Thursday July 6

Greetings Busy Ones

135 today ( think as I didn't have glasses). Bad food day yesterday. We went to a goofy tourist spot - Trees of Mystery - and ended up eating chicken tenders and french fries. Only part of a kids order but still ...

Joey so glad there are things to be done for your daughter. Hope is a good thing.

Paula, I understand your mixed feelings about the doctor report. A second opinion is always a good thing. Mayo's is great.

Puppies dancing. What an image. In our down moments we should all think about dancing puppies.

Enjoy the wine country Ocean Diane. Seems like when I get there I am rushing to somewhere else. Some time I will stay longer.

Guests still here. Its off to the Victorian Village this afternoon.

Take care of your skinny sweet selves. Diane S

OMG! I am being a total slacker today! I love it, but I do feel guilty in a way. Gotta let go of that. Ron, as I mentioned yesterday, went to pick up the Frenchie. This is the first day I have had all by myself at home in months and months and it is absolutely delicious! All I have done is puttered about. Relaxed with coffee, surfed my go to web sites (you know the internet is a weird thing.... It's there, but not there....real, but not....It's sort of spooky when you really sit and think about it....This technology is magic, even if it is science....), cooked some dog food, ordered some dog food, and found a great deal for PB2 on Groupon and ordered that. I didn't even clean up and get dressed until about 11:00 am!

If any one is interested in the PB2 here is a link: PB2 from Groupon It is a truly good deal. I got 6 1 pound jars for $35.99. The 6 oz jars in the market are $5.50+.

Weight was down a whopping .2 pounds today! LOL! Completely undeserved, too. I had carb cravings from HELL yesterday and went with it. I think my workout saved my azz, though! We upped weights again and I worked out for an hour and heaved and dripped and reveled in the changes I am seeing in what I'm able to do. It is sort of addicting....And thank goodness for that. I need a new addiction, and one that is healthy certainly works for me. I think I will always have to have some sort of addictive focus in my life. It's who I am. What I want to do is try to achieve a balance so I can do well in all areas of my life and not let one fall apart for the sake of another. Does anyone else do that? Looking back, I have a long history of that sort of behavior.

Isobel Foxen Duke has a great approach to body image/weight loss/food relationships. She's sort of tongue in cheek, but serious at the same time. I like her no nonsense approach. I don't agree with everything she writes, but she is worth checking out. I especially like the high value she places on emotional eating. She encourages her clients to look at it as a gift. You might enjoy checking her out.

I don't know if anyone has noticed that we sort of seem to be in sync on this board. We all started doing some type of internal work 4 to 8 weeks ago in some area of our lives (medical, supportive, personal relationship, internal or self relationships, etc...). Over the past two weeks we all also have all reported enjoying some of the fruits of that work. So, I thought I'd share my "Ah ha" from my shrink session on Monday.

For the first time in a very long time - actually the first time ever that I can remember while being overweight- I'm okay with what I weigh. Yes, I would like to weigh under 200 pounds again, BUT it's okay that I don't. As a matter of fact, if I never lose another freaking pound, I'm okay with that, too - as long as I'm making food choices that are right for me and I'm not succumbing to my eating disorder. I AM HAPPY BEING ME.

What I want now is to work to see the person I feel inside reflected back at me in the mirror. Who I see reflected back does not match how I feel. My challenge, not goal, as I see it, is to gradually help me make the choices to allow the physical person under the layer of safety fat emerge, gain confidence, be accepting of himself, and stick around and learn to exist and function. That is no short order and is going to take some time. Hopefully, I will be granted the time to meet the challenge.

Enough introspection for now.... got to get off my duff and get going. But I am so enjoying being a slug today.... Heheheheheheheheeeee!