08/01/18, Hump Day

Love this !!!

that bit of accountability, that cheerleader is the idea behind meeting up with the nutritionist again. The need for a trainer is for me to build in self accountability. If I have a weekly appointment, I am committed to make that appointment and have motivation to follow through during the week. While I am still quite proud of my fitness level and strength, I certainly don't have the same motivation or drive to work out as I once did.

Stephanie! Sweetie pie, so good to hear from you.

No weight today (I'm one of the ones who came home from WLS with an 18# gain- talk about a shocker. What I learned from that buzz kill experience is to stay off the scales anytime I have IV fluids pumped into me).

Scope yesterday turned into a bit of a biopsy, and poking holes through my sleeve to get to my pancreas sure made me sore for a good while. Fun with morphine and thank God for a good natured DH who claimed to exact many a chuckle over certain antics performed. Who, me?

Initial thoughts are that cyst is a benign creation due to diet, injury, or (yep, the chickens do sometimes come home to roost) abuse of alcohol. Not sure enough to close the book on this, and freckle - juice has been sent to the lab. I am relieved, and remain hopeful.

Smiles y ' all s way.

bonnie

Best wishes, Bonnie!

Bonnie, good to hear from you re the freckle test. Finally! That's too bad you had to have so many holes poked in you, for sure. I'll be listening to hear what the final result is.

BTW, that was a wonderful response you made over in the General Forum today on Kathy's regain question, i.e., how many times did you have to try before you got started in earnest.

You really are a subtle thinker. And a good communicator. :)

Aw, shucks, and, thank you.

You know what really sent my head spinning wildly (my second thought that I never did get around to) over Kathy's comment that she had kept the weight off, what, 12 years?, and then, wammo- all that weight gain. A real humbling thought- that time passed successfully is no insurance.

My thinking up to this moment has been (regarding my regain) that I had not practiced maintenance very long- you know, not had enough food-sober experience to weather the chaos I created and that is why I failed so miserably. Thinking that "enough successful time practicing right eating will somehow permanently set a healthy weight in cement" is - WRONG.

Evidently, the process is never done. We are never cured, just (no pun intended) maintaining and have to continue to pedal forever.

That's pretty much how I see it too, Bonnie. I do think (or maybe I just hope?) that years of "food sobriety" can build strength to "get back on the horse quickly," which is a phrase I often use to describe a tool that has (thus far) saved my ass.

But then I'm just now coming up on four years post-op. Diane S., Bonnie (mother of Becca), and Peps are all about twice as many years more tenured than that. And Kathy's three times my WLS seniority.

I would be so delighted if sometime in the very near future "they who are in charge of WLS success" came up with a skinny-for-life gut biome probiotic. And a skinny-for-life hormone adjustment pill that made us feel full fast, metabolized all our calories into muscle (and not fat), and every midnight sent all the day's leftover calories to our lungs in the form of CO2 that we could just exhale. Boy, that would motivate all of us to breathe-in, breathe-out meditate, eh?

;)

Ya Think????

I was right!!! I remembered your name was Bonnie or so I thought...then thought I could be wrong:) Anyway, prayers for positive test results!