Sunday January 21, 2018

Thank you, ma'am! Thank you!

"If stupidity hurt, she'd be on morphine."

Devon, I am so adopting and using that delicious saying for the rest of my life. Thanks to your Pops and you for sharing that one.

I hate an unannounced drop-in at the best of times, but a 2.5 hour unwanted, unannounced drop-in? I'd have taken the doll to her head. You are a model of restraint, Ann.

That would be perfect!

Oh Ann, your visitor should be on the Olympic Clueless team! Similar things happened with the passing of my parents but nothing like what you endured. Do what seems right on the memorial or maybe structure it so there is no time for prayer stuff. And it would have been totally cool for you to tell this person "you must excuse me now, I have other people coming" or whatever. As for the Damnit Doll, run over it and send it back.

You have every right to feel anger and to expect time to yourself. Part of self care. And you have every right to send people away and be "indisposed". Hugs and peace. DS

Am here. Down a pound, in part due to two exquisitely impressive productions in the bathroom yesterday.

I told myself today that there is nothing wrong with me. It was a natural reminder and came without force. Felt good. I am holding that lightened feeling. It's good. I realized yesterday that I need to write about my feelings about my parents because for all my "effed upness" and for whatever role they may have played in the cultivation of my issues, I wouldn't trade them or my upbringing for anyone else's. Everything they did for me was what they believed was in my best interests. My dad to me was the concept model of what the modern dad was to become. I don't think I could have ordered a more perfect father - especially given my physical and emotional challenges growing up. So, a parental positive blog post is in the works.

Along with the lightening of mood and spirit has come a separation from my food behavior. It was like yesterday I could literally see how I ate and how it worked. I could also see how I didn't need to eat. I could see it would be okay to not eat. I also realized how much I truly do not like vegetables and how limited my likes are in that food group. I am going to challenge myself this week to find a new vegetable preparation to try. My brother eats green beans with spaghetti sauce and parmesan. Might try that. I have to change my thinking and idea that a plate must contain a comforting carb side dish. I have not let go of my Meat and Potato identity.

Well, it's time to make some lunch and get on with the rest of the day!

Hey Devon, the lentil pasta is a petty good substitute for pasta with sauce on it. Kind of carby but has protein and is very filling. The zucchini noodles with spaghetti sauce are pretty good. And thanks for reminding me, I wouldn't choose any other parents either. If you are meat and potatoes, I am a pita chip. Diane S

151 OTD. Thinking I need to start making me a priority again (funny how ventricular tachycardia can do that to a person). I think I will start with using MFP again and exercising at least 3 days this week. I of course still need to keep Ben as a priority too, but I can't be much good to him and the boys if I let myself go too!

Suit shopping with DS#2 was fun. He got an egg plant purple suit that is a little textured and just a hint of iridescence to it. He got a small floral print shirt and purple tie to go with it. Totally "suits" him! I'll include a few pics. He shaved his head last week, which he does periodically. Not sure why, that kid has great hair! Looking forward to him growing it out again!

What a cutie! And smart, too!

Maybe VT will turn out to be your super power :)

If your are going to track, I am going to track.

Awwww, thanks for the support!