get into a fight. I told him I knew how hard it is for him to cope with everything - the heart monitor, the catheter and bag, the med schedule - and that I even understood how I was the one available person on whom he could release the negative energy. I explained that I loved him, but simply did not want to handle it today and it was best for me to separate myself. He did apologize and acknowledged his irritability. I went off to my massage, came back and we went to try a new restaurant nearby.
Weight has gone from ? on 10/8, then from 262 on 10/11 to 248 today. That's 14 pounds in a month. I'd say I'm feeling pretty damn good about that! Whooooo Hoooooo! I have returned to old fashioned logging. There is comfort in pen and paper and a little book. I can quickly look back at what I ate. I am adding a new thing to my log now, too - my fitness activities. OMG! Who am I becoming! Blue Sky is selling a health and fitness journal for 2019. I ordered it and am really looking forward to using it come January. I have it already and I've so been itching to use it I bought a little wire note book at the supermarket last night to use until January. In case anyone is interested, here's the link: Blue Sky 2019-weekly-fitness-planner
The smoke in the air is still present and my bronchia are getting angry about the constant assault. I am truly wheezy this morning.
Three dogs to the vet this afternoon. I have lots of school work and some bills to do, but I feel like procrastination should reign supreme today. I think I will honor that feeling until sundown.
Found it on Amazon for $25 https://www.amazon.com/Blue-Sky-Monthly-Flexible-110936/dp/B 07FZSRVWZ/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1542049124&sr=8-3&keywords= blue+sky+fitness+planner+2019 Done and done ! Great idea !
I am so proud of you and sooo excited for you ! You are in such a good place ! A travel trailer !!!! Think of a name !!!! Think of dog shows !!!
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
That is awesome progress, Peps! I knew you could do it! Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.
I meant to reply about Ron's attitude yesterday. I'm guessing his tone was that of "I'll skip lunch today and maybe you'll be over this phase soon and we can return to normal."?? I'm sure I've been on both sides of that. I know how it feels to have unsupportive family members. It sucks. But unfortunately when I think about it, I have been unsupportive of other family members' diets now that I think about it. In my mind it wasn't the same (ha!) because they were doing something fad-ish or whatever. But hearing your sadness still made me reflect on how I could've done more.
Would it be better or worse to describe to Ron your goals?
It's such a touchy subject. For me, at least. Maybe some people who haven't struggled quite as much aren't nearly as stung by it. Anything about weight is just so complicated for me.
AFM, right now I feel like I want to eat all the time. And DH is being so super "supportive" and eating right alongside me that I'm suddenly worrying about him gaining weight! What a double standard! I'm glad I caught myself. I would hate to hurt his feelings. How can I feel so much about this and then be unsupportive toward him? I'm telling myself that it will be GREAT having a husband who wants/needs to lose weight with me next summer! Ha!
Ah, no, sadly you misunderstand his attitude from yesterday. Let me explain. He wanted to go out to brunch. Long story short, because he was being so disagreeable yesterday I decided I did not want to go out to eat with him. I felt like doing that would be like putting a lighted match next to a bowl full of gasoline and hoping for the best. When I said I didn't want to go, he stomped off like a little kid with his, "Fine! Then I just won't eat until dinner." It's his little passive aggressive way of trying to get me to feel guilty for not doing what he wants.
Devon, 14 pounds in one month is a helluva great stat! Your mojo is working overtime! :)
ANN 5'5", AGE 74, HW 235.6 (BMI 39.2), SW 216, GW 150, CW 132, BMI 22
POUNDS LOST: Pre-op -20, M1 -10, M2 -11, M3 -10, M4 -10, M5 -7, M6 -5, M7 -6, M8 -4, M9 -4,
NEXT 10 MOS. -12, TOTAL -100 LBS.
on 11/12/18 4:25 pm, edited 11/12/18 9:28 am
Weight 176
I went to the trainer today. Holy hell, I'm weak! It took very little to make my muscles feel like noodles. I shudder to think how sore I'm going to be. But I liked her and she seems capable and knowledgeable. I had all those same "fear of trying new things" feelings and feeling intimidated, but it was good. I didn't love it like Pilates I think because it highlights my weakness, but I think it'll be good for me.
She had me do this body fat scale thing that reads your fat and muscle composition from the various parts of your body. She said it was interesting that it didn't recommend I add lean muscle mass. She said usually it says every woman should. But it did say I should lose 17.9 pounds of fat. Hmm. I didn't think I looked good that low, but it does bring to mind that Catherine Deneuve quote about women of a certain age needing to choose between their face and their ass...
Anyway, hope you all are doing well!