Wednesday May 24

Hi guys,

No weight today. Simply forgot. Huh?

Open House was last night and I spent about 14 hours away from the house yesterday. Sheesh, I was tired. Even though I was tired, I had a little wait before falling asleep. I don't believe I was asleep until almost 12:30 am and I awakened at 5:30. Stayed in bed though sort of dozing until 6:30. Luckily, I don't feel terribly tired right now, though I did have a period around 1:00pm I could have taken a wee nap.

Diane O, congrats on a nice 2 year post op check. Glad they decided to let go of the 145 lower limit. If the 129-134 range is working for you and you've settled nicely there - Hallelujah!

Again, Liz - so sorry.

BB - enjoy your vacation. What a great goal! I will agree that it will be a very difficult thing to manage. When you do manage it just imagine how empowered you will feel!

Paula - so nice to see the secret gift DS#1 received. something I hope he takes to heart. I have put several things out of my control into God's hands lately and that has brought me a great deal of release and levity of spirit. Sometimes I can hear Doris Day in the background singing Que Sera, Sera...

So... Vyvanse and the fluoxetine have seemingly taken away my intense 6 year obsession on food, weight loss and eating. I wonder if this is why I am forgetting to weigh each morning? Yesterday, started to dress and realized I hadn't weighed and went back to weigh myself. I was up .8 yesterday. I forced myself to weigh last night, just because it's what I've done for years and years (weigh morning and night), but honestly I didn't really care. I was pleased to see I was up only a pound from morning to night. Usually it's at least two. But, I digress...

I am having a hard time planning food ahead of time because food just doesn't have the same finger licking good draw it's had for decades. Yes, I still love, love, love food! Don't get me wrong. I love wonderful flavors and textures and now that I've adjusted to the Vyvanse, there don't seem to be foods that I just don't like (as was the case when I first started). I'm used to planning and thinking and considering what would "taste good for dinner" and have used that type of thinking to drive my eating for years. Now it's like I don't really care too much what I eat for dinner as long as I get protein. I really just love protein and salad and a few specific carbs and fruit - especially berries. I still enjoy my yogurt and nuts, but I'm not compelled to eat it the combo every morning at 10, as I have been for 5+years. I made some for school yesterday and still haven't eaten it. I brought it home and it's in the fridge here. Might just eat that for dinner.

Ella is away until June 7. Blue is being bred to Max, the top winning Airedale in all of AKC history tomorrow morning. I feel very lucky to be doing this breeding. This is one of those turn it over to God situations. I took a risk in making the call and it was met with such positivity Max's owner made it happen overnight. Semen arrived at the repro vet today and we will implant the semen surgically into Blue's uterus tomorrow morning. Gotta love science! And...Lucky, lucky me. I'm hoping for at least one really good litter. Maybe I will be blessed/cursed with two! LOL!

Happy Hump Day. May your Thursday be Thrilling!

Good luck with the breeding! When will you know if it "took"?

The effect of taking the drugs is really interesting. Is the expectation that you'll continue on them indefinitely? If so, are there any health concerns about that?

Will know if the breedings took 28 days after breeding. I could do a palpation at 21 days, but I worry about damaging a fetus doing it that way. I'd rather spend the money on an ultra sound.

As far as I'm concerned the fluoxetine is for life! LOL! I had no idea how really depressed I was until I started taking it. It has been nothing less than a miracle for me. I had no idea that this is what "normal" feels like. It's an easiness I've never really known. I don not know about the Vyvanse. It does come with some health concerns like elevated BP, insomnia, anxiety, cardiac issues, but so far so good. I am sleeping well now that I have adjusted to the med. The only time I felt truly anxious was last weekend with all the stress over Ella's breeding. But the moment I figured it all out, the anxiety cleared right up. I can feel a little "jittery" about 2 hours after taking the dose in the morning, but that goes away.

Interesting side effect from the Vyvanse - I am warmer than I have been in a long time. Yes, I don't like cold, but I'm not wearing a hoodie or sweater anymore in the warm weather. I've actually been going short sleeved inside at school with the AC on. I do still always turn off the AC in the teachers lunch room, though. IT's FREEZING IN THERE! Too many hot flashes going on in that room! LOL!

My mom always sang, Que Sera Sera, and it calms my daughter immediately.