Monday, October 15, 2018

Weight: 132.6
Macros: Cals - 1,725, Carbs - 225, Fats - 47, Protein - 116, Fiber - 33
Sleep hours: 5
Vegetable/Fruit Servings: 8
Exercise: Walking
Meditation: Yes

Danger, Will Robinson! Not enough sleep last night or the night before. But on the good news front, this morning's Monday morning weight (which I graph) is the lowest in nearly 5 months. Scale dropped 3.5 pounds in a week. Thank you (not!), Prednisone. ;)

But other than that, I have nothing new to report. Wait ... I washed my hair yesterday. And my house is clean.

However, this week will be a whirlwind of git 'er done days. On Thursday I will see my WLS surgeon in The Big City to discuss my "moderate" hiatal hernia. As I said, he's a surgeon. Think he'll want to operate? ;)

Today's theme is yesterday's with a coda: I want my pain to end, to be happy, to find peace. And I want the same for y'all.

1. Within Range: Back in !
2. General Wellbeing: 9 on SS; allergies
3. 10,000+ Steps: 8745
4. Fitness: walking; cycling "machine" ; walking Sadie
5. Self-Care: Gave myself facial; gave myself Reiki treatment
6. Play/Leisure: Frisbee with dogs, reading
7. Interest/Talent/Skill: Knitting a fall scarf

It is raining again ! The front and back need to be mowed again (definite correlation there). I ordered a Dowdow https://www.amazon.com/s/?ie=UTF8&keywords=dowdow+sleep&tag= mh0b-20&index=aps&hvadid=77790511896258&hvqmt=e&hvbmt=be&hvd ev=c&ref=pd_sl_51rqohi3i_e for DC. It arrives today, so I should have a report tomorrow. Working on increasing my knee range of motion using stationary peddler, so I can get bike riding again.

Pictures of SS decorated on FB.

I never heard of a Dowdow, so will be awaiting your report. What kind of stationary peddler do you use? I was thinking of getting one for DH.

Ha! I had to look up Dowdow to find out what the heck it is! Who knew such things exist? Sounds heavenly, though. After my back surgeries I found that those "sounds of nature" type recordings softly listened to directly thru earbuds were very helpful in aiding peace and relaxing into sleep (or maybe it was just the hydrocodone). Let us know how it works out for you. I might could use something like that.

Range----monitoring range seems to be working well.

136.4

Good morning, Ann and all.

Very cool here (34 outside)-and even a bit on the cold side in the house. My mother (and this was in Michigan) prided herself on not turning on the heat in the house until October 31st- or later if she could get away with it. For some reason, I have continued that insane challenge to this day. Most years, being somewhat south- no problem. But sometimes- this year being one of them...house is 52.8 and without the body insulation- brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Will common sense (and the thermostat) kick in- Nah-only overmyfrozenfrostycarcass. Homage to Mom.

Looking at the calendar for this week- not much cooking. Today before I go to the ceramics lab and then to class, I have an appointment to see a counselor. - Just to talk- I think I'm doing pretty well in the mental health area, but a caution flag goes up when my initial response to such opportunities is, "no need, I have my **** together here" feeling self sufficient sometimes means not so much and I made the appointment, I guess to prove to myself that I don't need the appointment, if you know what I mean.

Friday, on a looking forward to it note, DH and I are dressing for the theatre--off to see Cabaret. Late dinner and the works. Get ready, closet.

Smiles all around. bonnie

Weight 121.2, calories 798.

You are way ahead of me with your clean house Ann. Somehow I need to fit that chore in this week...

My heat is on as is my gas fireplace. I hate to be cold! The Alzheimer's walk was good yesterday - a great turnout and the weather was perfect. SIL and I did poke around for a while after the walk but DH refused so DSD stayed with him.

I was exhausted last night after severe insomnia the prior night so I slept, but was interrupted constantly by DH getting up - 6 times! I also think he needs depends at home at nighttime now. I made him wear them in Europe which he fought. I let him revert to not wearing them in the familiarity of home, but he is having nighttime accidents. Arghhh...

Today is busy with Alzheimer support stuff but then I have to get packed for our trip coming Friday.

Have a marvelous Monday!

Weight: 166.2

I'm feeling rather depressed. I know, I know, I'm so fortunate and have so many blessings. I know these things and believe me, I feel bad for feeling how I feel. But right now I cannot seem to stop harping on the fact that DH has not gotten an offer for this job. I'm living in fear. The other job (out of state) did, however, offer him a full time position. And one that he'd be able to work here one week, there one week. I'm a brat. I don't want that. I feel sick to my stomach when I think of handling two tiny babies alone for a week at a time. I don't want to do it, and I'm unsure that I'm able to do it. Last week with Becca being sick plus my pregnancy fatigue, plus sick dogs really tested me. He leaves Wednesday (because he's taking his older kids on fall break, then straight back out of state) and I'm already feeling sad. I know people do this alone all the time. Work, divorce, death. I'm just having a hard time not being overwhelmed by the sadness. And I don't like that at all, not when I have so many blessings!

So what am I talking about? While we were in Colorado, DH had gotten a message that they were all very impressed with his interview, and that they would be wrapping up the process next (last) week and he should know something next (last) week. Well, when this other offer came in, and DH hadn't heard anything by end of day Friday, he messaged the person back again. She wanted to talk. Turns out they hadn't gotten enough traction for the position and had wanted to keep it open a little longer and give a couple more interviews. This doesn't sound good to me. I'm hoping it's procedural coming down through HR or something. But I know when DH was hiring at his previous job, if you had the right candidate, you pounced. Different market these days? Gosh I hope. She said he's definitely in the running. Praying to God that they simply have to wrap up a couple more interviews but that won't change his standing. But I have a pit in my stomach. It's not just about him not getting this job now. It's more that if he doesn't get a job there, and if he can't make inroads back at his old company...that leaves few options for him here.

Oh BB, I hope DH will get a position that works for him and your family. I think your desire for you all to be together is completely valid and important for all if you. Even if it doesn't work out right away I'm sure it will ultimately but this certainly is not easy!

Thank you!

Yes, this limbo has been so hard. I'm very thankful he's had a job basically since a couple weeks of being let go, and that he has an offer now.

He's still pretty confident about the job. He says "I was there in the interview and I know I knocked it out of the park." But I'm more of the pessimist thinking "well, it didn't make "sense" for you to get let go from previous job, and it's super weird to keep a job open if you think you've found the right guy already.

I feel like such a Debbie Downer. Maybe it will still all work out.

Greetings Special Ones

151.5. Yesterday was pretty active for me since I took Tesla for a walk and did a zillion loads of laundry plus forced myself to get rid of some junk. We have many little throw blankets since the dogs are always on the furniture and DH sits in his big chair with a pillow on his belly (to protect from dogs) plus a throw. Its cold here today but sun is out so I predict it will warm up.

What is it about sleep that makes it so dang difficult? I think its because we no longer work like field hands plus electricity gives us light when everything else goes to sleep. I looked up the Dowdow too. Still not quite sure how it works. I have devices called "Touchpoint". Also known as buzzies. Each is about the size of a watch and you wear them on opposite sides of body and they vibrate and buzz alternatively. I put them in soft bands around my ankles. It is soothing but only slightly effective. But I am hard core insomniac.

So Bonnie 150, funny how our moms instill a few things in us. I always wash off the tops of cans before I open them because my mother told me at night bugs walk around on them in grocery stores. But our heat is on. Heck, sometimes we need it in July here.

BB sorry you are stressing on the job thing. It makes it doubly hard because there isn't much you can do about it. Most of the time stress can be lessened by taking some action but that's not the case. Hope it resolves soon and that Becca feels better.

Kiln opens today. My stuff went in the new one (new to us) so I am curious how my glazes worked.

My gripe of the day is that I have a giant zit in the middle of my forehead. I am thinking of taking a lipstick to it and telling everyone I have become a Hindu. Its that bad.

Well banking and studio chores today and probably a dog walk or two. But first, more you-know-what. Diane S