Monday, July 16, 2018

Oh! I would love to see the stink eye goat when you are done with it. Loved the fish with the red sandal!

Good Merry Monday!

Welcome home, Ann! Glad your trip was all and more than you had hoped. With whom did you travel?

My weekend was chock full of food centered activities. Had the club meeting BBQ here, and of course we have a few left overs - some good stuff like meat and slaw, but also some not so good stuff. Yesterday I took my Lucky boy to the handling team. He will live in Lompoc for the next three months. He will have a blast, but it was hard for me to leave him. Had coffee and then dinner with a friend from Kansas City, KS and his girlfriend. It was a wonderful time catching up. We ate at a highly recommended Cantina Grill in Carmel Valley, which is inland from Carmel by the Sea. I ordered grilled chicken and mango enchiladas. Phenomenal! Ate one and brought the rest home for Ron along with an al a carte Passilla Pepper Chili Relleno.

My drive home from Carmel over the coastal range, through the Salinas Valley, and up the 101 corridor to the Bay Area proper gave me an opportunity to think about ha*****ange, eating, rules for eating, etc... In a side conversation with Shel she mentioned that she was a travel eater. I remember her saying that before and strongly identifying with it. I am a "travel eater", too. I especially like to throw down the chow when driving by myself. I am not sure why I do this because I can easily acknowledge my lack of hunger, but want to eat anyhow. Today I will talk with the shrink about how to build habits WITHOUT being resentful of having to work on this aspect of my life. I also have an idea of implementing a "No Eating in the Car" rule. I would have to make an exception for summer dog show travel, because I simply can't leave the dogs in the van while I eat. But I could certainly keep a "No Snack Eating in the Car" rule for dog shows.

My perception of my own eating is colored by magical thinking on occasion. I get that. It's all so much damn work and that is part of my resistance. I'm tired of working on weight and eating and food and blah, blah, blah... I need to somehow work past my resentment of my disordered eating so I can make some progress. Diane O's pic a few weeks ago in the light purple tank top hiking somewhere in CA (I think) really brought home to me how focus on ha*****ange pays off in the long run.

Oh, well... enough of my continued musing on this Merry Monday. I should rather stop thinking about this stuff and just do it! (Please note the sprinkling of good natured self flagellation!)

Think of all the billboards out there for food this and food that at upcoming exits. So, maybe counter marketing is a reasonable thing to consider. I don't like to be suckered into something, particularly if it isn't in my best interests.

I have more virtual safety rails than rules. Because if they were rules, I would be constantly breaking them and feeling bad because I couldn't stick to the rules (again). One can crash into a rail and still be safe.

I don't think you were asking for counter marketing safety rails...but here are a few of mine

I avoid eating in car when traveling......except for when I allow it....like on my day hikes to locations 2-3 hours away (so 4-6 hours traveling) You saw a picture of what I had with me for that one day hike. Most of it could be eaten safely out of hand in the car. Some I had while on the ferry. The macros worked ok. I didn't eat it all.

I try not to eat "out" if alone so that also curtails some bad habits I would like to avoid. If I need food while on the road, I try to stop at a grocery store and then by normal stuff (rather than "treat") or at Starbucks where I know exactly what fits my macros for the day. When at a conference, I make sure I have a fridge in the room (I often have to request and empty one for medical reasons) and then I stop at grocery store and stock the fridge.

And sometimes, I do just the best I can for that moment. No worries if the safety rail takes a beating. I'm safe even if it wasn't the best VSG moment.

Weight is mid 140's. I really didn't think I had been eating that bad, but the scale has steadily been creeping up the last 2 weeks (and I wasn't on a fun vacation). I really should start tracking again to see what I am really eating. I think little handfuls of nuts or trail mix here and there go unnoticed as food consumed but my waistline sure notices!

Had a fun weekend at the Christian music festival. Back to paperwork today. This should be my last week of being off of work. Don't really feel like going back yet but the routine will probably be good for me. I am hoping to take the boys kayaking or SUPing this week. It has been super hot and humid here too. Lots of bugs as well!

What is SUPing?

Stand Up Paddle Boarding!

Thanks!