Monday, June 4, 2018

I saw these differences in my daughter, niece and nephew, from babies to now (17 and 18 years old) From bottle drinking, to cookie decorating, to holiday eating, to everyday eating to vacation eating. The whole gamut.

Their individual tendencies never changed.

In my case, I think my mom unintentionally made my nature worse. I better understand that sometimes moms just don't know what to do.

By the way, the picky eater ended up with endocrine problems related to picky eating which was a eye opener for me. With my background, I would have chosen picky eating as being "better."

We just do the best we can.

Human beans are so bloody mysterious.

Weight: not sure

It boggles the imagination, but I had ANOTHER spot open on my rear hip. What the hell is wrong with me?! Why can't I heal?! It's so incredibly defeating and demoralizing I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm doing everything I'm asked to do. Eating/drinking a ton of protein, taking vitamins, not really moving from this chair for 4 weeks, cleaning my wounds and rebandaging daily. It pales in comparison to real life tragedies, but I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out again. I don't know how much longer I can do this, but I don't really have a choice, do I?

Weight: 167

Back in the saddle, again. Today is the "first day of school" for me, Becca, and DH. DH flew out of town yesterday and today he begins the new job.

So, so much has changed since I was here last. I now have a baby. DH lost his job. I'm a little frustrated with myself that his job loss has been such an event. I'm working through it, and most days I can try to remember it's not the be-all, end-all. A lot of uncertainty and worry when I'd really rather be adjusting to motherhood and not job loss. He ran into someone at the airport who was let go from this company 2 years ago...and that person is commuting out of state to work! Blech. My theme for this year was "presence" and so I really need to work on just accepting what's in front of me. Right now he'll work out of state for a week, back for a week. Right now he has an income and severance so for right now we are okay. Right now is the only thing we have, anyway. So I'm challenging myself to embrace it.

Becca was so sweet and coo-ey this morning, I hated to leave her. But one advantage was that I got to have breakfast with grandmommy again! There is nothing in this world better than white toast with butter and a poached egg. Breakfast of champions!

Oh, and we canceled our cancellation of our gym membership! I was going to go to a more "kid-friendly/mom-friendly" gym but after some research I found that they get extremely busy with their childwatch and often have a waiting list, and if your kid cries for 15 minutes you have to leave (and that happens often because they're so busy, they cannot console babies). So even though my gym doesn't have as fancy a kid club setup, we're going to try it in hopes that she'll behave with a little more attention. I'm so excited for this!

Greetings Monday Marauders

Well I hit the dreaded 150 mark. Not cool. My reward for actually doing extra walking yesterday. I've been feeling stiff and sore lately and recognize its from inactivity so I took the dog out. I do feel better for it. Dinner last night was a shrimp salad with hard boiled egg and celery. And mayonnaise. Guess I should calculate the calories but it was very good. Maybe the chocolate cookies caught up with me.

Well Ann, joy riding on the gator sounds fun. As long as you are mowing so much, why not make crop circle designs with your mower? Then invite the local press. Could be a hoot.

Ditto fun Liz on the Irish festival. Sounds like DH had a good time.

Interesting observations on the picky vs non picky kid eaters. I swear I was born wanting to eat everything. I would eat liver, brussel sprouts, smoked oysters and canned spinach as a kid. My niece was the same way; overeating as a three year old. Today she is a successful veterinarian and wife and mother but is morbidly obese and I fear it will catch up with her. But she saw the results of my vsg and her dad was successful in the same so she knows the score. We have another MO nephew who as a child would eat nothing but Kraft mac and cheese and ketchup.

Well, lots of chores today - gallery banking, calling up places that haven't paid things for my mom's estate and yelling at them, grocery shopping etc. Plus kiln opens.

Cripes Cecily wish you could catch a break. I once saw a counselor and I was *****ing about my messed up hands and she suggested I do a form of mediation focusing healing energy to my hands and guided me through it. Well I can't say it did any good but it makes you feel like you are doing something. The hardest part of this recovery must be the feeling that you are "grounded". No fun.

So grateful Ben made his milestone of June 3. Thinking of you Paula and family.

Peps, this must be the last week of school. Yay!

As for Stuart Smally - doggonit, people like me!

Coffee likes me too. Have a great week all.

Diane S