Monday, 11/27/2017

That's really helpful to hear, Diane!

Aw, man, Monday actually came! SUCKS! I really enjoyed my sleeping time this Thanksgiving weekend! Liz, of course, you needn't worry about such trivial things as the beginning of the work week any longer. You lucky dawg!

Did some mental and physical food prep for tomorrow. Over packed school food. I had planned to finished at least four servings of fruit/veggies by lunch time, but alas, I have only had a small to medium sized banana along with a protein bar and my lunch had a serving of green beans. So I'm 1 for 2. My goal is to get in 5 servings a day for the time being. I know I can do it - especially once I am not eating the refined carbs that have been bedeviling me these past months.

Periodontal appointment after school. Always a joy to get my teeth cleaned and gums inspected. LOL! Seriously, it is. I have inherited my mom's poor gums, but at least got very strong teeth. I have my teeth cleaned 4 times per year - twice by the regular dental hygienist and twice by the periodontist. With good dental care and daily oral hygiene I have been able to stop the recession and have been able to avoid any gum surgery - other than a laser treatment I opted for which has been shown to actually regrow bone tissue in addition to getting tissue to adhere once again to the root surface thereby reducing pocket depth. Like y'all need to know about my oral health!

Tomorrow is detox day. And I'm feeling a little bit like the tiny self devil that appears in a poof of smoke is sitting on my shoulder saying, "Why bother, kid? You know you'll just go back to sugar. Save yourself the grief." But mini little self angel pops up on the other shoulder to whisper in my ear, "You know you can do this and if you really, really apply yourself, this could be the very last "detox" you will ever have to make. Believe in yourself. You are stronger than a craving. Think how proud you will be when..." and suddenly a sweet cheese galette with berries appears and self angel gets distracted... Must not get distracted! I see myself as a little cartoon character, just like Goofy, with my little devil and angel on my shoulders!

Making the most of a Monday back in the grind!

Strangely I haven't been sleeping well most nights. I need to figure out a good wake up/go to bed schedule.

Calories 1550. Yesterday I skipped a vyvanse and slept all day and all night. Woke very rested. Been in the woods most of the day. DS1 is having land cleared and I am dragging logs out of the burn pile. An ash tree a walnut tree and part of a birch tree. If I was in the fire wood business I could start at one end and go to the other. Hurts me to know they will burn it so I may start cutting firewood. Most of the trees are small. Too small to mill. Good therapy if I find balance in the amount. Balance is key to so many things. I have been out of balance for the majority of my life. Books that I have enjoyed around death and after life: Proof of Heaven by Eben Alexander, Heaven is real, by Todd Burpo, on death and dying by Elizabeth Kubler Ross, she has at least 2 more books one on grief and the other on after life. But I have not read them. More later, David