Saturday, May 26, 2018

Bonnie, Happy Surgiversary to You, Happy Surgiversary to you....

Yeah, you've done it your way, and damn it works for you. It doesn't get much better than that. What your mom said to you made me smile from the inside out. I wish my mom could have said some nice things like that to me. My mom loved me fiercely, I know that, but she was a gifted critic and her lessons are one of the reasons I struggle with self image today. Can you imagine a mother saying to a child, "With two good looking parents as you and your brother have, one would have thought you two would have turned out a little better." DAMN! (Oh, to her sister she once said, "Pina, neither you or Ray are anything much. I am surprised how beautiful Mark and Nancy are." - Yes, my cousins are quite attractive!)

But onward! I am looking forward to a lovely day. Ron and I have been busy, busy, busy at school for two weeks. He with spring concert prep for two schools and I with Open House and end of the year stuff... We had some nice quiet alone time since yesterday which is plain old relaxing. He's still in bed, but I have his coffee made and will take it in to him....Be right back....

Coffee delivered.

Oh, the energy I have spent thinking about weight and diets and food and exercise! YIKES!!!! I still do to some extent. It's a different type of energy though than it used to be. Being driven to be thin is much more stressful than focusing on healing dysfunctional eating. Healing takes time and understanding. Losing weight was always an all or nothing mindset and was about discipline. It never involved healing my soul or the reasons behind my overweight, fat, or obese physical state. I am happier dealing with healing my soul.

Last night I had a dream. It was odd-ish, but many dreams are, right? In the dream, I am tattooed. Large tattoos covering the small of my back, my butt and my thighs. I am standing looking at my tats in a full length mirror. I am bewildered as to why I am tattooed (because I do not have tattoos) and am horrified that a masseuse will see them and above all else am stunned that I would have done this to an overweight (and to me, unattractive) body. I stand in profile and take a look again and I see my lean self in the mirror instead. My skin is tan and taught. My ribs are visible just a tad and the curve from the small of my back to my glutes is perfect. That's all I really remember. So, what does that dream mean????? Any Dream Interpreters out there?

I think I shall go out and cut some roses. I want some flowers in the house.

Happy Saturday, all!

Peps, I am an avid and colorful dreamer- they have always fascinated, entertained, and terrified me. A psychologist told me years ago to look at dreams this way--"You are EVERYTHING in the dream, every one-object, etc. that draws your interest in the dream is an element of you and has meaning." I have often used that strategy in interpreting my dreams. Those tats are you revealing something to to you.

Greetings Saturday Celebrants

Still hanging at 148. Better than my high weight of 249.

Great post BB. You should post it on the main forum. It would be good for something new and positive to to up there. Congrats on 8 great years. What a difference 100 lbs makes indeed. Easier to carry little Becca around!!

Ann you are a whirlwind around your home. I can't believe you think you procrastinate! Your ideas on how to not do so prove it. My big problem is just getting started on anything. Once I start I usually move right along. Glad things are improving for your friends. My friend would say that its because Mercury is no longer rising or some astrology thing.

Well the sun is out today and at noon is the start of the 3 day Kinetic Sculpture Race. Its usually a hoot. On the news last night was a preview of one sculpture called "A Hunk a Hunk of Burning Ham" powered by 10 Elvis impersonators. I will see if I can drag DH over there. I will tempt him with the lure of driving the electric car.

Speaking of the electric car, it has all these interesting features. Like a little light in either side mirror if another car is approaching in your blind spot. Or the back up camera that dings if something is behind you - like it always dings over this grease spot in our driveway as it thinks its an object. Yesterday it dinged at me because I was driving along with my turn signal on long after I exited the freeway just like an old person. (loud radio).

Paula so glad you all got to the graduation. An important family milestone. Congrats to the new grad.

Diane O, so glad you have your back yard fixed up. Sounds so inviting. And dog friendly. Loved the kite flying photo yesterday. What a great idea for the vets! For anyone!

This afternoon's mission is to make the chicken liver pate for tomorrow's gathering. I bought a package of crackers to serve with it BUT I WILL NOT OPEN THOSE CRACKERS TONIGHT!!!. So it is written. So it shall be.

Hey Shel, enjoy the mountain.

Liz, sorry BIL is sitting on that estate. You probably know this but estates can be distributed in installments and the executor needn't wait until the whole thing is done. I did this with my mom's estate and always advised clients they could do this. In our case, I especially wanted to get funds to my older brother as he has a brain tumor and I wanted him to have the chance to enjoy some things. I think he and SIL need to move to some kind of retirement community as they are both in poor health but they aren't budging.

Cecily, here is hoping you can get out of your chair soon. You are going to love your new tummy if you don't already. Ditto thighs.

Dave hope you are feeling better too. Don't ru**** Resting is hard for you. I don't have that problem.

Thanks for posting my art pic Peps.

Time for coffee #2. Cheers all. Diane S

The stars (that is, everyone of you) are in the sky, and the universe is turning in all sorts of interesting ways..I see everyone's colors streaming over head. The world turns.

Bonnie, execellent outlook on 8 years change and growth. Your mom spoke truth to you in a significant way.

156.4 today. The scales are dangling a carrot my way, but I am so untrusting of them..so many times they've teased me with a loss only (the maschocistic sob) to yank it back on Monday. We'll see.

Saturday chores done- laundry, gave Noodle the Dog a bath, and replaced some screens in windows. Time to enjoy the day in a different way. It is lovely where we live (in a generic sort of way). The hiking trails just wow me - what a thrill it must be to traipse about on them.

Sending smiles your way.

BB, happy surgiversary! 8 years and still going strong! Congratulations!!