Wednesday, April 25, 2018

Yes, very glad. The gear kept me warm and my clothes underneath stayed dry. Amazing!

Shel, can you feel my jealousy emanating from CA??? So beautiful!

Except for the pic with the chain and the super slippery looking, slanting toward an abyss, incredibly narrow path. 0.00% jealousy there...

Weight 118.2, calories 1485. Calories weren't terrible, but there were more carbs than there should have been so weight is back up a pound. Sigh...

I'm glad the CBD oil is helping Dave. I absolutely believe that mood affects pain. Regardless of the reason, if it is working that's what counts!

SIL asked if I wanted to go to lunch with her and a friend today, but I think I will skip it as there will probably be alcohol involved and I don't think the food choices will be good (not to mention that the weather is lousy today). It is going to rain a lot today but it is supposed to return to good weather tomorrow and possibly warm into the 70's next week!

I am going to start going to yoga on Monday mornings with a friend from high school (from 45 years ago - LOL). She says it is "old ladies" yoga (in other words I don't have to know what I'm doing and can just do the best I am able). I need to find some more regular activities for both DH and me. We don't have any appointments for about the next 10 days, so I will have to work on that aspect of Cape Cod retirement.

DD sent in all her application papers for her MBA and had her interview yesterday. I think she will be notified of acceptance quickly. It will be good for her self-confidence, her career and maybe she can make some friends she hasn't met at a bar.

Chiquita had a really good appointment. She gained 2 pounds over the winter which she really needed. I just realized that she is now almost the weight that Justice was when he first came to our home (he was underweight at that though). Regardless they are only a couple of pounds different in size and are getting along well.

Enjoy a warming Wednesday!

I am glad you are trying yoga with a friend....so much nicer to have a play-date instead of going to exercise. And yoga is all about doing what you are able....no competition.

Well, it's done :'( 10 years of loyalty and passion. (You'd think I was talking about a relationship!)

DH said to me last night that he doesn't feel worthy of me and Nugget.

This should not be the storyline right now. Gosh darn them from stealing this moment away. I know that today is going to be the worst day. The next day pretty bad too. Maybe give us a week to begin thinking of brighter days ahead. I keep trying to remember to keep my perspective and that there are much worse things to endure in life than a layoff. But it still feels hard and sad right now.

I had to re-read this three times to understand that you were talking about DH's job, and not your relationship ! It sounds like you are working to accept this with dignity and poise.... something others can never take. You've referred to the potential job loss as an opportunity in the past. Focus on that positive anchoring thought as you grieve the loss.

{{Hugs}}

Yep definitely the job, and not the relationship!

I wish we had been one of the ones wanting to go and hoping for a package. But he really wanted to remain there.

The reality is, it was a really great job. It gave him so many experiences, including management. But I don't think the company he wanted to retire with is the company he's leaving. Like Cecily was describing, this could just be the beginning of the end. Maybe this is a good thing. And in any event, it is what it is. Just really hard to see someone you love questioning their value like this.

So sorry for loss of job. I think men more than women identify with job and ability to perform in a job as personal identity. I did (when I was working as a nurse) / do now in trying to get things done. Nobody likes these changes. Sometimes change ends up better than expected.

My job was part of my identity too. Even though I was ready to retire I was having a difficult time separating myself from my responsibilities mentally so it was still a slap in the face to be laid-off after so many years.

Hugs to you all. I'm hoping his next job will make him look back and see that as painful as this is, it was worth it to land in an even better place.