Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Happy Birthday, David! Hope you're enjoying fun in the workshop!

Liz-your photos are absolutely stunning. I'd really like to go to Aruba. You know what's kept me? Natalie Holloway. Probably a dumb reason! Gets me excited for Jamaica!

Ann-ladies tea sounds so fun. I need to put one together for some of my girlfriends. To go out or to use my china, that is the question. We got that rain this morning. So beautiful! Love summer rainfall!

Bonnie (I love that we share a name!)-you gave me so much to stew on today. I'm going to have to reread your post again and again. Thank you for your honesty. And congrats on your journey. I find stories of struggle much more relatable and inspiring. Currently chewing on the idea of weight as an affirmation of self-worth. IN my own journey, I struggle with how much power to give to weight. It has had a lot. And why? How much is enough? Whenever I begin to shrug off my weight entirely, that's when things can get dicey. I manipulate my own thinking. But it's trickery! By the same token, I think it's really important not to put all my stock into what the scale reads. I know Devon touched on this yesterday. It's information. Information about what? Well definitely not my self-worth! It should help guide me to whether my eating habits are on track and honest. I still haven't entirely figured out my happy place with weight and its importance in my life.

Weight: 163.8 (whhhaaat?!?!!!)

Pretty sure this isn't a solid weight, but I'll happily take it. Usually inaccurate weights go the other way. I didn't workout yesterday. Needed a slow paced day. Struggling with the theme today. I'm anxious for Rich's consulting job to be over and hopefully him to have a solid job here. But I also have a brand new baby and want to cherish these sweet little times for the short time they are here. Some days I guess it'll just take more muscles to stay in the present.

B: Breakfast burrito made with 1 egg, TJ's soyrizo, 2 Tbsp. shredded cheddar, 1 corn tortilla, and fresh salsa. Coffee w/ ff half and half

L: Smoked chicken breast, bbq sauce, green bean side

S: peach. 1/2 bag ff popcorn, diet cherry limeade

D: 3 oz. grilled chicken breast, salsa, 1/2 c. sliced cucumbers, 6 halved grape tomatoes, fresh mozzarella snacking size, 1 Tbsp. lite balsamic dressing, ear of corn with i can't believe it's not butter spray

S: mini snickers ice cream bar

1204 calories, 85 g. protein. 27% protein, 29% fat, 44% carbs

I started to feel a little anxious about my diet after lunch yesterday. I just wasn't mentally satisfied. So that's why I ate the popcorn! sometimes mental satiety must be paid attention!

Natalie Holloway made a poor decision and unfortunately met up with a terrible person. It could happen anywhere, but there was a LOT of press about it because the crime rate is generally so low in Aruba. The crime rate is much higher in Jamaica. We never feel unsafe here but I would not go to an unfamiliar bar outside of my resort alone (here or anywhere else). I feel 200% safer here than in parts of Mexico as a comparison.

I think we all need to be pretty aware of our surroundings and people. Heck, my 28 year old, medical student sister is backpacking Europe with a bud and I'm still so scared for her! But we cannot live in fear. We have to make smart decisions and enjoy the rest of the time. I'm very risk-averse (thought about becoming an actuary for a time, lol!) I do think Mexico is a little scary right now. Wouldn't go outside a resort, and would probably set up transportation through the hotel.

I would've preferred to stay all-inclusive in Jamaica but we are going with a large group of friends so hopefully staying with buddies will help ward off any threats.

Being risk adverse and using caution can be a good thing if it doesn't go overboard. I'd say that I'm both too. I know you'll have a great time in Jamaica. We have friends who have been there many times.

Bonnie! Thank you. Thank you.

David Happy Birthday!

rushing today but the horror gets worse really. It was the grandson who killed his grandmother. Why?

a classmate's son drowned three weeks ago and she died of cancer yesterday.

another acaquaintance killed in a single car accident on Monday.

so many tears and families left in pain and bewilderment.

but life does go on.

Love the Aruba sunset.

Oh Carbon. So sad!

Yes, life has to go on. When DH told me he was crying because everything is different because of his Dementia, I said that life changes all the time. Everything was different after our daughter got sick and died. For now, our life isn't too bad - we can still go nice places and enjoy things, just with adjustments for now.

"Catching the Last Rays" by friend and sand sculptor Paul Warren:

So many significant posts to chew on and respond to later. The saga of Sadie continues. The gastrointestinal upset awakened some broad food sensitivities to things she has tolerated well in the past. When it began looking like the duck dog food that started all of this could have generalized to an allergic reaction to poultry after Monday's trip to the emergency vet, I gave her an egg in her rice this morning. Her face and body blew right up... she looked like she had golf balls under her fur, and I had to remove her collar. After talking to the emergency vet at 5:30 AM, I dosed her with 100 mg of Benedry, put her in the car, and we were at the emergency vet by 7 AM. More shots of Benedryl, more shots of steroids, and an increase in steroid duration/taper at home. She is now on an RX hydrolyzed protein food. The protein sources are broken down such that a dog no longer recognizes the allergens. There is a possibility that she is now sensitive to a wide range of protein sources. She can stay on this food indefinitely, or after she stabilizes we can begin selective trials to strategically re introduce one food at a time.

Be here now !

Thinking of you Paula! Happy birthday Dave ! Great post Bonnie. Love you all !

Oh, man, I am sooooo sorry. Such horrible stuff. Sadie is lucky she has such a good mom! How is Atlas faring? I suggested egg as it is one of the most easily digested complete proteins a dog can eat. I'm so sorry it caused such a horrific reaction!

We couldn't have possibly anticipated Sadie's reaction to egg. She's had it added to her food forever. Her system is now hypersensitive and responsive to everything. She tolerated her first hydrolized protein (canned and kibble) really well. Living in the success of each moment. Atlas, who was so acutely ill with gastrointestinal upset and inflammation, still is eating his canned Rx gastrointestinal food. We see their new vet Monday for our intake visit, when we'll develop a re-entry plan for "regular food". I'm scared to death and thousands of $$ in for this blip. Yes, I'll pay an extra $300 for an emergency visit before 8AM.