Monday December 18, 2017

Weight 115.7, calories 1043. I'm hoping I can get this post in as our internet is not working properly and the WiFi connection keeps dropping.

I feel pretty back to normal today (though I don't look it). Maybe I'll wrap presents if someone can carry the stuff into one room for me. I'm not supposed to do any heavy lifting. I still look pretty weird, but my eyes are fully open now. I have these weird connectors behind my hairline for the brow lift which I hope go away soon but I can somewhat hide them under my hair. Taking a shower yesterday made me feel like a human again. Tomorrow I see my PS for stitch removal (don't know when these connector things go away).

Have a marvelous Monday!

Weight: 178.4. Still feeling pretty decent about weight gain consistency. We'll just see how these last couple months go.

Church yesterday and then mahjong. I took kale and broccoli slaw from Trader JOe's--the kind that has all the components bagged and you just mix up. Really really good. Others had a bell pepper-feta frittata cups, grapefruit and blueberry salad, and then some assorted pastries and wassail (also from TJ's and really good).

Then DH and I did a wrapping marathon and watched a couple Christmas movies. More like fell asleep to Christmas movies.

Time really does heal all wounds. Three years ago, my relationship with my DSD felt irreparable (without getting into details). My future with DH, questionable because of it. And yet a couple days ago the anniversary of that most infamous day passed without my notice. Instead, today I started my day out with being the first one to find out that she made a 4.0 in her first semester of college. My heart leapt with maternal joy and pride. And yesterday it was her idea that she and her dad unload the dishes and reload them before I got home!

So I guess my theme for today is perspective and time. Just because something is the way it is today doesn't mean it cannot change. Even in the worst of cir****tances.

I love hearing how your relationship with DSD has changed. And here you are making a new sibling. How wonderful!

I love, love, love! What a joyous post!

Congrats to both of you, BB!

Weight 159.2, Calories 1158

Hallelujah for soft foods today! I'm in the 150s. I never ever thought I'd see that. My dad and his wife came over for a little while yesterday. The good news is he looked better than I thought he did at Thanksgiving. His spirits were good too and he was very encouraged by his first two visits with his trainer. He's going 3 times a week now and they are working on strengthening what can be strengthened to compensate for his nerve damage. The trainer has a masters degree and special training working with stroke patients and older clients. So hopefully he'll be a big help. At one point though, my dad who is so supportive of my weight loss and surgery looked at me and said "wow, Ceec" and not in a good way. It's not just me who thinks this is too much lost! I'm so looking forward to working on building some muscle back in the new year. Who said that? Me?

In that vein I've actually been thinking about goals for 2018. Not resolutions, as those have never worked for me, but a list of things I'd like to accomplish next year. It's so nice to not have "lose weight" at the top of that list for once! And to be hopeful about the future and wanting to try new things is also a new frame of mind. What a nice place to be.

Do you set goals for yourself?

Today I'm meeting up for lunch with my hiking girlfriends to exchange Christmas presents. Should be lots of fun. Right now I am going to eat what will likely be the best yogurt ever! Happy Monday, everyone!

So glad you're healing well and get to have clean hair, Liz!

I set goals in my head, but generally don't publicize them. Which might be why I don't achieve some of them (food for thought)? I always managed projects at work and had timelines around them. Maybe personal goals should be managed like work projects...or maybe not (again, something to think about)?

BTW, I do think your weight is probably a bit low. So your next challenge may be how to add a bit back without sabotaging your new eating routines.

I looked back and I'm 15 pounds less than when we met in Long Beach. You're right about not losing my good habits! That would be easy to do. I'm going to try to approach it as a science experiment in transforming body composition...

Cecily, I'm a big fan of resolutions / goals / plans / whatever you want to call them. In this past year I have set goals of getting off Ambien and eating 8 V/Fs a day, among other things -- and achieved those.

The resolution is a good thing. But the PLAN is what makes it happen. I want to think and write more about this as the New Year approaches.

For me, metrics are critical to achieving my goals. "Measure what matters" is one of my favorite mantras.

Greetings Holiday Preparers

Gosh only two posts! You'd think it was Christmas or something. Oh wait, it almost is!

143.5 today. I did a nice dog walk yesterday but being around the house just has too much stuff to eat. Runzas for dinner and too many late night peanuts. Plus some tostada shells. Gotta dump these. Fish or chili tonight.

Weird connectors Liz?? sounds like some sort of cyborg!! Hope you can get rid of those soon and heal up and go out and enjoy fluttering eyelashes!. I have a couple of friends who have done this and they look great.

BB so glad things are better with your DSD. Time indeed (plus maybe a little maturity on her part) does help. It will help make for a great Christmas at your house.

Lots to do today and most of it is not holiday stuff. Banks, accountants, investment stuff. None of it any fun. But the kiln opens and its the last one before Christmas so we shall see what comes out. My gallery inventory is low and I work tomorrow I think.

DH is going to get rid of his car - its a 1996! He only drives around town so I think we are going to look at an all electric that is coming off a lease. You can get some good deals. All our cars are ancient. My prius has over 200k miles but runs beautifully. I want a brand spankin new one.

Just heard about a horrible train accident in Washington state. Hug your families.

Hey Diane O, looking forward to hearing more "Chronicles of Atlas". Puppy fun indeed. You will raise a great dog.

More later maybe as the day unfolds. Diane S

DianeS, I now depend on you for my local news. I had no idea. How awful.