Tuesday, January 30, 2018

DH's complaints about my handling of it is actually more of a problem than his diminished capabilities (if that makes sense). I think it may be a "no win" situation. Either he is upset because he feels I am keeping him from things or he is upset when he can't do them.

Yep it does make sense. Sometimes I bet you feel you are walking tightrope. Not much to be done but take a deep breath I guess. Hugs. DS

Thank you Diane. You guys just listening helps (we are way more than a weight loss maintenance group!).

148 OTD, going down! Calories were 1,071 with 145 C, 40 F and 69 P. No exercise.

I made an appt. for a counseling session for next Tuesday. I'm already not feeling as distraught but would like to get some ideas on how to handle that son of mine!

Dentist appt. in about a half hour then on the store to pick up ingredients for vegetable beef soup. Ben has requested soup for dinner, so soup it will be! I will enjoy too!

Spent all morning trying to look at Florida vacations for Spring Break. We were originally going to go to NYC and Boston, but need to find a more relaxing, just sit by the pool or at the beach kind of vacay since Ben just doesn't have the energy these days!

Well, better get ready for that dentist appt. - just a cleaning today but I do think I have a filling that is starting to break down so will probably have to go back and get that fixed!

Having the counseling in place for when you are feeling more distraught is probably a good thing for the future.

From NYT's, a study on night-time binge eating....it might be hormones setting you up for that. Easy read

Binge eating at Night?

Hi All! I haven't been here for a couple of days. I've been so tired (and freezing). I've been a slug after dinner and gone up to bed. Feeling more myself today and going to dance in about 1/2 hour. Food was within boundaries again today. Still no courage to get on the scale, but it will come, I know, when I'm ready for it.

Liz, it sounds so difficult for you and DH. Sending hugs.

Diane O, that dog sounds nasty. so glad you and Sadie were ok.

Bonnie, you look beautiful!

Cecily, I get the self-sabotage cycle - that's me too. I keep trying to be aware of it, and muddle through, but it is difficult.

Ann, so glad your sister is with you. Grieving is so exhausting. Hugs to you!

Diane S, so glad to hear your hands are healing well!

Paula, I haven't read posts, as yet, for the past couple of days, so I don't know what's up with your son. I hope the counseling will help you deal with it. hugs to you to!

Well, time to get into my leggings and t-shirt for dance. Hope the rest of the night is peaceful for all. Hugs, Mary

Wow! So much going on here. It comes in waves doesn't it?

Like Liz, a day of reasonable eating was rewarded today by the highest reading of the scale since I have been on Regain Rd. Something about getting enough gumption to log my food and own my carb and sugar intake and actually keep my eating in check for the entire day to be rewarded by a 1.4 jump on the scale was disheartening. Frankly, it was a bit more than disheartening.

One of my retired teacher friends came for lunch today. It was wonderful to see her. She and her husband read my blog. I love, admire and respect my friend. When I first started teaching Betty took me under her wing and was my guide and self appointed mentor for several years. During our conversation she wanted to make sure I was okay. Betty's husband is very taken by my writing. He is worried about me, too. I assured Betty that I am fine. As a matter of fact, the writing and examining the long covered emotions is quite healing and revitalizing. I find it rewarding that Betty's husband has a new awareness of the emotional pain that can come with obesity and a compassion for our journeys. He reads the blog and discusses it with Betty. I'm wowed by that. Sort of makes up for the scale reading today.

Talk with Ron went well. We are on the same page. Now have to start working on it.

If you are like me about sweets, perhaps banishing at least the worst of the addictive sugar substances from the house will help. When I know they are there and ESPECIALLY when I see them, it is very difficult for me. Having Ron on the same page will hopefully help with that. Generally I try to buy snacks for DH that won't tempt me, but then his brother will make homemade chocolate chip cookies... I wouldn't be surprised if some arrive soon in the mail because DH just announced that he had finished the last care package. Sigh...

No surprise that you have many fans of your blog. When your audience reads it we feel that you are delivering your soul (which is probably why people get concerned). It also makes us reach into our own soul in response, which IMO is the finest writing.