Tuesday. June something

Yes, please do wear a bear bell. I walk to work through a wooded trail and have one attached to my bag. Mama bear and two cubs were out the back this evening.

it was a quiet day in ....... Stealing a line from Garrison Keillor. Am a huge fan!

cumulative walk upon which at one of them I nearly jumped out of my skin when a deer jumped out about a yard in front of me. Talk about cardio workout.

Have a wonderful Tuesday!

Never encountered a bear when out hiking. We do have some black bears around though! I don't carry any protection but rarely hike in secluded areas solo.

Still in the lower 140's. Eating was pretty good yesterday (I did have a protein bar instead of a shake at work and did eat 3 little sour patch kids gummies) but overall choices were very good and calories were quite low. I was hungry, especially in the evening but I survived it (the saying of "hunger is not an emergency" that I have seen on these boards kept resonating in my mind). Still feeling hungry this morning, but again, not an emergency and to be expected! I also got in 14,000 steps yesterday - nice walk over lunch at work and then busy the rest of the day.

Have a terrific Tuesday my friends!

Summary of eats yesterday:

Good morning Carbon!

I had a busy and beautiful weekend. It was supposed to rain all weekend, and according to many friends on the other side of the city it did. But for us it held off and was a beautiful cool, overcast weekend. I know I will be missing that in the middle of August! So we went to a food truck festival and then art gallery walk on Friday, Saturday my sister and I went to the farmer's market for some wine (!) produce, and flowers, and then I bit off more than I could chew and bought plants for my backyard and containers, went to a baby shower, came back and planted it all with DH's big help, and then collapsed with some pizza. Sunday was my monthly mahjong and we did a summer-themed brunch. I took fried green tomatoes blts (with the tomatoes from farmer's market) and some apricot scones I'd bought there. Delish. That evening we saw Wonder Woman, which I highly recommend. Very pro-woman!

Starting back to the gym yesterday. I've been going for the past month, but it's been much more sporadic. Probably twice aweek on average. So hoping to get back to 5x/week.

Calories yesterday? Probably around 1500. I stopped counting at 777 prior to dinner.

Dinner: Grilled fish on a cedar plank (DH caught the fish) with chimichurri sauce (about 2 oz.), grilled golden zucchini from farmer's market (1/4 c.), handful of lettuce + creamy avocado dressing, 3 T. or so of Spanish rice and a piece of watermelon

Dessert: split a banana and cinnamon chip muffin I made with my DSD. Sent them with DH to office. Too good to keep around!

Exercise: 1 hr. chest and tris for about 200calories burned. My left side chest is SO much weaker. Like my right could keep on going but left has nothing left.

Weight: 154.2 I need to buckle down if I want to lose more weight, but I have enjoyed the eating this week. It felt very normal but I think it was still within acceptable limits for me. My attitude towards food is something I'm trying to keep okay because when I diet, that attitude gets false messages and I end up eating things I don't like and hating it. I don't know if that makes any sense, but I want to try and avoid a "diet" mindset. Unfortunately losing weight always means a deficit, which can put me in that thinking.

208. Super stressed, putting my focus outside of work squarely on my grandsons where I can make the biggest difference. The younger one wet the bed Sunday night. The older one had a good cry while we were talking last night. My daughter barked at me pretty harshly yesterday, and I understand that she's overwhelmed and I'm safe, but for the love of monkeys...

My son is stable (knock wood). His psychiatrist had a death in her family, canceled his last appointment, and I could not get ahold of anyone in the office to reschedule. I stopped in there Saturday to set it up, but they will not call in any medication until he is seen even though he will run out before the appointment. I asked for a few days' emergency supply but having no luck.

Financial troubles are getting worse but I am due a raise that will be retroactive to this past Monday and the support hearing with my ex-husband is Friday. I have been in survival mode and actually ran out of my staple foods at work. I gave my last $5 to a fundraiser without realizing that my account is tapped out. So, I was scrounging for food, which is usually very easy in my office but today is a slow day. Everyone is gearing up for a big party tomorrow. Luckily, I found a packet of steel cut oats that someone put up for grabs and some homemade empanadas. Not knowing how they were made or what was in them, I opted for the steel cut oats and will up my protein tonight. Tomorrow, I will bring in a big bag of edamame from my freezer at home.

I am getting lots of steps and lots of water.

Hugs Joey. I don't know how you do it all. First and foremost be kind to yourself. Second, is there anyone you can reach out to who can help you with some things? Or at least be a phonecall for support? When you're overwhelmed, eating healthy seems like yet another stressor (and takes time and/or money). I try to remind myself that eating healthy is not punishment, but self-love, and that you cannot pour from an empty cup. That being said--don't let it be something else to put on yourself. You are human, you are worthy. I think if you start from that mindset, the eating will follow rather than doing it the reverse way--and I've tried that many many times.

Hugs and prayers to you. You will get through this!

Greetings Dear Ones

Good Lord Joey my heart breaks for you. Wish I could help and hope that raise comes through.

And here I was getting ready to gripe about my own problems which are mainly gallery operation with a crashed computer. Its nuthin' . 136 today.

So take care Joey. Check in here as often as you need to.

Off to gallery messes today and to get money from the bank and pick up some groceries.

Yikes Carbon, a deer can sure startle you because they are usually so quite. BB sounds like you are doing well. All your fun events sound great.

Take care all. Diane S

Joey, Something has to go your way soon. Thank goodness you are there for your grandsons.

Super late post (8 pm, almost bedtime), as I had a long day on the office today. Weight 116 this morning, calories 970 yesterday. Doing super high protein, low carb. It is making me feel very full and kind of backed up - luckily I will be near home for the next 2.5 days starting tomorrow afternoon. Of course that is after leaving at 6:15 am tomorrow morning to take DH to Boston for clinical trial baseline exams. But: only 3 days (after tonight****il vacation!