Thusday, August 16, 2018

Weight 119.2, calories 1120. Still going in the right direction. Of course we are visiting friends on a lake in NH this weekend who always have lots of munchie and sweet stuff around so it will be a challenge. I'll have to take Justice for lots of walks. Yes, he is coming too. We don't usually bring our dogs when we visit friends, but they are very dog friendly and specifically asked that we bring him. I love walking around their lake and I know Justice will too.

DH doesn't seem to be able to read or follow TV at all these days. He is sleeping 13-14 hours (but all at night right now). Sooner or later he will probably mix up day and night. But he sleeps until 9:30-10 am and is in bed around 8-8:30 pm if we have nothing going on. There is no conversation anymore because he can't talk enough. I guess that's why I feel lonely sometimes... One of the women in my support group has a husband who is a little further along than mine, though mine is headed that way. She describes George as being a "shell". Pleasant and smiley but no one is really home. She travels a lot with him and has given me advice on how to do it. She says her DH enjoys the moments, but she can not just enjoy them but she can make pleasant memories of these years with him. I find her to be very inspirational.

Anyway, beach today as it is supposed to be beastly hot again, then packing. I made my packing list yesterday while my car was being serviced. I found last year's list and updated it - mostly with DH's stuff because he was able to pack a year ago but can't now.

Have a thermally tolerant Thursday!

Good morning,

I like that you have found someone that can show you how she is still able to travel with DH. And, I love the idea of making pleasant memories even if it isn't the type of travel they originally planned together.

I haven't gone to the gym or hiked in 3 days! 2 days were deliberate....yesterday I just pooped out after many extra hours at work. I'm off work today except for some remote stuff. The dogs are going to the vet for check ups.

Tomorrow we leave for a 3 day weekend on Long Beach. WA beaches always have the potential for cold and it looks like we will be lucky if it is 70 degrees. That is best, tho....it means that air will be coming in from the ocean rather than the smoky interior.

Meals at the beach will be some version of easy tho I am not exactly sure what. There is a tiny possibility that I will feel like making meatballs (DD's favorite) for one night special meal. From a dysfunctional food standpoint, I felt good that I looked at Costco snacks and then said no-thanks. There will be no shortage of fun foods at the beach but not in Costco sized bags.

I talked to DH last night about his ice cream in the kitchen's freezer...a freezer we all routinely access if for no other reason than the ice maker.

Well....it was less conversation than me dictating that he needs to keep his ice cream in the freezer in the laundry room.

He complains when DD and I get into his ice cream. In the past, he has said that it was our problem that we don't leave it alone. It is EVER PRESENT. I don't WANT to even look at his ice cream, much less eat it on a regular basis.

In the past, I have moved it to the laundry room only to have him ignore that one and buy another for the kitchen freezer. WTF?

So, last night, I think my loud pronouncement scared him, and simply said he would move it...."whatever you need" he said sweetly.

I am suspicious :) I haven't looked to see if it is there or not.

Time to get my booty in gear.

Speaking of booties....Cecily, post LBL, I ended up a bit narrower on the bottom (even with inner thigh skin) relative to my top. Jelly of your inner thighs...now all healed up!

Shel

Shel: Best to not look in the second freezer. Let it remain hidden!

Totally agree!

I tend not to hunt, which is why squirreling it away is so helpful.

But, I did find it.....the empty container was in the garbage (he gets up in the middle of the night and eats ice cream. He is overweight but never obese. )

I'm sure a replacement will arrive tonight...which is aok .

Liz-I'm glad that you have a "mentor" through this. Enjoy what you can

Shel-I think that was a fair request.

I am not feeling it today. Last night Nugget woke up TWICE. Ugh. And I got 2 chips ahoy again. Then threw the few remaining ones in the trash. I'm tired today and have a general F-it attitude. Kind of feeling like this is too hard and too low priority. 165 is an okay weight for me, sure. But in reality I'm scared to death that I'm 165 on an express train to the 200s if I don't keep myself straight!

Skipped breakfast at GM's and someone had brought cinnamon rolls to the office. I had one. It wasn't as horrendous as I thought it'd be--320 calories. Not healthy, but the day is salvageable. Hoping I have the discipline for that.

But between being tired and PMS, I don't have high hopes for today. I feel like DH and I are pretty active, socially. I guess I'm having trouble slowing down. I want to do it ALL! How can I carve out more hours in my day? I feel like I hardly get any time with Becca, and spending time with DH is also priority to me. But so is just keeping the house up (and i have help with that!), keeping dogs fed, trying to make healthy meals. I'd also really love to get back to going to the gym, but I'm running out of ways to split the day. I don't even think they're excuses so much as just *life*. Sure I could go in the mornings before Becca wakes up on the weeks DH is in town...but I'm exhausted as it is and if I wake up that much earlier than DH, I'll want to go to bed before him and so I still miss time with him. The best solution is to take Becca to the childwatch after work and DH and I could workout together. But that means we essentially only get 1 hour with her in the evening before bedtime. We could workout together with a video (like P90x) after she goes to sleep, but DH would prefer to go to the gym, and that's making it almost the only thing we get to do at night after she goes to sleep. Ugh. DH's suggestion? Let's just be fat and happy. And honestly I'm feeling like that's pretty tempting today.

You have a lot going on B.B. and it is a struggle to juggle it all at your point in life. You did just have a child a few months ago - it does get more manageable.

I had to chuckle at the "express train" because that's what scares me too. Now if one of us were artistic maybe we could draw that evil express train...

Hate to disappoint, but it's not a devil train... It's really an insidious Tesla that is so quiet you don't even notice it's driving up until it hits you and its a done deal! That is why it's a good thing to be wary of!

Remove Becca from the situation and your life sounds a bit like mine - BUSY! It's hard at the best of times, but you are a new mom and still getting used to all that goes with that. Being a mom is a full time job in itself, and you have your law practice on top of that, a house to run and a DH that is no longer living at home full time. Put it all in perspective and prioritize. Maybe your goal for now could be to simply maintain at 165. Deal with weight loss when you're feeling a little more settled?

Greetings Buddies

Can it really be Thursday Aug 16th? Seems like it was just Valentines Day. Time goes so fast now even though we do NOT live life in the fast lane. More like parked on the shoulder of a country road.

But Whew BB, you are in the fast lane of 21st century life. I've never understood how mothers these days get it all done. But they manage and you will too. I guess you just do what you can. You too Liz. Your stories over the past year explain your DH's condition so clearly. Glad you have a buddy who has the same issue. Maybe more of the art for your DH as he goes on. My mother had considerable dementia with her Parkinsins and in the last months the main thing she did was adult color books and kids puzzles. When my father had a stroke many years ago, I got him doing kids crosswords. It seemed to help by finding something they could accomplish and alleviated the frustration of what they could not do.

And of course Justice is the perfect little house guest. So glad you have him.

Shel, so you have ice cream turf wars. Battle of the freezers. Lucky that you have two. My DH has his ice cream bars in full view. Why can't they be under the frozen chicken? But I have to say I am not much tempted by ice cream. No clue why. Peanuts are another story.

Well it looks like DH needs a hernia repair. Not a bad one and not emergent but something to take care of. He has lunch today with his buddies, one of whom has had multiple such repairs. He knows who the good surgeons are and who to NOT go to.

Got a call from my studio buddy last night who needed to talk - frantic about various life and family issues. I am happy to listen and offer comfort but it sure makes me want to drink wine as I listen. Definitely a trigger. I find I need to avoid evening stress (ie the creepy sci fi ) or it leads to eating and drinking.

My idol, Aretha, has died. RIP great one.

Diane S

I'm not surprised that your friends find you easy to talk to, but evening stress isn't good.

Yes, R.I.P. Aretha.