Thursday, October 19, 2017

Okay, big win for me today. Went grocery shopping (hungry, even though I know not to do that!). My very favorite bakery item (white sheet cake with buttercream frosting) was on sale for 1/2 off ($5 instead of $10). I've never seen it on sale before! Oh how I wanted to put that cake in my cart, but I didn't! I bought what we needed for dinner tonight and over the weekend and a bunch of stuff to give to the food pantry but no white sheet cake with buttercream frosting. Yay me!!!!

Good job Paula. You won't regret not buying that cake and you are probably already over it. I remind myself thats its a false economy to eat all your restaurant food rather than toss it because you paid for it. You can toss it, take it home or pack it on your ass! Just because favorite stuff is on sale we don't have to get it and you proved it! DS

great job. It was filled with icky chemicals and maybe had flies on it at one point. Love the false economy comment too

Ok so Devon I read your post and I think we have so many similarities.

My grandmother definitely expressed love via food--and perhaps one of the difficult things with her aging is she's given up most cooking and perhaps I feel the loss of this brand of "love."

But I also definitely express and feel love through food. Actually, I feel lots of things through food! And you're right, it's a notion commonly accepted in the wls community that it's a bad thing to celebrate or mourn or whatever with food. I've pondered this a lot. Was this the source of my obesity? Yes and no. I'm sure it would've been easier to be thinner without grandmommy's candy bowls or homemade goodies. But I also think a lot of my weight battles were my biochemical predisposition. And regardless, it doesn't matter. My conclusion has been that this is who I am, and I just don't really have an interest in a loveless relationship with food. I see some thin people successful by treating food as just, well, food. But I also have very thin and fit friends who delight at food, and shopping, and taking food photography, and eating just as I do who are also thin. I don't think that has to be the determining factor in success. And thank goodness, because loving food is loving with food is a lot of who I am. So I've finally learned to embrace that. Food is so cultural and familial. It's definitely part of my identity! (Note: I do think this may be a difficult and different struggle as I prepare to raise a healthy, not obese child, whilst showing affection through food. Balance!)