Monday October 2

Weight 115.5 (back up the 1 pound I was down yesterday), calories 956.

I have been awake since 2 am (got out of bed at 4 since going back to sleep seemed out of the question). Our 16 year old chihuahua was barking like crazy so I had to go see what was going on. She was standing next to her bed looking totally freaked out and even bit me at first. But then she calmed down and I was able to tuck her back in (she likes to be covered). She is still quiet this morning though she did lift her head a bit a while ago (she usually sleeps late in the morning).

The BBQ was fun - it was hosted by a lawyer DH used to work with. She bought a house on a lake last year and the party was on the deck on the water during a beautiful fall afternoon. One of the husbands is a singer and sang folk songs for about an hour or so. We also bought apples at the nearby orchard (Cortlands). It would have been a great picking day but we didn't have time.

Back to the work grind today - these last 6 weeks are going to drag. Will be thinking about Ann and her DH today.

Have a monstrously good Monday!

Good morning, all!

Liz, that sounded like a beautiful day. Then your usual disrupted sleep. I do feel bad for your little gal.

Ann, thinking of you and DH today.

Here in the PNW, I have an early workout then off to work. (DianeS, since you are PNW, too, you are going to join me in the early workout, right? Right??????) Later, I am leaving work a couple of hours early to get my hair colored. The other pharmacist *****cently returned from a 3 week vacation is going to need to take 3 weeks off for a medical leave. I need to get some neglected grooming maintenance work done before that happens.

It is a rough world out there. Hug yourself, peeps and pets.

Shel

Positive thoughts and energy to folks and loved ones killed and injured in Las Vegas. What a senseless tragedy.

Ann, you and DH are in our hearts and thoughts today.

Carmel apple pie was the form of apple that I collided with yesterday. Rather than being satisfied with a taste, I picked at my slice throughout the day. Up a pound today, and deserved.

Devon... eager to hear how the pup's injured paw made out.

I know so sad. DH and I were in Vegas just a few weeks back when the Barcelona tragedy happened. (We loved Barcelona and were very sad to see Spain in tragedy). But we commented at the time how we thought Vegas would be safe from a vehicle attack because of all the barricades and bridge walkways. Unfortunately evil can usually find a way.

It's happened in Paris, in Nice, in Barcelona, in Orlando, in New York city, in Las Vegas, and even in my beloved, safe, Oklahoma City. It masquerades under different causes, but it's all evil.

I feel unsafe today. Why all this senseless tragedy?

161.4 today. For reference I looked back 30 days ago I was 160.4 on MFP. 1lb. in a month. Of course that could just be the randomness of the days I chose. But my weight has been hanging right around there. I'm fine with slow gain for now, especially since I'm nowhere near underweight--but as I get closer to 3rd trimester I will expect to see a steady rise of at least 1lb./week

Tbh I'm kind of shocked I'm not gaining more. when I think about all the conscious WORK it was to lose 1/2-1lb./week in the springtime--I mean eating light/ff cheese, trying not to snack, not eating out at lunch, working out 4-5 times a week, cutting back on wine, etc. etc. And now I'm eating pretty much as I want to and gaining only 1lb./month? I think my body reeeaalllly likes this weight!

I made it through the weekend. It was very busy. But my husband, ever the optimist, reminds me that we are stressed out only because we're so blessed to have so many wonderful things pulling on us. With the exception of the funeral (which, in a different way, is still a reminder of how blessed we are with our friendships).

the funeral was terribly sad, as to be expected. The 20 year old daughter blames herself, especially for not being there when her mom died (how could anyone have known?! 46 year olds don't typically die, at least we don't think). But the celebration of life was a nice tribute. I went ahead with my movie night, as I had a friend coming in from out of town. And at the end of the day, this is a reminder to hug our friends now, while they're still with us. I made French Onion chicken (it was French themed because Beauty and the Beast) and I thought it was deeeelish. Luckily it could be held over while I went to celebration of life. I'll post the link on here because I think it's a pretty good high protein di**** was essentially a riff on French onion soup.

Yesterday I spent the first half of the day with out of town friend and going to an old homes tour. It's a nice place to be when you begin to think your house is better. I mean these houses are way more expensive, but I just feel satisfied with what I have and I couldn't be more grateful.

I do want to admit some weird feels I had. I hope y'all don't think I'm a terrible person. I just think if anyone could understand, it'd be you. Sometimes I feel more compassionate towards obese people, but sometimes I feel like I've heard the excuse before--I wrote the book on it! My weekend friend has been obese as long as I've known her. Sometimes it's hard for me to remember the things I did--7 years ago and maybe I've rewritten my history. I don't feel like I ate THAT MUCH. She ate a lot. LIke get one dessert, take 2 home. And she ate straight cinnamon butter alone from the plate. I don't remember doing that stuff. But she is considering WLS and one thing she said that resonated with me was "I figure soon I'm not going to be able to eat this." I remember feeling that way. I'm really trying to understand. But I guess I'm also trying to be able to see behaviors and mimic some and steer clear of others. She's leaning toward RnY but was most alarmed that I said I'd become lactose intolerant since VSG and I also warned her she might get dumping syndrome. Idk. I've seen friends struggle after WLS and sometimes it's hard to tell who will be longterm successful and who won't. One that was not was always getting venti frapps and just essentially treated WLS like a yearlong break from weigh****ching. But I also know several people counted me out because I don't eat a strict diet. I wish I could tell my friend "hey, you gotta be committed to doing x, y, or z, or forget about wls." But I think at the end of the day, it's still the best chance--for everyone. And maybe once she starts losing weight some of the habits will follow. I know they did for me. It took me nearly 7 years to start exercising and feel good about it. I didn't know how I would turn out after wls. But I knew my fate if I didn't :( So thanks for letting me ramble, I guess at the end of the day I'd say GO FOR IT.

Ann-just read your post from yesterday and hugs and prayers for whatever awaits you today.

QUICK post ... still no home internet and am running low on phone data after 11 days with only a cell phone connection to the web.

Biopsy showed lymphoma cells, BUT they're not the "bad" kind like hubby was originally diagnosed with (large B cell, mantle cell .. a very ****ty form of lymphoma!). Doc says this is a "jus****ch-it form of small cell lymphoma and will not compromise your survival. It could go away on its own. If we have to do something we'll excise it surgically or put some very low-dose radiation on it or, worst case, we'll treat it with one pill a week."

Given what hubby's been through thus far, this news was like "Would you prefer milk chocolate or dark chocolate?"

And because this is a weight maintenance forum, this morning's weight was 131.8, and yesterday's veggies and fruits were 9.

Although not perfect, it sure does sound like good news considering the alternative!

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I am thrilled for both of you!