VSG Maintenance Group
Sunday, March 4, 2018
I am outwardly a pillar of strength.
Internally, I've been a bit of a mess this week. I was really taken aback on Friday morning when I caught myself calling myself a loser. I have been having internal dialogue that is not so terribly healthy, in the sense that it's "negative self talk". I am in that state of mind during which I am considering that perhaps the internal conversation is true.
Not much else going on... Haven't seen enough of the movies this year to have any interest in the Oscars, so I'm off to groom Dottie.
You are so far from being a loser Devon! Do we need to come there for an intervention? CA sounds great right about now, everything except all of the snakes!
5' 4" tall, HW: 242, SW:215.4 Weight Loss - pre-op: - 26.6, M1: -15.4, M2: -16, M3: -11.4, M4: -11.2, M5: -12.2, M6: -7.4, M7: -7.8, M8: -2.0 Goal of 130 lbs. reached at 8 months, 2 days post-op!
Let's focus on the cute turkeys and road runners. I'm going to be in that area in a few weeks and don't plan on seeing any stinkin snakes. (I refuse to see!)
HW:361 SW:304 (VSG 12/04/2014)Mo 1:-32 Mo 2:-13.5 Mo 3: -13.5 Mo 4 -9.5 Mo 5: -15 Mo 6: -15 Mo 7: -13.5 Mo 8: -17 Mo 9: -13 Mo 10: -12.5 11/3/2015 Healthy BMI Reached! Mo 11: -9 Mo 12: -8 12/27/2015 Goal Weight Reached!
Gosh, Devon, clearly you are nothing of the sort! I wi**** was easier to change these ancient patterns. How do you usually move out of it? Do you share this with Ron and if you do, does it help? Hugs!
HW:361 SW:304 (VSG 12/04/2014)Mo 1:-32 Mo 2:-13.5 Mo 3: -13.5 Mo 4 -9.5 Mo 5: -15 Mo 6: -15 Mo 7: -13.5 Mo 8: -17 Mo 9: -13 Mo 10: -12.5 11/3/2015 Healthy BMI Reached! Mo 11: -9 Mo 12: -8 12/27/2015 Goal Weight Reached!
I have not said anything to Ron. I'm embarrassed that this thinking in back in play.
I think some of it has to do with going to the doctor, seeing a video of myself, etc... The loser stuff is all weight related. I'm sort of surprised the tapes are playing again! I felt I was doing so well for quite sometime. Not sure how I will kick this to the curb, but I'm working on it.
So amazing how to the outside this is not something to be embarrassed about. Yet, I so understand that exact feeling. Double hugs!
HW:361 SW:304 (VSG 12/04/2014)Mo 1:-32 Mo 2:-13.5 Mo 3: -13.5 Mo 4 -9.5 Mo 5: -15 Mo 6: -15 Mo 7: -13.5 Mo 8: -17 Mo 9: -13 Mo 10: -12.5 11/3/2015 Healthy BMI Reached! Mo 11: -9 Mo 12: -8 12/27/2015 Goal Weight Reached!
Did the core of who you are change when you got thin? I didn't think so! Our weight does not define who we are. Thick or thin, you are the same wonderful, intelligent, caring human being and now you have the added benefit of being more physically fit, even if you are heavier and you have much more insight into the whys of your weight gain.
5' 4" tall, HW: 242, SW:215.4 Weight Loss - pre-op: - 26.6, M1: -15.4, M2: -16, M3: -11.4, M4: -11.2, M5: -12.2, M6: -7.4, M7: -7.8, M8: -2.0 Goal of 130 lbs. reached at 8 months, 2 days post-op!
I think most of us in this group are tough and strong on the outside... the person others come to for support. What people often don't know is that we can be hardest on ourselves and have build up many layers of protection. Thanks for being vulnerable with us. You've got this, Devon !
Age: 64; 5' 5"; High weight: 345; Start weight: 271 (01/05/15); Surgery weight: 218 (05/27/15); Pre-Op (-53); M 1 (-18); M 2 (-1.5); M 3 (-13.5 ); M 4 (-13); M 5 (- 8); M 6 (-12) M 7 (-5, Xmas); M 8 (- 9) Under surgeon's goal and REACHED HEALTHY BMI 12/07/15!! (Six months and one week.) AT GOAL month 8. Maintaining at goal range (139- 144) ~ four (4) years !!
