Thursday, July 26, 2018

I'm pretty sure we are odd ducks....thanks for keeping me company :)

I like to think that Emma knows DS1 needs her right now. What a good girl. (And, I like to think she will be back to you asap)

Good to hear from you Paula. Sleep all you can. It is indeed healing. Shel is right, DS needs Emma and Emma knows it. Dogs understand this. And you need Bella. Take care. Meet up groups sound good. DS

I've met two of my best friends and many other friends in meetup.com groups!

Paula, I think about you often.

You may need some time to sleep and be alone. But I'm sure it's also important to not be alone too long. My church has a grief class that was really helpful for my grandmother after my grandfather passed. I think Ann went out with a friend who'd lost her husband though I cannot remember whether she found it useful or not. I think it can be helpful to know others have gone through the same thing--but of course your own experience will be unique so please be kind to yourself, take time for yourself to process as necessary. Please reach out and ask for help and friendship as needed. Take care of YOU!

I'm sure there's no single best model of responding to widowhood. Actually, I REALLY needed and wanted to be alone. But everybody apparently thinks a new widow must not be left alone! It was so frustrating to me. There was so very, very much to process. Over and over. And I was so, so tired. My brain was so tired!

It sounds like you are working through this as best you can. Dogs are indeed very sensitive creatures and are helping where they can. Love to you!

How wonderful to log on and "see you" today! I'm not surprised you're exhausted. Lots of emotional energy being used these days. That's exhausting! Sleep as much as you need!

Dogs do what dogs do. Often times we never figure out the reasoning behind their changes in habits or individual actions that seem out of character. I have learned to trust the dog, if it's not an endangering change. I know my dogs are very sensitive to mood changes and act accordingly.

Hugs!

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Another day of normal if forgettable activity- but, I don't see these as wasteful or worthless at all..Kind of more like important and significant - Think- Thornton Wilder's "Our Town". "Oh, Earth, you are too wonderful to realize you...Do any human beings ever realize life while they live it?- every every minute". The days that I regret are the ones I throw away- as in- some kind of burden I have to endure while waiting for my life to count for something. (And, I'm sorry to say, I have spent many a day--weeks--years with that kind of attitude).

Meditation is really cool- Iv'e never been able to formally, purposefully do it. That is probably why my prayer life sucks so badly. I seem to need an activity (sounds contraindicated, right?) to engage that deeper peace. I think that is why I hand stitch quilt-free embroider-sketch, doodle and paint. The mantra is the mindless activity that allows my mind to roam freely where it will.

Home made yogurt--yes, and please. Have been making it on the stove for years. I Greek it and it is my sour cream, cream cheese, mayo, dressing, yum. Last night I had a little with some PB2- guilt free peanut butter (although, like hummus, I can over eat it to the not so guilt free stage).

Paula! Sweetie-pie!

I have Our Town recorded from TCM. I was hoping some highschool or community theater would put it on (someone always is, it seems) but I think I'll just go ahead and watch it.

I guess in similar thinking, that's why I love love LOVE It's a Wonderful Life every holiday season. Why is it that we so often have trouble knowing what we've got until it's gone?

Greetings Fairlife Friends

I have looked for Fairlife milk around here but no luck. We are too far in the boonies I guess. 149.5 today. Light dinner of Canadian bacon and a few snow peas. It was enough. In the quiet moments at the gallery I did some squats - hope to make it a habit to strengthen my jelly thighs.

Speaking of legs, I am gonna order the knee pillow. I am always needing a pillow or wad of duvet for knees. Somehow it makes your back feel better to have less pull on knees. I also get sore hips from staying on one side too long. I've been a side sleeper so long I don't think I could change. And yes MissBonnie I love my "fort" of pillows. Thats one thing acquired since vsg. I would sleep with a lot of pillows to elevate my upper body more and it got to be my thing. DH sleeps with one little memory foam pillow. He also wears a hat to bed since he is bald.

Hey Shel, come again and drag DH along. There are loads more ocean views I could show you. Park your DH in a chair on Trinidad State beach and you can go off to the woods. Did I tell you someone was bitten by a shark there last week? Turns out it was a salmon shark (not even 2 feet long) and this woman saw it and waded into the water to take a picture and it bit her ankle. Not serious but someone dragged out the shark and killed it. Kind of pathetic. But there are great whites out there along our beaches and every couple of years a surfer gets a chunk out of his board.

Speaking of sharks, my bank is in a building that used to be the natural history museum. The museum moved to smaller quarters and when the bank got the building they agreed to keep a few of the larger exhibits. So when you enter the bank there is this gigantic replica of a great white shark suspended from the very high ceiling. Every time I see it I think "loan shark". I told this to a banker but they didn't think it was funny. I do.

Liz you are indeed a wizard at planning and organizing events. Its a gift and so good for your DH. And you would make a great mentor if you choose. Passing along experience is a very satisfying thing and a basic human need.

Sisters. You all are lucky to have them. I have none though I do have wonderful SILs but they are far away. My brothers are good but younger one is busy traveling the world with his new love and older one has brain tumor and can be trying. Speaking of older brother, his wife asked me to find a tie dyed t shirt for him as they are going to some event where everyone dresses 60's and in Lincoln Nebraska there aren't many such things. Our K mart has a local section with tie dyed stuff and local college stuff.

Great pics Shel and the flowers too. The wild flowers are in full swing around here too.

Tonight we take our dog breeder friends to the fancy seafood restaurant to celebrate Tesla's big wins. I am already anxious about what to eat as I know it will be too much food. Go box will be in order. I fear DH will over eat and get sick and spoil things. Oh well. I am worry wart.

Cecily, glad your dad is home. Hope the spots are not serious. Ditto for whomever had the "freckle". Miss Bonnie?

I am out of gy so I think I will try this plant based protein drink for breakfast. But first more coffee priming. Diane S