7-12-18 Thursday

I want to believe things will be better. And maybe (probably?) they will. But this stage of uncertainty and him being gone half the time with a 4 month old makes me soooo sad. I'll be honest, I kind of want him to apply if there's any chance.

There are very few job postings for his type of work, and this is the ONLY one in our city in the past 10 weeks. And they probably pay the best to boot (although I'm sure it would be less than what he was making).

I guess I'm/we're still confused and hurt as to how they could let him go in the first place. Funny thing is, he's the one who created the listing!! And he knocks all of the qualifications out of the park.

But they had their reasons (however much I would argue them) for letting him go. And that was only 10 weeks ago. May be hard to change minds. And no one likes to admit they were wrong...

Tough decision on whether to apply though I can see the pros and cons. Unfortunately they might feel he is completely qualified but reject him because they are trying to cut salary expense and don't think he'd go for it. They don't tell you that so it is yet another blow to one's ego. This is all based on what my former company was doing because I obviously don't know your DH's company.

My BIL's position was "eliminated" once, and he was let go. The position with the same title (tweaked just a bit in description) was reposted 2 months later. He had been with the company a great number of years with excellent reviews. The company saved thousands of dollars when they let him go in fringe- also, salary offered for what was the same job- significantly lowered. Corporate is just that-mindless and soulless. Loyalty and ability do not seem to factor. Don't feel bad- THEY sure don't. Righteous anger, on the other hand....

Your last paragraph- disappointment with food- interesting. I have heard that one difference between real and head hunger is this--If a person is truly, really hungry, any food will satisfy. Head hunger grazes away looking for that "just what I was hoping to experience taste wise", and is never really satisfied.

That's so hard.

I just don't understand why loyalty isn't valued these days.

I don't either! HR likes to blame it on the young employee mindset but I know that my 27 and 30 year old still need/want company loyalty (it is one of the most important things for 30 year old DD).

Babies warp time, somehow. Little tiny time shifters.

I agree that you can't spoil a sick baby. Adalyn needs soothing. Self soothing is fine when they feel good, but she doesn't. DS had constant ear infections when he was an infant and it really affects their quality of life (and potentially hearing and balance). DS was able to be managed on medications but it always felt like just one more infection to ear tubes. Luckily he finally outgrew it, but he didn't wal****il 15 months though he had been pulling himself up for a long time and I think that was the balance issue. And sleeping was always a problem because his ears hurt so much when he was lying down. So keep holding Adalyn as much as she needs!

Weight 117.8, calories 1574. Not much sleep last night as DH sat bolt upright at 2:30 and started talking to someone. I told him that it was the middle of the night and to lie down and go to sleep. A few minutes later he started poking me and though his speech was difficult, I think he was berating me for stopping him from talking to other people. I finally went to the other room, but not much sleep happened (I read a lot until it became light out). Sort of interestingly, he was on a phone call jag yesterday calling anyone he could find on his phone (he has done that periodically in the past).

ETA: The Street Fair Yesterday was great! I got 2 wedding gifts and 2 shower gifts which are very different but priced way lower than something one might find at a gift shop (also bought a couple of things for me...).

We are supposed to go to the town concert tonight on the harbor. I hope I can stay awake long enough...

Have a timely Thursday!

Good morning

oh baby! So sorry for your very painful ear aches! If it were me I would want to be coddled and cuddled nonstop.

Both families still here, the " routines " are starting to be in place but can see that everyone, including the children AND ME! Are getting tired of the constant busyness. We all need some me- time.

have a most excellent Thursday.

147.2. Good morning, all. Back in the land of the living after being a slug of sorts--all well and good at the"back-end" of things. Sedation of any type makes me a little winkie--After the procedure I wanted to stop and get some special nummie salad fixings in some store deli section. DH just shook his head and let me have at it. No surprise when the next day I discovered all kind of strange and bizarre items (I have no idea what to do with) in the fridge. One time while picking up a prescription after some procedure, I wandered off and it took him forever to find me...in automotive- comparing windshield wipers (don't remember that one).

David- babies needs are needs sometimes and must be met. Soothing hurts is not spoiling, it is responding to a request for comfort. I think you are doing wonderfully in the baby department. I have always thought the confident, good natured personality of my DH is in part due to the fact that he (and twin brother) had a retired, doting father, mother, two brothers 14+ years older, and an auntie (w/no children of her own) living next door who all rejoiced in the company and were there to meet the needs of those babies.

"winkie". You have a way with words :)