Wednesday, February 21, 2018

146.6 I think. Still logging.

Long work day today with an electrophysiologist appt. snuck in over the lunch hour. Heart is behaving so that is good!

Day off tomorrow. Hope to maybe get a massage.

More later,

Paula

Hooray for behaving hearts!

Oh, for heaven's sake! I realized last night how long ago I had felt a true sense of empty hunger. I mean, like, "Oh, wow! Yes, I remember this is what REAL hungry feels like." It really hit around 11:00 just before bed.

My mother hated that feeling. That feeling incited panic in her. (I understand that. She literally was under fed and often very hungry when she and her family were fleeing to the west to escape the westward expansion of the Russian army's pushing Germany's eastern front farther and farther west.) I have to say there is a part of me that also does not like that feeling. It is an unsettled feeling. It does bring up a sense of being ill at ease. The feeling promotes a sense of quiet disjointedness.

My calories were higher than I would like yesterday - Close to 1900, but I'm sure that's still a fair bit better than what has been going on. As a special veggie treat for lunch I picked up some apple and fennel salad at Whole Foods last night. Just about a half cup. I had that with a small chicken breast saltimbocca style.

I felt more rested today with about the same amount of sleep. Don't know if it's coincidence, but I'm going with that it's because the sugar is leaving my system. True or not, it works for me. Tonight I believe it's meat balls and salad for dinner. Sounds weird, I know, but it's a nice meal for me. Ron will have the whole spaghetti and meatball set up. I'm staying clear of pasta for the 10 days.

One of my moms brought in a belated birthday gift. I'm sure it's food. I have not yet looked at it. I'm tempted to throw it away without even checking, but often times parents put a food treat in the bag with a gift card, so I really do have to check. (Wow, if that doesn't sound like a rationalization..., but it is true!!!)

Weightless Wednesday? Hmmm.... how does that work? However I sure wouldn't mind a WEIGHT LOSS WEDNESDAY! LOL!