Saturday, January 20, 2018

Weight: 130.0
Macros: Cals - 1,551, carbs - 184, fats - 42, protein - 83, fiber - 31
Veggies/Fruits (goal 8): 8
Sleep (goal 8 hours): 5
Exercise: Walked in the country

No pie yet. But I did have a morning snack and a couple of dark chocolate mini-bars that wandered into the house. And calories are up a couple hundred, so well done!

Yesterday's 8 servings of V/Fs came from carrots, spring greens, carrots, cherry tomatoes, kale/spinach/greens, mushrooms, bamboo shoots, and black table grapes.

Yesterday was a beautiful sunny 50 degrees. I walked on the property and enjoyed it so much. Even in the dead of winter, this place is beautiful.

My stepdaughter called yesterday afternoon, and we had a wonderful talk. It gave me great peace to hear how she's processing her dad's death. Her peace was contagious, and I felt so relaxed after her call. Then last night after dark, my nearest neighbors showed up in their Sunday best with a beautiful bouquet of flowers. They didn't stay long, but it was a sweet visit.

Nonetheless, even though I went to bed feeling contented, I woke up around 12:40 am and couldn't get back to sleep. So here I am.

Today's Theme: Home Spa Day. An excellent idea, eh?

Weight 116.2, calories 847. Yesterday I was up 1.8 pounds, today I'm down 2.2. It must have been sodium in Thai food from Thursday that hijacked the scale yesterday.

Ann, a home spa day sounds relaxing. Then maybe your favorite pie. Hopefully your sleeping will improve. Please try to avoid using the ambien if you can as it can be a slippery sleep slope (as you know - though sometimes you just HAVE to get some sleep).

DH insisted on staying up until 10 last night. I bet he sleeps until 10 this morning, which is okay for him but means I have to tiptoe around even longer in the morning. It is easier to be quiet at night IMO. It truly is like having a 12 year old around some days...

On the discussion of sexual preference/identification, I think that is wonderful that we are all willing to love our children exactly as they are. In the end, we just want them to be happy and fulfilled. The world can be a really difficult place but it is changing slowly and some day everyone will realize that wherever/however someone can feel love is wonderful, as long as they are good/moral people. And I think we give that to our children (but not everyone in their sphere unfortunately). My son has had a couple of BF who he really cared about but finally broke up with because they were closeted and it was just too hard to have a relationship. Both of them feel that their families would never accept them if they told them they were gay. One set of parents are good friends of mine (former neighbors) and I am positive that the Mom would be fine. I really think the Dad would too but he comes from a background where it is acceptable and encouraged to make discriminatory jokes and comments. I believe that it has never occurred to him how it may sound to others. He seems pretty accepting of our son and is really a very caring man.

Enough of those deep thoughts for today! I am walking at 8 and hoping for enough warmth to go to the pool this afternoon. Tomorrow we are making vegetable lasagne and hosting several people for the football games and dinner.

Have a satisfying Saturday!

Ann, a home spa day does sound inviting! I remember, after WLS, the first time I was able to soak in the tub, as it was too tight when I was so large. What a luxurious feeling that was! It's those memories that I need to draw upon when the old tapes play.

Liz, 50 degrees and sunshine sounds wonderful too! We're supposed to get up into the 40's today. Not sure about the sun, as it's kind of gray out. Enjoy, as you really deserve it! Thanks too for your sharing about your son and other situations. The sharing from others here is such a support!

Nothing exciting planned for today. I hope to try to get this house in order. I'm not great at housekeeping, but can't stand all of the clutter. I need to follow Fly Lady's (is that site still around?) tip of de-cluttering for 15 minutes at a time. She also suggests the 27 plan, which is to put 27 things away, put 27 things aside to give to Goodwill or the like, and to throw 27 things away. Neither plan is overwhelming, which is what usually happens to me and then I put the tasks off yet another day. Did I say that procrastination (and guilt of course) are my middle names? lol

Grocery shopping is on the list as well, but I'm waiting to hear from my older DD, about what time she gets out of work, as we're going to try to meet her halfway between here and her school (about 1/2 hour or so for each of us) and get her some supplies. Today is her first day at her new job - yay!!!!!! DH's job of 20+ years was cut this past summer. He was sought out for the same job with another agency, as he has a good reputation. However, they pay all of their case managers the base wage when hired, no matter how much experience they have, so he took a significant decrease in pay. With both of us in the social work field, which notoriously doesn't pay well, money is tight. So having DD working will help. We'll still help her out, but she won't need as much. I've encouraged DH to speak with his supervisor about how much of a financial struggle it is and he's torn about what to do, but it's really up to him whether or not he speaks up.

Well, enough about all of that! Have a wonderful Saturday my dear friends! Hugs, Mary

Mary, wanted to comment that so glad that your DD2 has all manners of support as she navigates. It is amazing what is available in community/schools today.

Isn't it fun to have a working DD1? It seems so accomplished.

Slept in today until 8:30 - felt wonderful!

Will be going to the mall soon with DS#2 to buy him a new suit. He has made it to State in Academic Decathlon so needs a suit for competition. How cool is it that he and his friends join in on an extracurricular activity that involves essay writing, speech giving and test taking for competition? They came in second in regionals against many bigger schools and will now go to state. Proud of that boy!

Will soon learn (again) the art of paying bills. DH has handled all of our finances the last 21 years, time to take it over while I can ask questions if needed. Still trying to figure out how expenses will flow with about 1/2 the current income. I know I will figure it out but also know I will have to curb some of my bad spending habits. I'm the extravagant one, not DH - the majority of the discretionary expenses are mine!

Had a little heart rhythm problem at work yesterday. Docs will tweak one of my meds and told me to limit my driving as much as I can (I almost passed out yesterday). Stupid ventricular tachycardia anyways!

Have a great day my friends!

Love that competition and esp love (but not surprised) that your DH2 did so well. Fashion (esp boy fashion) is very off topic for me, but I love the retail salesmen (boys to me) at Nordstroms. They are so stinking cute in their sartorial choices. It will be fun to shop with that son of yours.

Hope you're ok Paula!

Congrats on super smart son Paula. Take care of that heart. DS

Ann, that reminds me - I have a bunch of gift certificates for massages that I need to use ASAP! Time to make an appt. for next week I think!

Hi guys!

Woke up in the middle of the night with a sore throat so I canceled my group class (no penalty if you are sick) this morning and slept in. I do have a "how to use TRX" workshop later but that won't be as nearly as hard as the usual group class.

Spa Day: hmmm, I want to like spa stuff, and look forward to spa stuff, but fail to implement. For example, soaking in epson salts/lavender oil to sooth sore muscles isn't soothing. My mind does not relax, it is busy thinking "am I done? Can I get out?" With massages, I used to worry about my fat rolling underhand and now I think of my loose skin and scars.

Paula: that heart! For heavens sakes! It is easy to imagine that it needs those massages.

This reminds me of when they found cavitary lung lesions when they were staging my breast cancer. My regular medical team was doing its thing (cancer? infection?) but my naturopath asked "is there something that makes you breathlessly sad?" Extreme sadness/grief (particularly if suppressed) is thought to cause lung disease in some cultures. Of course I lied and sad "no" but she sent me to a counselor anyway.

It is so interesting how different cultures perceive cause of illness and what real "health" means.

Find your Feels, hug your skinny,

Shel

PS, heard a presentation on sleep meds yesterday. They are incredibly ineffective, even ambien (I will have to find/post numbers for you, Ann). Ambien (and others) is thought to be beloved because it causes a component of amnesia so that patient doesn't remember not-sleeping.