Sunday, April 8, 2018

Oh no! That's terrible. But thank goodness they were able to catch it and put a stent in. It's too much, Paula. I'm shouting uncle for you!

So sorry for your Mom Paula. You sure don't need this. Hoping for a little peace for you and relief. Hugs. Diane S

No weight. Was running late and like most, I won't weigh later in the day! Eating was mediocre, but I was never over full yesterday. That has been a bit of an issue the past few months - eating too quickly, not recognizing satiety signals, etc...

I should be grooming Lucky, but I procrastinate. This is important, too.

Cool mug, Shel! I'm with you on sleep. I think I'm fine with 5-6 hours, but I'm really not. When I'm not working I sleep a full 8 hours, no problem. Interestingly enough, my food intake is usually more healthy when I have had adequate sleep. Hmmm.... go figure!

Liz, bet you will miss having DD with you. Think about how fun it will be to bring Justice home to Mass. You'll also be escaping the stifling humidity (which I loathe, detest, and despise!). I don't even like the humidity in Connecticut during the summer. I like California dry, desert heat!

Diane O., welcome to CA! (almost...) The weather looks like it's going to be wonderful for you. A little of everything for So Cal. Next Friday, Saturday, and Sunday look to be spectacular days - sunny, low humidity and highs from 75-80 degrees! Oh, such joy!

BB - I can't believe you are going out already. You've got stamina, and then some! Most new moms I know are simply too wiped out to even consider an evening out for the first 6-8 weeks. You go! (Even if you are a bit wiped out today!) Thank you also for putting into words what I was feeling. He should not have said that to me or my BFF. He has told me how much his belly bothers him and I am very respectful of that and don't say anything ever since he told me. (However, I did get in some payback's a ***** time while I was still somewhat lean and he was putting on weight. He used to call me his Chubby Hubby - which I HATED and told him so, but he still called me that for sometime - so I started calling him my Chubby Hubby. Boy, did he understand then. So, clearly, I am not sin free in this arena either!)

Diane S., yes, the quips were a little harsh for me. I may speak to him about it, but not yet. I have read about aspartame in particular upsetting gut bacteria. I don't know if the sucralose in Splenda does the same. Would be good to know. Yes, I think most overweight people drink diet soda. I believe the weight came first, then the diet soda!

Hope David is enjoying babies and remodeling. I will be ending my Vyvanse era soon, too. Part of me is going to miss it, but it's not worth the BP increase and I just don't want to be on another pill.

Joey, since we are the same, as you put it, do post. If I learned anything at all by staying away and reflecting on how I felt, I came away with a clearer understanding that it's better to face the discomfort of my feelings and make myself actively deal with them. If I run, don't acknowledge, don't recognize the presence of those negative feelings and insecurities I end up worse off than I was. Letting the feelings pour out of me as Jackson lay dead on the floor in front of me was the best thing I could have done to help me understand the role my emotions play in my life. Had I not let the flood gates burst open I would not have been able to reflect on the good that had been done by allowing the grief to come to the surface and all the way. I have been able to now look at my food issues in a different way. Yes, the issues and the root causes still hurt, but I can't deal with those when I am in the throes of an addictive eating cycle. I have chosen the day I will focus 100% ending the addictive cycle. My only focus will be to eat foods that will eliminate the cravings I currently have each and every single day, day after day after day. I'm pretty sure the only way to deal with the healing aspect is to be out of the addictive cycle in the same way an alcoholic must stop drinking to begin to recover. Like everyone here has done for me, please know we all support you, too! We are here!

Must go trim.

XO

Hey Joey, I have been meaning to encourage you to post as well, if it serves you. I so enjoy your written word, and have much respect for all that you juggle. Your message to Peps the other day was so spot on, perfectly crafted.

Weight 168.2

Hey all! Late post today. I had a lovely walk on the beach with my friend. There were so many people out there compared to our winter beach where the only people are also walking or running. There were lots of families on spring break and lots of babies in the buff playing at the water's edge. It made me think how marvelous that part of early childhood is - no body embarrassment, no self-consciousness, just fun in the warm sun not caring what anyone else is thinking.

I made my last freezer batch for recovery. This one was pretty tasty. A spiralized sweet potato casserole with chicken, homemade salsa, black beans and cheese. I wasn't sure how it would taste with the sweet potato, but I liked it.

Fergie is asking for another walk, so more steps for me! Take care, everyone.